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Been a while since I posted...I've been in San Antonio Texas for 6 months now.I like it but miss California...Weather is crazy here..One minute its cold and the next its warm/hot. I'm on a mission to get a tummy tuck right now here in Texas..cheaper if I have to pay for it..We switched insurance plans to a PPO and I'm hoping that helps me in someway on getting it paid for. I was denied on my prior attempt because it wasn't deemed medically necessary since they said skin wasn't hanging over my pubis...or some crap.I didn't pursue...appeal...So I'm getting together a couple doctors so I can schedule a consultation.I have found  3 surgeons that do free consultations here in Texas..
     .I have been training at the Police academy weekly and it a pre-recruitment to see if you actually want or got what it takes to get into officer training.Its pretty motivating but I have to say very stressful and I haven't been feeling real confident lately...I really want this stomach skin removed...Its just plain gross and I dont feel good in the PT uniform.Its like when I run I feel like its jiggling...lol. Definitely getting in the way of my activity.Plus I have gained some weight back...but I think my body wants to just be this weight but just stronger...So I haven't been obsessing..just making sure i don't gain anything...CARBS are the enemy...haha...

OMG..been a while since I've updated.I still get on here for support when I feel like I'm failing or wanting to give up.I have gained some weight back but not a drastic amount.The holidays really got me and I had to fight off depression and my emotional food eating got the best of me..Mostly slider foods. I never had a problem eating sugar and differant foods and so that is what made me feel like my pouch is not working...I know that I cant eat alot of food still.Ive tried..trust me...But its what I'm eating..for sure. So I like me being honest because I'm a human being and still a fat girl...lol. So,I'm checking myself big time...Taking my ass to Golds Gym which I have a membership and havent utilized in 2 months. I know..I suck...So I'm going to a class tomorrow...A cycling class..I always found them fun and motivating.
I moved to San Antonio Texas and got into a rut...Nobodies fault but mine.Everyone still is like,why do you obsess about dieting and what your eating..you are thin! I naturally don't believe them and so I keep to myself. They just don't know that its a constant battle...I never got to goal but got to 164 and I was feeling skinny then..but then I feel good at 175...which I maintained for a while.Well,I hope by me being honest someone out there can relate.Up to us to pick ourselves up and say..I'm not a failer....
Oh by the way,Decided on saving money I was going to use for plastic surgery to buy a home.Figured,I can always get it done later after I get serious..plus I have to have a roof over my head...lol...
_HUGS

OK, Here I go on my journey to get rid of skin...eeeewww.... I'm not at my goal weight yet...but I'm actually just at a normal weight...I have never been that way in my life...lol....I want to weight 150...but for my height I guess that's pretty thin...
I'm 164 to 165 right now.... So hard to get those last lbs off...
I got my authorization (ref feral) to see a plastic surgeon in my medical group... That office already doesn't like me..haha.
So what..I'm on them. Just waiting for my consultation with him. I'm needing a tummy tuck and definitely breasts....Tired of the bra just faking it...haha. I did have 2 kids and I breastfed them both..so you Can only imagine what they are like with the weight loss...
Everything else..well, I can live with.
SO hopefully I will have good news on my transformation and finally have a flat stomach.
I have good news too...My sister in law in Texas. Got approved and her date is May 19th!..crazy... Happy for her.. I told her she will never ever be the same..for the better of course.

Hubby in Texas...Kids driving me crazy but I love them for keeping me grounded...haha. New goal...Get running and graduate POST Training academy...It will be tough, but must be done.... I need to tone up!!! I want to loose another 10 lbs max...So i can do a full pull up...cant go up if your heavy..haha.
I still love this site and couldnt of done any of this without everyones input and support. I'm around...Hope all if well if everyone else...Give updates when you can...

I have to report that my life is so bitter sweet...I have this turmoil going on with my father and my twin brother and its effecting me in so many ways....I'm trying to keep it together but I feel I'm falling apart sometimes and fill that outlet with staying busy.my kids need there mom back.... On the other hand I have never felt so good in my life...Meaning the weight loss. Kind of selfish...I guess.....Action is the enemy of thought..
I'm always on the go and since I have this new energy...I say that because I have always been confident, just more so now....I try everything and get out there...WOW...noone understands. I can do shit that I have always wanted to do and I'm succeeding... Roller derby...( BABINA BASH-HER) back to school next month too...
I go out with my girlfiends and catch up with old friends from the past...I dont stay out all night and I come home at a decent hour...
My Hubby...I have to say that he has lost a lot of weight also since I dont eat as much and he has been working out with me. he weight lifts too...so I'm happy for him.. ...he has always supported me ...I have a goal I need to obtain and I want to get there before I'm too old....So hopefully all goes well.... I will try..

OMG..I haven't lost any weight in a while and working my ass off to do so...I have been off track a bit on food choices and battle the carbs each day...I do know that once I set my mind doing it though..it will happen...I recently joined a roller derby team and I have truly found my calling...I cant wait to compete! I haven't had so many bruises and been sore in my life but I seriously get a workout and its so much fun. I bought all my gear and now looking for a custom pair of skates. I'm doing stuff I would have never done before and I love my RNY... My husband and I are having issues and he is going through changes with me and its effected him a lot...but no matter what he is supporting me and we will work it out...He was with me when I was fat and no way will I let anyone else enjoy this but him...lol. SO we try and get our alone time in and I'm trying to pay more attention to him...Its just a huge change for both of us...We bought matching Halloween costumes. I'm going to be a cancan girl and he is going to be an outlaw with the guns and everything....My costume is sexy and I would never have imagined wearing something like that...I didn't even believe it would fit...so its pretty awesome...
My kids love the new me because their mom is out there doing stuff with them and we go more places...I will update on my progression on becoming a roller girl and my future admittance to POST training..yup. I'm doing it...  SO thankful and trying to persevere and keep busy aside from the family pain we are going through...Lord, help us through this!!!
Good luck to all...

I'm sure no one reads my blogs but I don't want to become one of those who doesn't update after surgery since so many people on here have helped me and given great information..ok...so I'm around 181 to 183 lbs...weird how it fluctuates. I want to loose 30 more lbs to be at my goal but I have to say, I'm pretty happy where I am now...I'm 5'8 tall and so everyone swears i look too thin...i don't believe them...haha. My doc said I can get to 150 if I want too...hehe. Exercise has been a challenge for me since I have lots of family issues and work obligations...I'm going back to school in the fall and I know it will be hectic. I do exercise but not as much as I should..that will be my next goal.. to get some muscle...I do walk at my lunch breaks..which is good cause at least it is something. My sis and her friends want to run a half maratrhon in November and I haven't even trained for it....I will get into gear!
 Eating is going GOOD..I can eat mostly everything but of course I don't... my hunger is back but I keep in under control by eating small foods through out the day...I don't let myself get to that point. I still love my Syntrax protein and the fuzzy navel is the best. I tried mostly all of the flavors and I keep going back to that one.I have no dumping..at least I don't think so...I never experienced anything weird..so I guess not. I have to say that I have had no complications and my vitamin levels are good..oh ,except I needed more iron and so I'm in the process of buying some of the chew-ables. I was laughing when I had a doc appointment finally..I mean, I thought I was forgotten..My appointment kept getting rescheduled so many times... I'm hating my arms because I have skin but nothing too crazy looking but I 'm still self conscious about it. I can't wait to get a tummy tuck...After 2 kids and then this weight loss...its mushy...lol. Oh, so funny that you see stretch marks THAT YOU DIDN'T THINK YOU HAD...well, until next update...
_HUGS

Thought I would update what is going on with me...I have lost about 82lbs and I'm 7 months and 2 weeks out of surgery. I weight 193 give or take a few... I have so many stalls. It coming off slowly but I feel OK. I am having some issues with skin on my stomach but I knew that was going to happen...haha. My arms have some as well but nothing too awful and nothing that I feel some weight training cant fix...hopefully. I will get a tummy tuck and definitely some boobs as soon as I'm 1 year out..I know that for sure...
I love going shopping now and have to stop myself because we cant go broke at my expense...
I recently got a cover up tattoo on my chest of a magnolia flower. Its pink. It means perseverance...
I'm in the process of creating a half sleeve tattoo with my tattoo artist and its looking good. I told him I want to cover up the stretch marks on my right shoulder... My tattoos are going to be cool but I will still able to hide them when needed.
I'm still living a very stressful life but I try and zone out every now and then and its great that I have one less thing to worry about...my weight. It feels good just to grab something out of the closet and not change a hundred times because you feel gross in everything. I want to loose 40 more lbs to be at 150...and I know that is going to be hard work. I will try my hardest...
Well, until my next update...

OK, I I'm feeling good and I'm almost under 200 and It's slowly coming off but its OK because it just motivates me to get up and exercise and watch what I eat. I can eat a little more but sometimes I feel like some foods hurt a bit going down...I have never dumped and I can eat sugar...so I stay away. I'm feeling hungry unlike most people who are 5 1/2 months out. I still have a craving for my carbs but don't eat them...I mean if I absolutely need it..I will let myself have a bite of potatoes or pasta...I still haven't got it together as far as measuring food and cooking up some recipes...I eat what my family eats. I only of course eat a very small amount. I know when my body says enough...Its not much at all and I see how I used to eat before...OMG.
  My sister and I go jog/run a couple days a week and then I do my pilates and treadmill at home. I have been weight training with my hubby. He has lost weight too and gained muscle...I was making him fat...lol. My kids run up to me and say "Mommy, I can put my arms around you"! So cool...I tried on some of the clothes I wore just last summer...I couldn't believe my eyes. So huge on me.Will just fall off..I felt like one of those commercials where they stand there with there pants pulled away from them showing weight loss for a pill or something...lol
I cant wait to be at goal...no telling how much I will accomplish. I'm definitely on the go... I love this site and everyone has such great advice and I learn so much from here. Everyone is so positive..especially when I'm feeling down. I just came off a 3 1/2 week stall...so we will see. Hugs to all the people who care what I have to say...haha.

I love my RNY...Best decision I have made for myself. I'm working hard to make it to goal. So many changes in my life..struggles and heartache. But I will persevere...I'm at 208 right now and cant wait to get under 200. I'm taking Zumba and Kickboxing class's...First day is tomorrow...Hope I'm not too sore....I love my transformation. I love this site and all the support I get from others experiencing the same thing. Ok, Until next update....
I put a couple of current pics in photo's. I need to do whole body shots soon....