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well it was a very interesting day today... i had the CT scan of my abdomen and pelvis, it went considerably well...i was kind of scaried because they had to do the iodine die test.. more of a worry than anything .. .scared if the unknown ... but it was no big deal.. i also asked the nurse what she had seen (after having a brief dicussion of what the surgeon told me it could be etc. and that i was a nursing student and could not stand not knowing lol) anywho so she said it was infact a hemigioma but she could not tell if it was blocking a bile duct or not so i'll just have to wait and see what becomes of that but all and all said it seems as if i will be able to have surgery on the 21 .. i just need the ok from Dr.Kam :)

I am in such a good mood other than the fact i am stressed about my exams that i have next week...

I was so horribly upset with my dads reaction to the surgery and he has finally come to terms with it .. so much so that we can finally talk about it and joke about certain things.  A friend of my parents had RNY last year and they just went to florida and spent a week there with her and other friends.  And my dad could not believe how confident she was and how good she looked. It was nice for him to see life after WLS she was still eating and enjoying everyones company.  He keeps joking with me telling me i'm going to look like a skeletor.. lol i said well thats better than what i look like now and of course he is my father and thinks i'm beautiful no matter what.  i think that after my mom met dr.kam and spoke with him, she was able to understand what a truely amazing individual he is.  He has the best bedside manner ever.  I can truely say that with everything going on with my liver he has been the most supportive individual i have ever met! He makes you feel at ease and makes sure that you understand everything.  The fact that i was able to speak with him personally on more than one occasion with questions and concerns my family and i had was so great... :) 

I'm nervous for my CT scan tomorrow ... i know i have nothing to worry about but i still do...  And if everything goes okie, i will be off the barix on wednesday feb 21 to try this surgery again lol ...

well MET hospital called me yesterday and said they had a date for me ... this saturday feb 10 ! which will work out so much better.  I will not have to miss school on wednesday ... and i am extremely happy about this because i have missed enough school for dr. appointments and such.  So i will be going this sat and on top of that they aloud me to pick up the barium drink before so that i can drink it before i get there instead of waiting there for 2 hours! i was happy about that too! So if all goes well i will get a copy of the films for dr. kam and either fed ex them to him or bring them to him as this was his request, so he could look at them himself... and if all is ok, then hopefully surgery on feb 21! I really hope so.  It would make life so much easier as i have reading week the week following and then i would only miss 2 days of school for this whole surgery! 

thats all for now... i'll keep an update on what appears on the CT of my abdomen.... :-)

well last week i heard back from leamington hospital, one of the 3 hospitals i sent out my information to... to see which one would give me the fastest date.  I have my CT scan on feb 14, happy valentines day to me .... then dr.kam asked me to get a copy of the films and bring them directly to him so he could read them right away.  so i will do just that ... i just hope everything is ok and that there is no need for a biopsy... but i will go with the flow.. there isn't much i can do about it now...

Did i mention how slow the canadian health care system is... I still have yet to hear back from my pcp.  it has been a week and i still do not have an appointment for a CT scan! It is so frustrating, not only am i left here wondering whats going on with my liver, but my date for my surgery is going to continue to be pushed back! :( which makes me really sad ! All of this problems with my liver, my surgery all of it makes me sad, and angry! I hope someone gets back to me soon about the CT scan it would make me really happy ...

thats all i have for now ...

My mom kept calling my pcp office ... they are very busy and you normally wait 10 mintues on hold and i only have my cell phone here is chatham ... so she called got ahold of her office they told her to give dr.kam my pcp private number so my mom called dr.kams office gave him my pcp number... then dr.aggarwal called me to tell me what dr.akm told her and she said because i am a pre-op patient i should be in for a CT scan within a week.... which is good because although i have had this problem with my liver for a while i did not know about it and i guess once you know about something your mind makes the problem worse off... every grumble and slight pain in my right quadrant sends singles to me telling me something must be wrong with it.. and knowing that something could be wrong inevitably made it hard to sleep last night...

on a brighter note.....
My family , my boyfriend and his family were all worried about how i was.. i mean with the sugery cancellation and finding out that something was wrong with my liver ... so i was going to go home to windsor and then come back in the morning for class... but then after looking at the weather i did not want to take the chance of not being able to get to class this morning.  so my boyfrind cody calls me and says hes coming if i'm not coming to him...  how sweet is that .. so after he worked all day he drove to chatham at like 8pm last night and then got up extra early at 6am to go to work.... aww... i love him <3 i called my mom to tell her he was coming to chatham and not to worry i wouldn't be alone... she said she was just getting ready to come herself...lol she decided to stay home now that cody was coming ... :) i have so much love and support from everyone its overwhelming

Apparently my mom on monday morning before i found out that i was not having the surgery for a while ... she reminded my dad that i was hacing surgery well he was ok with it .. .no arguing with her to tell me to stop iot .. etc. so i think he has come to terms with it maybe he is not agreeing with me but at least he is accepting it and willing to be supportive...

Ok so i am completely in tears right now...

I had my PATS last wednesday and my surgery was to be this wednesday, Dr. Kam called me this morning and I was in class so i called him back he then proceded to tell me that they have found something on my liver, granulomas or hemangiomas and they are covering my liver. So here i am in my car driving from school to my house in chatham.. and i'm thinking YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! After all of this my surgery has now been postponed... I am happy that I had the tests and if i had not decided to do this surgery i probably would have not known anything was wrong for a long time... but now i will have to wait to get a CT scan and Dr.Kam said he does not want to proceed with the surgery until he know exactly what it is and granted i don't want him opening me up with out knowing. So i will probably have to wait a few weeks to get the scan .. my mom called beaumont hospital it would cost us almost $4,000 if we were to pay for it! So i will probably have the surgery at the end of february because of the way my exams are and because i am in nursing school i have to go to clinical which is manditory and i start that in two weeks ... So this is my delemma! i am upset angry nervous and most of all disapppinted.. i was mentally ready to have this surgery done and now i have to wait AGAIN!

well i had my PATs done on the 10th ... all went pretty well.

I had my blood work done first the room was very crowded and there was a women there complaining about the surgery and everyone in the room I think wanted to tell her to shut her trap! she kept going on and on and complaining about barix (although she was there for reconstructive surgery) she had a nursing assisstant fired apparently when she was in for surgery a year before... very cranky lady...
anywho so I was giving blood just fine when I got that hot burning feeling in my legs, the feeling you get just before your going to pass right out... so i kept telling the nurse this is how i'm feeling If someone doesn't talk to me and take my mind off of it i'm going to pass out.. thankfully my mom was there are was able to ease me out of it... I was surprised that this happened I was not afraid or bothered by the  test itself.. I guess I could have been the fact that I only had 3 hours of sleep the night before and not being able to eat anything etc etc... lol so after that all was good

I had the ultra sound of my gall bladder and liver ... no gallstones and my liver only has like 2 little thin strips of fat in it so i was relieved with this information because i would not be able to have the surgery open for any reason unless he was having serious complications as i have to return to school as soon as I can.  So as far as the nurse and the on call physician were concerned i should have no problems with havin the surgery done LAP! I am very nervous and excited.  I was interested to learn about how we as gastric bypass patients are to read labels and that some sugar is good sugar and some is bad. so even though it may say 25g of sugar I may be able to eat it still.  

My dad has not said anything about the surgery since that night... which i am jsut going to have to accept this ..i am sure that once he sees my progress etc that he will be more supportive.  My mom is going to come with me on the day of the surgery for sure... Cody (my boyfriend) wanted to come but I told him I would rather he came on thursday, that way my mom could have a break and I would be a little more in tune with things the next day.  so he is coming and staying with me all day then my mom is going to come in the afternoon .. .hopefully with my dad as well.  I have everything organized with school I just hope i will be able to get back soon, as I have so many things to take care of :)

ok so i finally told my dad that I was having surgery and when  it was going to be and such... what a horrible evening! i could not have imagined it going any worse than it did.  i knew i had to tell him... I still live at home and it was his buisness to know. well he completely did not want to hear what i had to say .. and he basically called me a failure at everything i do. and if i could just put my mind to it that diet and excercise would work.  he also incljuded that i was a lazy person and that if i got off my butt and actually did something that i would loose weight.... so after one of the worst emotional roller coster rides of my life .. i basically told him... this is my date i don't need his assistance i only wanted him to support my decision in which his answer was ... do what ever you want blah blah blah.....i have not spoken with him on this issue since then and niether has my mom ( imean she has not spoken with him on this issue) So i have pre op tomorrow thankfully my mom is willing to take me or i would have to go by myself and although i am going to do this with or with out his support it really hurts knowing he wont be there for me... my only hope is that he will change his mind by next week and at least come to be there for me if nothing else.  Other than him everyone else is for the most part suporting me.  My brother jsut says to me its my decision and he will support me in anything i choose to do .. my boyfriend supports my decision, my mom is kind of on the fence with my dad not agreeing with the surgery it is kind of hard for her to support me and go against him .. and she also feels that excercise and diet are the way to go but never being over weight to the extent that i have she cannot and neither can anyone else in my immediate house hold understand what it is like to be this way and to have the daily struggles at this weight!

so off to pre op tomorrow ... i am completely anxious and scared of everyhthing and i can only hope and pray everything will go smoothly..

Well I called Elizabeth at Barix today, she is so easy to talk to... and I asked her what stage my file was in and if Dr.Kam had sent it off to Janessa in scheduling and she forwarded me right through to her... It was so easy ... I have pre op on the 10th and my surgery on the 17th ! I am so nervous and excited... My emotional side is getting the best of me. I just have to keep a clear mind and I should be ok... if the surgery day comes along and i am completely in histarics i don't think they will be to happy with me at Barix!

So its the new year ... school is starting back up... and I get to start off 2007 on the loosers bench !!

Yahoo!