Good grief, I lost it!

I'm having surgery in 5 days and I think I had my first emotional "outburst" today at work. Someone irritated me so bad that I kinda let her have it and then went to the bathroom and cried. That is NOT me. I'm thinking it's all a part of the emotions that are sneaking up on me already regarding the surgery. I'm so ready and excited to regain my health.....but I'm a little sad at the same time. Please tell me this makes sense. Even though the person totally deserved it, I was still embarrassed because I never handle situations at work with that much emotion.( Everything turned out fine, by the way) Anyone else have any embarrassing moments like this pre-op?

Yes, it makes sense.  This is a significant decision and a life-changing event, so the increased nerves and emotions are completely normal!  (Get used to it, because it will probably be that way for a couple of months post-op, too!)  

A few people (like me)  -- and most of them seem to be those who are older at the time of their surgery -- are pretty calm, just mostly excited, in the couple of weeks prior to surgery. (Even then, though, the night before surgery or the day of surgery can be very different.  I slept fine the night before surgery, was fine when we got to the hospital and when they took last-minute labs that morning,  it as soon as they took me back to the surgery prep area, the nerve**** me BIG TIME!  By the time he surgeon poked her head in, I was really scared and I burst into tears!)

You will be fine, and I am sure that your coworker would understand if you just told her you were starting to get nervous and are a little tightly strung right now.

Lora

Thanks, Lora.  It's good to hear it's normal!  I was so surprised at myself afterwards I thought I was losing it. lol  I think part of it, at least for me, is that I only really know myself as a fat person. I have not been normal sized since I was about 8 yrs old. So the last couple days it's dawned on me that I have no idea what I'm like as a thin person. It's a little scary. I don't anticipate that my whole personality will change, but well...I guess it's just fear of the unknown. I need to get a grip, huh?! lol

You just called me older! For shame!

LOL.  Older is very different than OLD, of course!!  

Lora

I was a bundle of nerves in the week leading up to surgery, and I was very teary in the 1 - 2 weeks following surgery.  It is such an emotional time, so try t take some deep breaths, forgive yourself for not being perfect, and picture pretty clothes in your goal weight size!

My surgery is coming up soon and i'm a total wreck too, you're not alone.

Congrats to both of you on your surgeries! I'm sorry you both feel like this, too, but it's good to hear I'm not alone! It's such an odd feeling.....excited and sad at the same time. Yes, deep breathing and some relaxation are in order.....now if I could shut my brain off for a little while. lol

It sorta feels like we are going to be losing an old friend.  Although I was thin until our second son was born C Section.  I was looking forward to finding my old self and fortunately I have.  

It is normal to be emotional. I was quite surprized when I suddenly realized that the " old " me - the person I always critisized, was not going to be there anymore.