SO all you know that I'm struggling

I was told at the doctors then again when i got home the doctors office called to remind me that if i dont loose weight I will not be having the surgery. I started the pre op diet 18 days early so I'm going to be on my pre op for 32 days. I dont really have a choice because I HAVE to loose weight by friday. TOmorrow is my scope and I'm not sure if they are going to weigh me in and then again on friday I will be weighed and need to have lost weight and lastly I will be weighed on the 18th. IF there is not continuous weight loss or if heaven forbid there is any gain I will not be having my surgery april 10th. It has been difficult the last two days but I am averaging 20-30 carbs a day in protein shakes alone. I HAVE had some meat. chicken today and sausage yesterday but tomorrow with getting the scope I will only be doing shakes and hopefully that will kick off the start of only shakes. Tomorrow the reason I KNOW i will only be having shakes is because my scope isnt until 1:15pm and i can not drink any shakes until after I'm done. Also I have had the scope before and I was pretty much knocked out until the following day. So thats my reasoning there. I worked out hard today. I did 20 min zumba class and couch to five k day one... i actually completed it. EXCELLENT RIGHT? I also did tons of packing and housework so i'm pretty happy. Yes I am moving while preparing for surgery. I SHOULD be in the new place by the first and surgery is on the tenth. UGH cutting it close. I'm scared because when the doctors office called to remind me that i had to loose or surgery would be cancelled she said even if i loose he may still cancel. I'm terrified of that.  So far I am down a little more than a pound but thats on my scale so I dont know if that is true of their scale. You know all scales seem to be different. I'm scared of being weighed tomorrow but I also want to be weighed to confirm my weight loss. I am going to walk tomorrow morning with my son vefore he goes to school and I'm going to do UFC trainer on xbox kinect after he leaves. Then I'm gonna get a shower and try to take a nap before its time to go for the scope. I want to sleep as much as possible tomorrow cuz i tend to get sick when I dont eat for long periods and i stopped eating around 5 pm today so it will almost be 24 hrs by the time I can eat again. UGH any way I'm really really trying to loose this weight. ALSO I bought those keosticks, yesterday all day they were reading negative, then this morning they read the first color which is a small trace now I'm on the second color which is still a trace but I'm getting there slowly. Hopefully with the fast tomorrow that will kick me in quicker. I'm gonna check tomorrow morning upon wake up. I love those keosticks. they are amazing little things and they surprisingly motivate me to exercise :D everything that helps is a good thing. I can't wait till this scope is done and Im home. I pray this surgeon is understanding and forgiving and remembers that I just quit smoking less than two months ago.

I also forgot to say, i ordered the sugar free syrups and some new protein shakes so I will be all ready for post op. I'm ready now I just need to be confirmed!!! Pre op appointment with surgeon is march 18th then the surgery is scheduled april 10th. The reason there is such a gap is because he is going to be gone for military obligations so they had to schedule it way early.

I'm so sorry you are being put through this. Your surgeon just ****** me off. He's a fatty hater and nothing more. 

--gina

the real kick in the face was that after crying in the office with shame for gaining 3.6lbs after quitting smoking he still had his secretary call me within minutes of me being home to remind me he may not do the surgery. One way or another I'm glad I'm almost done with him. If he cancels I'm going to another surgeon.

If he does and you do fire his ass--good for you! If you keep him for surgery only, we can help you with vitamins and such, and your PCP can run labs.

--g

thanks I appreciate that. I am definitely done with him one way or another after surgery.  Only reason I'm not dropping him now is because I dont want to start all over

I understand. You're between a rock and a hard place.  : (

not sure what to do now, I have weighed myself this morning and says taht in the past 4 days I've lost almost 2lbs. Thats great right? except I am too scared to believe it. So my question is, should I go to my scope early so I can get weighed and show another weight loss or should I wait till friday? I want to prove I'm loosing weight but I have this feeling of doom over my head that if I weigh in now some how I will gain the weight I lost back by friday. UGH what would you do?

I would get the scope out of the way early. They may not even weigh you but if they do, know that weight fluctuates throughout the day. You're at your heaviest in the evenings.

--g

I HATE the way they threaten you with cancelation.  Motivation by fear is not the way to inspire people.  My surgeon did have a pre op diet, but didnt say how much you had to lose on it.

Stick with the low carb, it works.  I have done atkins in the past and lost like 20 lbs in a month.  Sending good vibes and hugs your way.