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It's coming up fast...!
Apr 17, 2007
Well, it's coming up fast, faster than I had expected - and I find myself eating things that I shouldn't be eating, amounts that I shouldn't be eating, and I think to myself "Why am I doing this all of the sudden?? I was doing so well since January, and I've lost 14 lbs on my own just by doing Weight Watchers. Now here I am 9 days before my surgery and I'm pigging out like a pig. Am I ready for this surgery???"
The answer is YES. I know that eating like I have this week is wrong, however, it's the reason that I'm having this surgery to begin with. If it were easy for me, I wouldn't be having the surgery to begin with! I know that the LapBand is just a tool, but I am confident that with the right amount of restriction, I will not be ABLE to eat the things that I eat now. I am ready for this.
Has anyone else experienced this right before their surgery?? I go in next Monday to do my pre-op labwork and I only have to do one day of clear liquids. I've read so many others have to do a few weeks of clear liquids - not sure why my doctor doesn't do that, but I'm not going to argue! :)
The answer is YES. I know that eating like I have this week is wrong, however, it's the reason that I'm having this surgery to begin with. If it were easy for me, I wouldn't be having the surgery to begin with! I know that the LapBand is just a tool, but I am confident that with the right amount of restriction, I will not be ABLE to eat the things that I eat now. I am ready for this.
Has anyone else experienced this right before their surgery?? I go in next Monday to do my pre-op labwork and I only have to do one day of clear liquids. I've read so many others have to do a few weeks of clear liquids - not sure why my doctor doesn't do that, but I'm not going to argue! :)
So excited!
Apr 04, 2007
So my surgery date is April 26th and I just found out that my buddy, Inky, is having her surgery on the same day!!! So she'll be here in Fresno and I'll finally get to meet her. :)
My friend Cheryl from work is having her lapband the same day as well...It's going to be such a wonderful day for us all!!!
My friend Cheryl from work is having her lapband the same day as well...It's going to be such a wonderful day for us all!!!
I thought of being bad...
Mar 25, 2007
So my hubby and I decided to go out to breakfast this morning (his idea of course!). So I'm sitting there reading the menu, thinking that the biscuits and gravy sounded YUMMY. I thought to myself "In one more month I may or may not be able to eat this stuff again, so why not??". I went back and forth in my mind, the angel on one side, the little devil on the other....well I'm happy to report that the little angel won today. I don't want to gain 20 lbs between now and my surgery - I'd like to lose another 10 lbs at least so that I have that much less to lose once I'm banded! :)
I ended up having scrambled egg whites, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, and fresh fruit. Strangely enough, at first it wasn't as yummy as I wanted it to be because I was staring straight into my hubby's plate of "skillet scramble" with lots of meat, veggies and cheese. However, I took small slow bites, chewed well, and after a little while it tasted just as good as his looked. Well maybe not AS good, but it was very satisfying. So then I left there and felt wonderful for making another good choice.
However, I blew it later LOL. I had an order of onion rings and a few girl scout cookies. I will have a VERY light dinner to make up for it - I promise myself!!! :)
This is so hard....I hope that once I'm banded that I have good restriction and won't be able to eat (or want to eat) these things.
I did pick up some Isopure drinks today...kind of wanted to try them and see what tastes good (if any). Also picked up some little chocolate puddings with 20 grams of protein each. I'm thinking "they're healthy, how good can they be???" LOL
I hope that everyone had a wonderful weekend! It's so pretty and breezy out I think I'm going to make my hubby go for a short walk with me!
I ended up having scrambled egg whites, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, and fresh fruit. Strangely enough, at first it wasn't as yummy as I wanted it to be because I was staring straight into my hubby's plate of "skillet scramble" with lots of meat, veggies and cheese. However, I took small slow bites, chewed well, and after a little while it tasted just as good as his looked. Well maybe not AS good, but it was very satisfying. So then I left there and felt wonderful for making another good choice.
However, I blew it later LOL. I had an order of onion rings and a few girl scout cookies. I will have a VERY light dinner to make up for it - I promise myself!!! :)
This is so hard....I hope that once I'm banded that I have good restriction and won't be able to eat (or want to eat) these things.
I did pick up some Isopure drinks today...kind of wanted to try them and see what tastes good (if any). Also picked up some little chocolate puddings with 20 grams of protein each. I'm thinking "they're healthy, how good can they be???" LOL
I hope that everyone had a wonderful weekend! It's so pretty and breezy out I think I'm going to make my hubby go for a short walk with me!
Surgery date....
Mar 19, 2007
My official surgery date is April 26th!!!!! I'm soooo excited, yet I'm scared too. I have so many things to look forward to, but I also have fears...fears of the unknown I suppose.
I'm afraid that I'll fail as I always have at losing weight. I'm afraid that I'll lose this weight and continue to have the same health problems that I have being fat. I'm afraid that my family won't be a good source of support (yes they're all overweight and love to eat - including my hubby). I'm afraid that this will affect my marriage - and I love this guy dearly. But despite all of my fears, I know that for myself I have to do this. *I* am tired of being overweight, I'm tired of feeling unattractive, and I'm tired of being unhealthy.
Here is a list of my goals:
1) Get rid of my high blood pressure (and the meds that go along with it!)
2) Get rid of my swollen ankles and legs (and the meds that go along with it! lol)
3) Get rid of my aching joints (and the meds that go along with it!)
4) Get rid of my GERD and hiatal hernia (and the meds that go along with it! jeez I'm on a lot of meds....)
5) Hopefully have more of a sex drive for my poor hubby (it's not as fun when some positions just hurt or make your arms tired LOL)
6) Be able to tie my shoe without that sideways bow and without having to lift my leg up on the bed and get out of breath
7) Be able to wear shirts that don't go down past my butt so that I can hide my gutt and butt! (or at least THINK that I'm hiding them)
8) Be able to try on clothes in the regular "misses" section without trying to be inconspicuous in the "plus size" section of the store.
9) Be able to try on a bra and have it actually fit all the way around me. I went shopping for a bra this weekend - Do you believe that not even Lane Bryant (for plus size women) had a bra that was a 48C??? I guess C cup there ends at a 44 which was too tight....I just wanted to cry so I'm still wearing the only bra that I have left that I've stretched enough to fit....
10) Be able to walk to the bathroom in the middle of the night without the bottoms of my feet killing me
11) Be able to sleep all night without waking up and waking up tired (I think I may have sleep apnea - I snore louder than a man LOL)
12) Be able to fit into a 12 (a 9 would be great...hell who am I kidding??? I'd settle for a 16 right about now lol)
13) To not be afraid that I'm going to die from heart disease because I have so much fat in body and my arteries...heart disease runs in my family, as does diabetes, hypertension, etc. I feel that by being fat I'm slowly killing myself. Sure I could get hit by a bus tomorrow, but I can't control THAT. I CAN control what I do to my own body.
12) To have a BMI under 25 (I'll even settle for under 30)
13) To be able to sit in a chair and actually fit.
14) To be able to go to a concert at the local convention center and fit comfortably in the seat.
15) To be able to wipe in some very specific places (or dry off, or shave my legs) without getting a cramp in my side from twisting back around.
16) To be able to clip and paint my own toenails and not depend on my daughters or the hubby to do this for me.
17) To go get a massage and not wonder if the masseuse is thinking of charging me double LOL
18) Be able to feel attractive and healthy again....
I'm afraid that I'll fail as I always have at losing weight. I'm afraid that I'll lose this weight and continue to have the same health problems that I have being fat. I'm afraid that my family won't be a good source of support (yes they're all overweight and love to eat - including my hubby). I'm afraid that this will affect my marriage - and I love this guy dearly. But despite all of my fears, I know that for myself I have to do this. *I* am tired of being overweight, I'm tired of feeling unattractive, and I'm tired of being unhealthy.
Here is a list of my goals:
1) Get rid of my high blood pressure (and the meds that go along with it!)
2) Get rid of my swollen ankles and legs (and the meds that go along with it! lol)
3) Get rid of my aching joints (and the meds that go along with it!)
4) Get rid of my GERD and hiatal hernia (and the meds that go along with it! jeez I'm on a lot of meds....)
5) Hopefully have more of a sex drive for my poor hubby (it's not as fun when some positions just hurt or make your arms tired LOL)
6) Be able to tie my shoe without that sideways bow and without having to lift my leg up on the bed and get out of breath
7) Be able to wear shirts that don't go down past my butt so that I can hide my gutt and butt! (or at least THINK that I'm hiding them)
8) Be able to try on clothes in the regular "misses" section without trying to be inconspicuous in the "plus size" section of the store.
9) Be able to try on a bra and have it actually fit all the way around me. I went shopping for a bra this weekend - Do you believe that not even Lane Bryant (for plus size women) had a bra that was a 48C??? I guess C cup there ends at a 44 which was too tight....I just wanted to cry so I'm still wearing the only bra that I have left that I've stretched enough to fit....
10) Be able to walk to the bathroom in the middle of the night without the bottoms of my feet killing me
11) Be able to sleep all night without waking up and waking up tired (I think I may have sleep apnea - I snore louder than a man LOL)
12) Be able to fit into a 12 (a 9 would be great...hell who am I kidding??? I'd settle for a 16 right about now lol)
13) To not be afraid that I'm going to die from heart disease because I have so much fat in body and my arteries...heart disease runs in my family, as does diabetes, hypertension, etc. I feel that by being fat I'm slowly killing myself. Sure I could get hit by a bus tomorrow, but I can't control THAT. I CAN control what I do to my own body.
12) To have a BMI under 25 (I'll even settle for under 30)
13) To be able to sit in a chair and actually fit.
14) To be able to go to a concert at the local convention center and fit comfortably in the seat.
15) To be able to wipe in some very specific places (or dry off, or shave my legs) without getting a cramp in my side from twisting back around.
16) To be able to clip and paint my own toenails and not depend on my daughters or the hubby to do this for me.
17) To go get a massage and not wonder if the masseuse is thinking of charging me double LOL
18) Be able to feel attractive and healthy again....
My approval!!! hehe :)
Mar 18, 2007
Woooo hoooo!! I'm approved!
Mar 16, 2007
Now I have to wait for my doctor's office to call me with the surgery date....I'm SO excited!!!
My insurance company has already assigned me a Nurse Case Manager who can answer any insurance questions, any medical questions (although I'm a nurse too!) as she specializes in bariatric surgeries.
I can't wait to be an official "lapbandster"!!!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! :)
My insurance company has already assigned me a Nurse Case Manager who can answer any insurance questions, any medical questions (although I'm a nurse too!) as she specializes in bariatric surgeries.
I can't wait to be an official "lapbandster"!!!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! :)
My birthday....
Mar 11, 2007
Well I've turned the big 41 today....Ya I've cheated a little this birthday weekend because the hubby wanted to take me out to eat a few times...so I don't even want to weigh this week - so I'm not going to lol...I figure I won't be able to eat these kinds of foods after my surgery so I said "Why the hell not??" - and I did.
Now I'm kicking myself...
Funny thing is after I ate those "high fat" foods, I felt horrible physically...it really made me sick to my stomach and I'm still not 100% today.
Well I have a busy day ahead of me....wish me luck getting through the birthday weekend without gaining 5 lbs!
Upper GI yesterday...
Mar 03, 2007
Oh joy, what fun that was. Rolling around like a beached whale on that TINY little table. So then they tell me that I have the worlds SLOWEST emptying stomach, that I now hold the record lol....
Ya, so I have a Hiatal Hernia. Don't know what else it showed because they didn't tell me, but I dropped the films off to Dr. Felix so I'm sure he'll be calling me soon.
I have my appointment for my nutrition consult on Tuesday, and I also am scheduled the same day for my psych eval. The only thing with that is that I have to pay for the psych eval myself and submit it to my insurance for "possible" reimbursement and this gal I have the appt with charges $350. I have another appt scheduled with some guy who charges only $175 however the first appt he had available was March 20th. Do I want to wait that long??? AHHHHH I'm too impatient. I probably will pay the $350 so that we can submit to my insurance company sooner for approval.
I'll keep you all updated!
Ya, so I have a Hiatal Hernia. Don't know what else it showed because they didn't tell me, but I dropped the films off to Dr. Felix so I'm sure he'll be calling me soon.
I have my appointment for my nutrition consult on Tuesday, and I also am scheduled the same day for my psych eval. The only thing with that is that I have to pay for the psych eval myself and submit it to my insurance for "possible" reimbursement and this gal I have the appt with charges $350. I have another appt scheduled with some guy who charges only $175 however the first appt he had available was March 20th. Do I want to wait that long??? AHHHHH I'm too impatient. I probably will pay the $350 so that we can submit to my insurance company sooner for approval.
I'll keep you all updated!
Step 2...
Feb 27, 2007
Ok today I finished the seminar for the lap band and I did my consult. They tested me for h pylori which was negative, and now I find out that I have to have an upper GI - YUCK! So they're supposed to call me and schedule that. I have my appointment for my psych consult and my nutrition consult next Tuesday. I got my letter today from my doctor giving me the go ahead....wow things are moving fast. As soon as I do these things they'll submit to my insurance company for approval. He said that I fit the qualifications perfectly and that hopefully there will be no issues getting me approved.
It's going so fast I don't even have time to be nervous! lol
Good news - I've been doing the weight watchers and I'm down 9.4 lbs in 3 weeks! That just means that I'll have less to lose when I get my procedure done. :)
It's going so fast I don't even have time to be nervous! lol
Good news - I've been doing the weight watchers and I'm down 9.4 lbs in 3 weeks! That just means that I'll have less to lose when I get my procedure done. :)
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Fresno, CA
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Surgery
04/26/2007
Surgery Date
Feb 19, 2007
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