After having my 2nd daughter and giving it a few months to "lose the baby weight", I was still 280+lbs. In 2011, about 18 months after her birth I started tracking calories on MFP. I lost 90lbs on my own and started to feel happy with my weight. Which then meant that I put about 30lbs. Then I started Weigh****chers and dropped the weight again, got happy and you guessed it, put it back on plus 10lbs. 

This last time I put it back on, it really hit me that THIS IS MY LIFE. I could keep doing this forever or I could make a permanent change. I had a lot of resistance at first from pretty much everyone. They argued that I had lost it before, so I should be able to lose it again. But, what I KNEW was that I would gain it back plus more and eventually I'd be at that 280lb mark and I'd want to die. 

I am now 6 weeks post op from the sleeve surgery and I've lost just shy of 50% of my excess weight to my first goal (that goal will drop I'm sure). But, I'm also at that "happy weight" that I used to lose down to, but this time I know that I WILL continue to lose! The surgery is no quick fix and I work every day at it, but I SO happy I did this for myself! 

My BMI pre-surgery was 36.2. I'm not quite 6 weeks post op and I'm at a 30.9 BMI. No regrets. NONE. I knew that doing it at a 36 BMI meant I wasn't going to do it at a 46 BMI in 5-10 years. I got a lot of comments about how I "wasn't that big" or "I think you see yourself bigger than you are". But, I ignored them and I feel great! 

I've gotten the same comments. My BMI was around 37. People kept saying 'just stop eating' or 'just go on a diet'. Sure, why not do it...again and again and again and .... see where I'm going? I'm almost there and I've been on the pre-op shakes for about 9 days. I've lost another 12 lbs in the last 6 weeks so my bmi is now just under 35. You have to do what's right for you. This is your body, your life. 

Where do you buy those mixes?

You must be a very talented Lady!!!