nervous is negative, excited is positive

Oct 17, 2011

ok. i missed two appointments with my wls doc. why? i was scared. i usually come to a certian point and then i stop bc it is too hard, difficult, scary, unknown, etc.. i decided...4 months ago i started on this journey and i'm almost done! i've come SO close to a lot of things and never finished. I have to finish this for myself..nobody else. I have wanted this for so so long and it is NOW OR NEVER! i had stopped logging my food, exercising, caring. no more.i musttake care of myself so i can be the me i know is in here...somewhere!

things i haven't completed in my life:
my college degree..ba in psychology..i'm 20 credits away and haven't been back
nursing school..left with 4 months to the finish line. why? mental breakdown. lol
two marriages and one common law marriage...
i left hs with 2 weeks to graduation and had to go back and repeat a semester

this will not continue. no.
my next goal is my town's second annual 5k. last year, i came in dead last. this year, if i come in second to the last..it will be a victory for me.

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