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No restriction...?
Oct 31, 2007
I'm so stressed out...I had a slight fill yesterday giving me a total of 3.4cc in a 4 cc band. However I still feel like I can eat almost as much of my food as I want. Granted there is SOME restriction, and I have to eat a little slower, and I don't drink with my meals. I don't know what to do...I'm afraid that I have a stretched esophagus or even a slipped band....I wonder if I'd still have some restriction if that were the case...? I guess all I can do is wait and see if I have anymore restriction in a week or so. I hear everyone else saying how they can't eat this or that...for instance, last night I had an egg salad sandwich with 2 pieces of bread...I thought I wasn't supposed to be able to eat bread? Sometimes I struggle with meat though....I can eat 2-3 pieces of pizza...tonight I ate an entire bowl of chicken and dumplings...I feel like a pig. 
6 month band anniversary...
Oct 27, 2007
Well I started this journey looking into getting the lapband done at 266 lbs back in January....by the time I was there to have the surgery, I had already lost 12 lbs with Weight Watchers.
Day of surgery, 4/26/07 I was at 253.8 lbs.
6 months later, as of 10/26/2007 I was at 213.2 lbs, for a total loss since January of 52.8 lbs (40.6 lbs since the day of my surgery). That comes out to 1.5 lbs a week loss from the date of my surgery (based on the 40.6 lbs loss since that day, divided by 26 weeks). I'll take it! I wish it had been more, but I don't feel that I have proper restriction yet, despite 3 fills - I'm currently filled to 3cc in a 4cc band....I see the doc next week 10/30 - I'll see if he thinks I need another fill. I'm able to eat too much, and I'm not going to lie, at times I "eat around the band"....hey, I'm only human, but I'm still working at this!
Nor have I exercised like I should have, in fact up until the past 2 weeks I haven't exercised at all...my bad. But in the past 2 weeks I have started to exercise at least 5 days a week....starting small, I'm started out walking a mile a day, and just this week I upped it to 2 miles a day. Starting next week I'm adding 20 mins a day of strength exercises to my regimen.
Oh well, so far this year I've lost 52.8 lbs, I'm off all of my past medications for high blood pressure, edema, arthritis, acid reflux....I feel 100% better already, even though I still have approx 65 lbs to still lose.
For now I can say that the Band is the best thing I've ever done for myself!
Here's some pics before and current. It's hard to see much of a difference because I was wearing black in the first picture...the first set in each pic was taken 4/25/07, the second on 10/26/07:
this one was taken on 05-29-07:
Day of surgery, 4/26/07 I was at 253.8 lbs.
6 months later, as of 10/26/2007 I was at 213.2 lbs, for a total loss since January of 52.8 lbs (40.6 lbs since the day of my surgery). That comes out to 1.5 lbs a week loss from the date of my surgery (based on the 40.6 lbs loss since that day, divided by 26 weeks). I'll take it! I wish it had been more, but I don't feel that I have proper restriction yet, despite 3 fills - I'm currently filled to 3cc in a 4cc band....I see the doc next week 10/30 - I'll see if he thinks I need another fill. I'm able to eat too much, and I'm not going to lie, at times I "eat around the band"....hey, I'm only human, but I'm still working at this!
Nor have I exercised like I should have, in fact up until the past 2 weeks I haven't exercised at all...my bad. But in the past 2 weeks I have started to exercise at least 5 days a week....starting small, I'm started out walking a mile a day, and just this week I upped it to 2 miles a day. Starting next week I'm adding 20 mins a day of strength exercises to my regimen.
Oh well, so far this year I've lost 52.8 lbs, I'm off all of my past medications for high blood pressure, edema, arthritis, acid reflux....I feel 100% better already, even though I still have approx 65 lbs to still lose.
For now I can say that the Band is the best thing I've ever done for myself!
Here's some pics before and current. It's hard to see much of a difference because I was wearing black in the first picture...the first set in each pic was taken 4/25/07, the second on 10/26/07:
this one was taken on 05-29-07:
1st picture of my grandbaby!
Oct 15, 2007
Weight loss is slow....
Oct 05, 2007
I'm stuck at a standstill...so let's focus on my boobies instead!! They're shrinking, but I love having them!!!
SAVE THE TA TA's!!!!
SAVE THE TA TA's!!!!
Officially down 50 lbs!
Sep 20, 2007
Not since the band, but since I started my weight loss journey in January of this year. I lost 13 lbs before my surgery in April and I've lost the other 37 lbs since my surgery. Not too shabby! I'm happy with it. :)
Ok so my daughter, Shannyne, is almost 4 weeks pregnant...I had
Sep 14, 2007
I had to share!!! Sorry it's so big...I'm sooooooooooo excited. 
I'm going to be a Grandma!!!!
Sep 11, 2007
My youngest daughter Shannyne just informed me that her and her boyfriend Jon are expecting a baby. It will be the first grand baby on both sides. :)
I'm so excited...! They're both young, but they're both very mature and level headed...they'll make great parents! Now I just have to keep her in college!
Ohhhhh I can't wait to have my little grand baby!!!
I'm so excited...! They're both young, but they're both very mature and level headed...they'll make great parents! Now I just have to keep her in college!
Ohhhhh I can't wait to have my little grand baby!!!
Rough week....
Sep 08, 2007
Wow this was a tough week...for the past 2 days I was having chest pain, but I knew it was from anxiety...I was SO stressed this week.
My daughter came home - not sure if that was a good thing or not or if I'm making a huge mistake, but everything seems ok for now.
I had to write up my receptionist - I couldn't figure out why she was 3-4 days behind in her assignments. I work for a managed care company and everything we do has timeframes set by the California Work Comp Labor Code. My nurses only have 5 days to address something and when the assignments are made they need to be current so that the nurse has time to review them. As it is, with my receptionist being behind they only have a day or two to review the medical treatment request. Well she called out sick (the day after the holiday weekend), and I was at her desk helping the gal who was covering her, and I see that she has 84 messages over 2 days back and forth between her and some guy she was apparently being VERY flirty with (mind you she's married). So anyway, I had to write her up because we're really not supposed to get personal email at work, I normally don't say much because everyone gets it, but not 84!!!!! I hate that part of my job...
Then I was giving my assistant her annual performance eval and on attitude and attendance/punctuality I had to give her a 2 (less than satisfactory). OMG she acted like it was the end of the world and I was the worst boss ever. Totally threw a temper tantrum! Mind you, she's been late over 160 times in the past year and I've talked to her on several occasions about this so it shouldn't have come as any surprise. That's one thing that I don't do is wait until the eval to address things and then surprise the person. And she was SO dumbfounded that I was bringing up her attitude (again). I took that moment that she walked out of my office and slammed the door (I went to get her and bring her back), to use as an example of "bad attitude". She said "You don't expect me to be upset????" I said "Yes I do expect you to be upset. You don't expect me to be upset that you're late almost everyday??? And I'll tell you what, it's not the fact that you're upset, it's the way you've reacted to this and many other situations. Do you think that it would be acceptable for me to react to MY boss the way you're reacting here to me? I expect you to be upset, but I expect you to still be respectful and professional" Finally she calmed down and took "some" accountability.
So last night my hubby and I went grocery shopping and my chest was just aching so much, so I came home and laid down. It feels better today, but I think not only was I just really anxious, but I feel like the muscle in my left shoulder got pulled too...it's still a little achy. My pulse and blood pressure were perfectly normal, so it wasn't anything cardiac.
I'm just glad last week is over.
On the good side, we've been down 3 nurses for a few months now (its tough finding good nurses. I have recruiters calling me trying to recruit me at least once a week because of the nursing shortage). I have 2 new nurses starting on Monday!!!! I'm so thrilled...everyone else is too as we've all been working hard and putting in lots of overtime.
Anyway, enough of my ranting! I'm almost down 50 lbs....49.6. I've only lost 1 lb in over a week! BLAH! lol I'm down to 216.6 this morning. 0.6 more and I'll hit my 50 mark!!
Everyone have a great GREAT Saturday!!!!!!
My daughter came home - not sure if that was a good thing or not or if I'm making a huge mistake, but everything seems ok for now.
I had to write up my receptionist - I couldn't figure out why she was 3-4 days behind in her assignments. I work for a managed care company and everything we do has timeframes set by the California Work Comp Labor Code. My nurses only have 5 days to address something and when the assignments are made they need to be current so that the nurse has time to review them. As it is, with my receptionist being behind they only have a day or two to review the medical treatment request. Well she called out sick (the day after the holiday weekend), and I was at her desk helping the gal who was covering her, and I see that she has 84 messages over 2 days back and forth between her and some guy she was apparently being VERY flirty with (mind you she's married). So anyway, I had to write her up because we're really not supposed to get personal email at work, I normally don't say much because everyone gets it, but not 84!!!!! I hate that part of my job...
Then I was giving my assistant her annual performance eval and on attitude and attendance/punctuality I had to give her a 2 (less than satisfactory). OMG she acted like it was the end of the world and I was the worst boss ever. Totally threw a temper tantrum! Mind you, she's been late over 160 times in the past year and I've talked to her on several occasions about this so it shouldn't have come as any surprise. That's one thing that I don't do is wait until the eval to address things and then surprise the person. And she was SO dumbfounded that I was bringing up her attitude (again). I took that moment that she walked out of my office and slammed the door (I went to get her and bring her back), to use as an example of "bad attitude". She said "You don't expect me to be upset????" I said "Yes I do expect you to be upset. You don't expect me to be upset that you're late almost everyday??? And I'll tell you what, it's not the fact that you're upset, it's the way you've reacted to this and many other situations. Do you think that it would be acceptable for me to react to MY boss the way you're reacting here to me? I expect you to be upset, but I expect you to still be respectful and professional" Finally she calmed down and took "some" accountability.
So last night my hubby and I went grocery shopping and my chest was just aching so much, so I came home and laid down. It feels better today, but I think not only was I just really anxious, but I feel like the muscle in my left shoulder got pulled too...it's still a little achy. My pulse and blood pressure were perfectly normal, so it wasn't anything cardiac.
I'm just glad last week is over.
On the good side, we've been down 3 nurses for a few months now (its tough finding good nurses. I have recruiters calling me trying to recruit me at least once a week because of the nursing shortage). I have 2 new nurses starting on Monday!!!! I'm so thrilled...everyone else is too as we've all been working hard and putting in lots of overtime.
Anyway, enough of my ranting! I'm almost down 50 lbs....49.6. I've only lost 1 lb in over a week! BLAH! lol I'm down to 216.6 this morning. 0.6 more and I'll hit my 50 mark!!
Everyone have a great GREAT Saturday!!!!!!
Slow, slow, slowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.......
Sep 03, 2007
Well it's coming off, slowly but surely. I went to my doctor appt a week ago, and he said "you're doing great, I'm not giving you a fill"...ARGH!!! I'm losing maybe a pound a week...I need to lose more. I can eat too much...
I shouldn't complain, I lost 7.6 lbs in August, but that was right AFTER my last fill.
Oh shut up Denise, quit whining! You've lost 48 lbs between Weight Watchers and your lapband this year. I should be grateful!!! LOL
By the way - update on my daughter. She's living between her friends house and some guy she is dating...I talk to her every few days and she seems like she's doing "ok". She seems happy, but I think that she's either drinking, using drugs, or maybe even both. I've finally come to terms with the fact that I can't control her. I took someone's advice that I met here on OH, and I went to a Al-anon meeting. It was "ok", I cried and told my story a little bit. I'm going to go to a few more in hopes that I find one that I like....we'll see. I know that she's alive and I guess what I don't know at this point can't hurt me...or can it?...
I shouldn't complain, I lost 7.6 lbs in August, but that was right AFTER my last fill.
Oh shut up Denise, quit whining! You've lost 48 lbs between Weight Watchers and your lapband this year. I should be grateful!!! LOL
By the way - update on my daughter. She's living between her friends house and some guy she is dating...I talk to her every few days and she seems like she's doing "ok". She seems happy, but I think that she's either drinking, using drugs, or maybe even both. I've finally come to terms with the fact that I can't control her. I took someone's advice that I met here on OH, and I went to a Al-anon meeting. It was "ok", I cried and told my story a little bit. I'm going to go to a few more in hopes that I find one that I like....we'll see. I know that she's alive and I guess what I don't know at this point can't hurt me...or can it?...
Ugh...sometimes I hate life...
Aug 26, 2007
Ugh, well I see that I still want to eat when I'm upset or have had a bad day...good thing I'm tracking my food or I would have sabotaged myself today.
I had to make my adult daughter move out today...breaks my heart because I see her going down such a rough road. We've done the in-patient rehab thing and she did so well, gets out and starts hanging with the group she went to the program with and starts drinking again. I've enabled her long enough, it's time she stand on her own two feet...but it still hurts to do it....
I was upset when I made her leave...she's 24 and I've been dealing with her drug/alcohol abuse since she was 17. She's done a few outpatient rehabs and was kicked out for using. Then she just completed a 6 month live-in program, in which she graduated in May of this year. She got out, found a job, got her license back (she had a DUI March 2006 which is the only time she's been in trouble). Now she's hanging with some of the girls that graduated with her and they're all using or drinking. She's been clean off the meth for 11 months, but continues to drink.
When I found out today that she had been drinking (and driving the car that I bought for her), I finally said enough is enough. I told her that if she wanted to live that lifestyle to go stay with her friends that she's partying with. She said "I'm 24 and if I want to have a beer or whatever on my day off I can". I said great, do it without my help then. I don't want you to call me, contact me or have anything to do with me until you straighten your shit up and want something more for your life. Until then pretend that I'm dead.
Now I feel like shit for saying that...but I truly think that the only way she's going to snap out of this, IF she will snap out of it, is if I cut her off 100%....we're very very close and hopefully it will hurt her as much as it's hurting me. Maybe then she'll see what she's doing to her and to her family...maybe not. We'll see....either way I can't stand here every day and watch her drink her life away. It makes me sick to look at her when she's slurring her words and being clumsy because she's drunk. I called and turned off her cell phone (I was paying for it), and tomorrow I'm taking her car off my insurance. Before she left I told her to make sure this is what she wanted to do because once I take her car off, she won't be able to drive. She'll lose her license (she has to have insurance and an SR22 for 3 yrs from the DUI or lose her license again), she won't be able to register her car again in February without insurance, and if she gets pulled over, they'll impound her car. She's only working part-time and no way can she afford gas, cigs, insurance on her car, food, etc without some help. But she still chose to leave....I just can't help her anymore until she really, really truly wants the help for herself....
It feels like I'm watching her die in front of my eyes and it's killing me....
I had to make my adult daughter move out today...breaks my heart because I see her going down such a rough road. We've done the in-patient rehab thing and she did so well, gets out and starts hanging with the group she went to the program with and starts drinking again. I've enabled her long enough, it's time she stand on her own two feet...but it still hurts to do it....
I was upset when I made her leave...she's 24 and I've been dealing with her drug/alcohol abuse since she was 17. She's done a few outpatient rehabs and was kicked out for using. Then she just completed a 6 month live-in program, in which she graduated in May of this year. She got out, found a job, got her license back (she had a DUI March 2006 which is the only time she's been in trouble). Now she's hanging with some of the girls that graduated with her and they're all using or drinking. She's been clean off the meth for 11 months, but continues to drink.
When I found out today that she had been drinking (and driving the car that I bought for her), I finally said enough is enough. I told her that if she wanted to live that lifestyle to go stay with her friends that she's partying with. She said "I'm 24 and if I want to have a beer or whatever on my day off I can". I said great, do it without my help then. I don't want you to call me, contact me or have anything to do with me until you straighten your shit up and want something more for your life. Until then pretend that I'm dead.
Now I feel like shit for saying that...but I truly think that the only way she's going to snap out of this, IF she will snap out of it, is if I cut her off 100%....we're very very close and hopefully it will hurt her as much as it's hurting me. Maybe then she'll see what she's doing to her and to her family...maybe not. We'll see....either way I can't stand here every day and watch her drink her life away. It makes me sick to look at her when she's slurring her words and being clumsy because she's drunk. I called and turned off her cell phone (I was paying for it), and tomorrow I'm taking her car off my insurance. Before she left I told her to make sure this is what she wanted to do because once I take her car off, she won't be able to drive. She'll lose her license (she has to have insurance and an SR22 for 3 yrs from the DUI or lose her license again), she won't be able to register her car again in February without insurance, and if she gets pulled over, they'll impound her car. She's only working part-time and no way can she afford gas, cigs, insurance on her car, food, etc without some help. But she still chose to leave....I just can't help her anymore until she really, really truly wants the help for herself....
It feels like I'm watching her die in front of my eyes and it's killing me....
About Me
Fresno, CA
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34.2
BMI
Surgery
04/26/2007
Surgery Date
Feb 19, 2007
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