~suzzanne~ i am so sorry for ur lose...try with all ur might to go and do as u have plan to do...ur mother would be so happy for u if she were here... so hang in there and do as u planed with ur mother...she would be so happy for u... please try... god bless u, my mother is gone to be with jesus, and I WOULD LOVE FOR HER TO SEE ME AS I LOSS WEIGHT, BUT I KNOW SHE WANT, SO I AM DOING THIS FOR MY SELF...this is a life long dream, and god has gave me a change to have a new life... so it begans... lovedove