Tell me how much better it gets...tell me it's worth it
I don't want to whine or complain. But surgery is tomorrow. Today's my last day on all clear liquids. My emotions are raw because I'm starving and I miss food already. I keep looking at my kids wondering if risking the life of their mother will be worth it in the end. I have thought about calling and cancelling my surgery because dangit it would just be nice to out to dinner with my family tonight. I think the reality is all sinking in. This is really happening...and I knew going in it was going to be hard work...but now I'm experiencing the beginning of the hard work and it makes me want to run! What have I gotten myself in to?? Now I know a version of this post probably shows up a lot but if ya'll could humor me and just remind me that it gets better and I won't be on liquids forever...I'd really appreciate it!
Don't dream it. Be it.
on 2/20/14 9:30 am - Canada
It will get better and easier and in a month you will really be seeing the progress. In a few more months it will all be routine and you'll be more worried about what kid has what practice then you will what happened back on this day. Don't give up, you are doing this for your kids as well as yourself!
the weeks before and the couple of weeks after till you start eating real food is the hardest
I still need to lose plenty but Im like a new person already at 7 months out , and im a slow loser
my sugar is controlled with out shots , I can walk , I can by cloths in a regular store , I can find pants that fit
I go out to diner all tjhe time now , just need to be smart what I eat ,
the deli I go to has eggs with home made beef bacon , it fits in my plan and I eat like a normal person just less and very few carbs
You're almost there! This is temporary. Your chances of dying from WLS are extremely low. Your chances of dying of complications of obesity are significantly higher. You can get through this. Suc**** cubes tonight to numb your taste buds.
After surgery, your hunger will be greatly diminished. In fact, you may find it hard to get the amount of food and liquid you need just because your tummy will be so much smaller. Fear not! It will get better. You will be able to go out to dinner shortly. You won't be eating steak and pizza, but you'll be able to find some fish or shrimp you can eat.
Everybody goes through the same doubts that you have. Trust your instincts. You wouldn't have gone all the way to the finish line if you didn't think it was worth it.
HW: 229 ; SW: 208 (-21); GW: 125
Wt. Loss: M1: 189 -(19) M2: 178 (-11) M3: 172 (-5) M4: 170 (-2) M5: 166 (-4)
Follow your signature line darlin'! You are at the peak of the toughness right now - you're scared, grieving food, and know that you have some days yet to go before you'll really start on your journey.
If you had a best friend that poisoned you, beat you up, made you ashamed, and threatened your very life, what would you do? That's right - kick them to the curb! But after you do, you start thinking about the good things that friend made you feel; comfort, relief from sadness, someone to turn to when the going got tough.
Your best friend is your eating habits. It's normal to mourn the loss of the food you've grown to love, even though you know it's slowly killing you. It's normal to be afraid of what life is going to be like without your comfort.
But I have news for you. Your life will return to normal; a new normal. You'll still be able to go out to dinner with your family, but you'll no longer be so inclined to poison yourself in the process. And your education about good nutrition and exercise will become your kid's education, and eventually change their lives as well. If you do this right, your great grandkids will have the advantage of having you around to play with.
The game is just beginning - tomorrow the work starts. And it is so freakin' worth it in the end!
Best wishes for a speedy recovery - we'll see you on the Loser's Bench real soon!
Height 5'4" HW:223 Lap band 2006, revised to Sleeve 5/8/2013, SW:196
