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I seen a few people reach out to me in my email so I believe its time for me to show gratitude and post. I am still excited that God brought me through that surgery. I remember praying on the surgery table scared to death wanting to hurry up and get that anesthesia so that I could go to sleep fast .....so that I can wake the hell up fast....LOL. True Story. I  handing myself over to God....just believing that I was in HiS hands. And here I am today .....I had a protein filled lunch (Kielbasa and beans with shredded cheese and dollop of sour cream and a Protein Shake.  Today  I am a perfect size 6 down from being a 24.  To God be the glory.  That's me getting  my shout on ! Hallelujah. 

If you are considering this surgery today and you are a food addict...(Which means you not only have a weight problem but also a food problem) .I will encourage you in this....the addiction to food doesn't totally get lost, beloved it will still need addressing.  was a 12 Stepper in Overeaters Anonymous and then the Big the other strict 12 step eating program which was  the Cambridge.Greysheet of Greysheeters Anonymous  http://greysheet.org/cms/  (where although I did experience some success, I was not willing to do all of the requirements.regarding the food.

However, I am experiencing more freedom from obsessing over food than prior to the surgery and I feel like I have been given back some of my power of choice to eat or not at times. I have more power over food when I stay under six grams of sugar as I was instructed by MY Doctors office. Then the phenomenon of craving does not set in  forcing me to binge.

Honestly what I have learned in this whole surgery is that food is NOT my friend nor my lover...it can be my worst enemy when I utilize it to soothe  or nurture as opposed to its God Given true reason which is to ....feed my body and get nutrition. If you want this you can do this surgery you through prayer ....determination and also...friends and I mean .the people in these forums......So many are on here every day . This is like the Facebook of obesity surgery ...they have reached out to me...and I have reached out to sooo many on here. Several of us went to surgery the same week it which made it more comfortable and I made me feel like I wasn't going under the knife alone.......Here are my suggestions for Newbies or long time scaredy cats that want it  lol it takes one to know one trust me on that) or perhaps you are still going back and forth on WHICH surgery to do....which can be frustrating ..( hint ...remember with some there are no do-overs) But perhaps you don't want to leave yourself a cushion l didn't. 

1. 1.Reach out to the Old timers in here they have had years of success and are here for you Trust me I was a damn pest to them and still am LOL ...
2. .Make some friends who are where you are at in  the process it is good to have someone to talk to ...make as many friends as you can and discuss things that are on your mind with them

.And speak to those who just came out  of surgery as well as those who need revisions you want to learn from others mistakes

But those Old timers....with long term success......Priceless....and have some sugar free or Splenda made chocolate if possible for Valentines Day....but don't wait for anyone to buy you any.....buy it for yourself....you deserve it .

Smooches beloved,

And no matter what keep it one hundred with yourself!

What does that mean? One Hundred Percent Real!!.

.in other words To Thyself be true..

Kim ....

aka Sugar Mama....

about to post my latest pic

Hey there Obesity Help,

Shout out to my old friends who are still on OH, the old timers who pet me up post surgery,  and to the new people who have just joined....Welcome!! I am excited that I am approaching my one year anniversary. It has been some journey. I haven't posted in months because guess what.....when you lose 100 plus pounds life begins to happen and you get out and actually start living this thing called life. I actually have one now.  I began enjoying my journey. I have learned a little more about this whole process as I have gotten down the road a few yonders...and one thing I know for sure is that this is work and it will probably to some extent always be....!

I am no longer concentrating on losing weight as much as I am on maintaining my progress. I didn't think I would be watching calories...but I do. I didn't think that I would ever consider exercises ever...but I have. I didn't think I would ever stop posting daily or weekly on OH but I did just because life was happening and I have been in the heart of it and loving every moment of living. I thought I would hate soup by now also, but I don't....shooot gurlfriend love me some damn soup...what??!!!  SOUP'S ON !!!.. Bring it!!! .Its still a life line for me along with the grace of God. I am glad I am even alive....because us on the forum know there are a few who do not have the privilege of soup anymore for more than one reason. I didn't think shakes would still be a part of my life style but for today it is still a must for me ...its like "Always returning back to basics" and not forgetting where I came from and what got me here.
I am doing so many things that are exciting and creative in my personal life that I am amazing myself. I get so many compliments from people "EVERYDAY"  that I have finally re~learned how to actually take a compliment without feeling uncomfortable or undeserving.......its simple you just warmly smile and say "Thank You". LOL
I am so grateful....
I am so grateful...
Just for today ....Beloved, I am so grateful. ...
It would be sinful not to post my pics-so I will attempt this computer stuff. LOL I love you and email me at agemforever@gmail  if you want to talk ..that is for Old timers with more advice or warnings and also newbies. I am here, I am here...Thank God ...This ole chick is still here...and I love her.

Smooches 
Love
Kim Wilson
Aka Sugar Mama
 still getting my shout on
and doing the happy dance of Joy
PS I recommend that new documentary on HBO "The Weight of the Nation" Its Powerful!!

 Wow ...I haven't blogged in a while....but am thankful that I am doing it tonight. I need to post some new pics I am about 60 lbs down and have made it to onderland...how awesome is that. The old timers told me that it would get better. And it did.....I still don't love certain meat anymore....it gets stuck. I hate that. So most times I opt out of trying. I feel wonderful that my full energy has returned and then some just like everyone told me it would. I crack myself up with how fast I walk jetting around the halls at my office. You would think someone gave this former lethargic child a shot of redbull....I finally began exercising and it feels great...even a little weights have been added to my regimen. Life is great...and with the grace of God, a lot of hard work, committment  ...and support from people who know my struggle....I only expect it to get Even Greater!....who knew?!
Holla @ya girl!

Kimberly 
AKA
Sugar Mama!

Okay finally I am returning back to work on September 1st the day after tomorrow. I have been out for 90 days. I am still very lethargic but not as bad as before. Also my insomnia has returned when I have a cup of coffee. So I guess NO Coffee. It has always been a food crutch for me though perhaps I will have it on my day off. I am not enjoying my meals yet. Food is still a rough mountain for me to climb. I never knew that food would be so challenging to deal with post surgery. People make it look so easy but I have learned that it is not. Although post ops have slim bodies ....that food is something else. I just don't do well with meats. I get full after like 3 bites. I guess it will get better. I am grateful for this surgery and grateful for this weight loss but as a food addicted person I would be lieing if I said I didn't miss binging away the emotions. But I can't do THAT for sure....soo thank goodness. Maybe now I will relearn to deal with my emotions as I am a very passionate and emotional woman and that is who I am. ...deal with it!

Sugar Mama

 On August 14 it will be two months post op. I must be honest, with all the crap I have spoked I have still not started excercising yet. I want Zumba ....does any body have it and does not want it? I have not enjoyed my eating times. Eating is so hard for me. Am I ever going to be able to eat anything other than soup? Everything seems like it gets stuck and I have to bring it up it to get relief. Maybe I am expecting to much to soon. All I know is if I have meat ...I have a miserable day. Keep me in prayer. Not loving this not eating. But loving how it is forcing me to cope with life. I am going to Amazon or Ebay and looked for a used Zumba....maybe that will bring me joy.

{Peace)
P ositive E ating A ccelerates C onfidence and E steem

Sugar Mama 

Well today I thought I would venture out on the rough terrain as advised since the Chicken and Salmon fiasco on the last 2 days and tread slowly on a soft scrambled egg. And it worked..! For about 7 seconds before I needed to bolt to the bathroom door . That was currazy . I am calling my husband right now to pick my ass up some soup (minus those huge dumplings) from Golden Krust  and i' going to be gratefule that there is something else that I can eat today  besides string cheese! LOL .
My birthday is on the August 2nd I guess ...soups on. I will make a pot of seafood soup or something. 

See ya peeps

Kimberly 
Aka
Sugar Mama

I am allowed to eat meat now and was so excited ....I made some really soft salmon and which was high in protein and some creamed spinach (full of iron and protein and low sugar) ...I was so excited...well I had it steaming in garlic with a drizzle of lemon....NOT>>>>>what was I thinking ....even with the small 2 tablespoons of each that I had ...that salmon was not staying down at all. That was a joke. I couldnt do the soft baked chicken yet either. Hopefully this doesn't mean forever....
But for now its back to soup and cheese.....I guess. 

Kim
Aka
Sugar Mama

 Well I can surely say that this surgery has been transforming. It is still a little rough getting all of my protein and fluids in on days ...but I have discovered that if I get my fluid in and my vitamins I feel ......well lets say not to fatigued. I have been able to get out a little more. Still don't see me returning back to work yet. Hopefully I can get it together by September 1. 

More than anything, I am happy that food is not my whole life these days. 

Kimberly
AKA
Sugar Mama

 If your surgery is tomorrow or this week....I am thinking about you tonight and you are on my heart.  I remember all the thoughts going through my head the night before surgery some sane and some insane. If you are a little scared ...I think that's normal because it means you have a healthy respect for this surgery and you are amongst the thousands of us on this board who have felt the same way.  Sooo.... let your mind be at peace and may you have a speedy recovery. And remember Let God take you in the surgery....and He will bring you out. 

Love you, 
Kimberly
AKA
Sugar Mama

 Okay so here comes the emotions without the food being able to smother them. First of all....my husband was totally uninvolved with the whole surgery he said he wanted to stay out of it. He was fearful and didnt want to bring his fears into it. So I went all my appt and surgery ALONE. Okay no biggie I am a big girl and I can do this. I start the soft proteins tomorrow, like yogurt, cottage cheese and ricotta cheese...so I have been literally on broth water and forcing in protein drinks since June first. The day before the fourth of July we get a call from his Aunt who is actually one of the cool people in his family who wants us to come over and barbecue on the fourth. UM ....NOT! He was not as understanding saying ...you don't have to eat ...but I understand. ...UM NOT...no you do not. They are having a surprise party for the same Aunt and her husband on this Saturday as Catered Event at a Wedding Reception Hall. My husband who wasn't really involved in my whole surgery process Rsvp for him and myself.....UM NOT....I need to take care of me the whole event is going to be surrounded by food UM not ready for all of that yet. Annoyed that he is annoyed. 

Part 2 ...my doctors office was the best at getting me the surgery and pushing everything through for me, however all I wanted was a doctors note to say I need to stay out longer ,,,,,do you think that should be a problem? UM yes ...they all acted like they didnt know what to do which pissed me off. .....ok bitch fest over......I'm taking care of Kim today whoever doesnt like it...HO WELL!

sugar mama