Lots of meetings and running around.

decaf protein coffee 33g
2 eggs
veggie beef soup
lemon tea protein 13g
chicken, salad
protein shake 25g

Hey everyone. This forum used to be a many-times-a-day stop for me after my RNY January 2008.  Lots of life happened since that time.

Right now, I am trying hard to NOT FREAK OUT but honestly its super hard. I had great weight loss, a total of 80 lbs within my first year. I was ecstatic because I did not have any cravings at all, for years. I had dumping which I honestly felt very grateful for. 

I can't remember when I had my first "regain" but I did gain about 10 lbs, and honestly still felt great. I figured it was a bounce back, and I could live with it, tons of energy, loved being small and feeling a bit bony at times! But then, I think it was at the 3 year mark, I gained 10 lbs after I had back surgery. And it was a very fast gain, seemed like I was 145 one month and 155 the next. After that, weight crept up very slowly until I was about 165.  I still had dumping, I still had a very restricted ability to eat....I don't exactly know what went wrong. But in 2013, I went on a vacation, and one of my goals was to lose weight. Since I was going to Europe, I took my protein with me--a good quality low carb-zero sugar protein. I did a mountain of walking on that trip, and was gone 26 days. Once I got home, I waited a few days to get thru the jet lag, and when I weighed I had lost 7 or 8 pounds. So I was back at the 155-158 range and stayed there. Then sometime last year (2015) I gained another 10 lbs, seemingly overnight, then this year I have gained up to 183 as of today.  I AM FREAKED OUT!

Now, some things have changed which I know are part of it. I had a tremendous amount of family stress this past year that is just beginning to settle down. I was depressed. I have chronic pain and it wasn't controlled well. Now that I have a handle on that with the help of my GP, I need to figure out everything behind the weight gain. I feel like I am able to eat too much. I don't eat bread. I rarely eat pasta. I eat fish, some chicken (its not always the best for me), beef, pork--I always go for the hard proteins before I eat anything else. It feels like in the past 3 months or so I've suddenly become able to eat too much. About a month ago I seriously increased my protein supplements which I had not been good at, and currently take in 60-80 grams a day in supplemental zero sugar protein shakes.  

I'm not sure where to go or what to do. I do need to start exercising again, that was derailed by some of that stress our family was having. But I feel lost. Is something wrong with my pouch ?(since I can eat more than I should be able to ) Previously, if I ate 2 oz of meat, I could eat maybe a couple of tablespoons of veggies, and that was it. I am a firm believer in not eating sugar but I have been craving it like crazy. I can't even handle milk because of the sugars. I tend to stay away from things sweetened with any of the alcohol sugars. I don't have dumping any more, not the way I used to. I've noticed that if I eat something with carbs or sugar, my heart races, and if I don't eat enough protein, then the next day I have these weird "sugar shakes" as we call them, like a low blood sugar reaction. Once I go back to the protein and no/low carbs, those stop.

Any advise or ideas? I don't know where to start. I want to stop the gain and I want to get back to 145 at the most because that is where I felt the best. Right now I just feel fat and gross and unhappy.  

Thanks you guys. Also is there a forum on OH that deals with regain? I know they aren't always super friendly with lightweights. Oh and fair warning, I haven't looked at my signature in years so I have no idea what it says!

I'm so sorry, Roz. Give your SIL a hug for me too. I feel so bad for anyone targeted by any kind of willful hater. 

Soup sounds Yummy!! 

I made vegetable soup at the beginning of the week but my tummy didn't like the tomato base.  I've got try to beef next time.   Hoping to make Ham and Bean over the weekend.

WARNING TO SELF AND TO ANYONE WHO WILL LISTEN!!! AVOID 'BAD' CARBS AT ALL COSTS!!! THEY ARE ADDICTING!! THEY WILL SLOW DOWN YOUR WEIGHT LOSS DURING THE LOSING STAGE (and you won't even notice)!! THEY WILL MAKE THE SCALE GO UP AFTER THE HONEYMOON PERIOD IS OVER.

Success in Maintenance starts with GOOD CHOICES during the Honeymoon Period.

I feel I need to repeat this: I am a FIRM believer in Good Whey Protein Drinks!!!!!  It is sooooo much harder to do Maintenance without them!

My scales were down to my "NORMAL" range this morning!!!

Maintenance:  8+ years out 

Breakfast: 

Protein:   Matrix Mint Cookie 35g

Snack:     Nuts, Cheese, Raisin

Lunch:     Scrambled Eggs, Cheese and Sausage

Protein:   Matrix Mint Cookie 35g

Snack:     Nature Valley Almond Crunch (Gluten Free one)

Snack:    

Dinner:    Roast in the Croppot

Snack:     Plain Popcorn