18 years status post rny/9 years status post rny reversal...

Dec 06, 2019

Okay... 

I've been away from here, for almost 2 years and while so many of you are great, it was good for me, while still supporting the wls community in optimal to awful outcomes, to just keep doing that in less digital spaces or when people email me privately about gastric bypass reversals.

And I did NOT do that because I ended up gaining an enormous amount of weight from 2017 to like 2018, where both eating a ton or certain medications weren't to play in my weight gain, like they did before my reversal.

I mean I like gained almost 90 lbs and was heavier than I was in my entire life both last Summer and last December, which by the holidays, It's been major issues with Gastroparesis stuff, chronic pain, etc and so while not doing much, just staying homebound I lost 50 lbs and for the first time in the last week, in almost 2 years,  I'm 2 lbs in onderland. 

I had to a long time ago which I don't advise for most bariatric surgical patients, but in my case to give up on caring what I weigh and look like. Not to say when I nearly hit 250, which is the heaviest I've ever been, in my entire life that I loved it, exactly a year agoit just wasn't something I was going to beat myself up for, as I haven't ate enough to cause weight gain in what would be normal people, in the last 2 years, but there's nothing normal about me and I don't feel like I weigh any less.

Food isn't my best friend or my worst enemy according to attitude. It is really hard 90% to eat, drink or take medicne in the last year. I feel like a huge busted can of biscuits. I felt way better at a heavier weight (my heaviest weight prior to rny was 233) then I did 3 years ago when I was 40 lbs less. 11 years ago when I was 65-70 less, I still didn't feel better at my smallest because of the bleeding ulcers, severe nutritional defiencies and severe reactive hypogycemia, which came back with a vengence last year. 

I am biologically related to one of the most healthiest happy post ops who doesn't even remember they had a gastric bypass 17 years ago, I had a parent who a revision the day before and original rny almost 40 years ago where both can eat more and do more than I can, and one of my sisters is doing great (one parent and one other sibling never had weight issues) and both can eat way more than I can, the majority of the time, as well as do way more than I can and never have to think about their bariatric sugeries even though my parent is 23 years older than I am and is SMO. 

I'm not looking for food, weight or any kind of health advice, not saying that to be mean. Chances are most people won't go through what I have, most people won't even have the same long term outcome as 3 out of 5 of us in my immediate family did. 

What I am here for is to say to those who had a bad outcome that's  just grad weight gain, there are worse things and there are better grads to look for advice or inspiration to lose regain. 

That's not the purpose I serve in the wls community even though  I know a lot of long term grads who had overall a great experience. I still believe that bariatric surgery from my perspective, should be considered as a last resort intervention but it does change people's lives for the better. 

For those of us though where things don't get better and they don't look like they will ever get better and life has been changed upside down in a worse weigh than being of excessive weight can be, there is support with me and other bariatric surgical complication support groups. 

I hope no one ever has to know from me, as a longer term reversal blogger where my reversal blgos do get read on WordPress not just in the U.S. but in SIX other continents, or any other complication/reversed blogger/vlogger or support person. 

I'm just glad in the last 9 years since my reversal and 18 years that the wls community stays open and diverse to properly educate and support the community which has always been the intention of this site. 

Peace 

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