ogling women at the zoo today

I do it too.  I think a lot of it is, I see myself as obese still.  I don't know what the magic number will be on the scale or if it will ever happen.  But, I look forward to just being me, enjoying my day, children, husband ...zoo....and not worry about it.  You know?  I do hope that I can be a size 10 though....that would make me super happy.