Just-Jenn
My name is Jennifer, my friends all call me Jenn. As far back as I can remember I have been obese. Yes, it has caused unmeasurable amounts of emotional damage to me and my ability to for relationships with others. I think that I have developed into the person I am because of my life journey, here are a few highlights of that journey.
I was heading down the raod to all the problems that I saw my family members battling (hypertension, diabetes, high cholestrol, etc). I tried everything I could to drop weight, I tried not eating, taking medications for depression to help with decreasing your wanting to eat...none of it worked. Reality sucked with trying to manage my weight. I just wanted to be able to live.
One day driving in my car, I thought - what do I have to loose. I am on the path to early death and I am not really even living. I can only eat certain things, I have to take tons of medications, and I was told that I can't have children and they wouldn't help because of my health concerns. I decided I would do what it took to make my weight and health stable and if that was WLS, then I was willing to do what I needed to do to start living. Thats when I found Dr. Currie and the weight loss clinic. Lucky me.
I had RNY - I was very successful with getting healthy- my weight was near normal, my diabetes went into remission, no more hypertension or high cholestrol....and I got pregnant twice!! However, with those pregnancies came complications, hernias, weight increase, diabetes returned. My children are my biggest blessing, but the process has undone a lot of what I worked to accomplish with RNY.
I am now just going through the journey of life, taking things as they come. I am horrible with disliking myself and punishing myself regarding my weight. I have to try to remind myself that my worth is not based on my weight or BMI or my health coniditions. It's not easy, its a challange that I deal with every minute of the day that I am awake. But I have accomplished so much and lived so much more than I would have if I did not have RNY.
As for as my revision wasnt really much of revision; they closed a blind pouch but my originalRNY pouch had not been damaged or stretched so the 'revision' was really more of one of many, many hernia repairs / complications.
My goal is to find a support network of people who get it..so we can help each other. We all need that - and unfortunately, that is hard to find now a days. I have dropped 128 pounds and regained, and dropped, and gained through my life adventures since RNY...but today I am still over 100 pounds down; which my Dr's consider success!
You scored as Fall. You are FALL. You appreciate all that you have, and are willing to share with others. You are a friend in the truest sense of the word, and can easily focus your attention on those who need you, placing yourself on the back burner. You make sure your responsibilites are met before you allow yourself \\\\\\\'free time\\\\\\\'.
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