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I have my appt on Tuesday 4-12-10 I took my measurements I will be adding pics with measurements probably within a week 14' upper arm, 49 1/2 ' Bust, 54 1/2' Belly Button 23' upperleg, 16 1/2 ' calf, 14 1/2' neck.

Old habits are hard to get rid of... My work-school-mom schedule just has me out of whack Im snacking! I get sick but Im so used to it that it doesnt even phase me thats awful

I am so fat and I have been snacking! Eating disorder ALERT!!!!

Ok so things have changed don't get me wrong I still get sick even if I breathe! Water and eggs and vitamins all make me feel like crap but unfortunately I am already used to it! I am sitting at Starbucks in I think Carlsbad with a special someone I would call him my boyfriend but we are in public and he doesnt call me his girlfriend so he's ASSED OUT heehee its ok though hes still my sweetheart.  And yes Michelle you were right by the way.  This is a great change in my life and my boyfriend is not only supportive but strong, inspirational, thoughtful, loving and has so far made me very happy.  We have the greatest communication it is awesome!  He is sitting here with me as I blog this and he is the first person in my life that I have shared this with my blogs, my story and all.(besides my OH friends) When I say that I havent shared it is because there are many people in my life that I do not even trust to tell them about my surgery because I do not want to be judged or ridiculed.  My special someone says that he will continue to be supportive and stand by my side with everything I hope so. 

ok so I am a day late but I did upload a new pic with my measurements they were kinda weird when I was trying to post but here they are neck 14 and a half, belly button 55, bust 49 lower leg 18, upper leg 24, arm 13 260 lbs all in inches of course LOL

Ok so I havent been here on for a while for a lot of reasons one of them being that I came back to work in February and I still have my days that I get sick, weak or etc.  I have had some personal issues also that have caused me to become sidetracked but I am slowly coming back to play.  I am going to try and post a new pic and measurements today!  I guess I am at a plateau I am losing inches though so its ok....

Well I continue to struggle everyday including with the heartache that I have had to face with losing the love of my life.  I am doing a bit better in the sense of being able to handle my daily everyday tasks.  That was becoming a challenge in itself.  I have been kinda sick this last week.  Flu maybe? I am not sure my whole body was hurting it was weird! I have had alot of health stress in the last few weeks but here I am again with struggling and attempting to get through another day.  Chicken is an aquantance to me right now not a friend it gives me a belly ache but I eat it anyways it is soo high in protein how could I not?

Well all have been here through my continuous struggling journey and I had finally reached a point of dispair that I didnt care what happened to me... At that point I prayed to God to do his best and help me or finally end my suffering.  His response was to bring into my life one of the best things that has ever happened to me.  He brought me a kind, generous, loving man that inspired me supported me and showed me the importance of life and the importance of sharing a life with someone.  I fell deeply, sincerly and unconditionally in love with him.  There were many times that he was with me when I had dumping or I got sick for other reasons and he remained by my side demonstrating and reminding me how special he is and how much I loved him.  I can honestly say that this is the man that God meant for me to have.  On the 20th of March everything changed he decided that our life would now be my life and his and he left me.  I continue to be devastated and heartbroken and I believe that God will bring him back to me soon I miss him soo much I feel incomplete....  Please pray for us and for him to find his journey back to me..................

Another day with challenges and struggles.  But that is all that my info on here is about I am still getting sick with most of the food that I am eating.  I have my boyfriend which I have had since November but things are getting a bit challenging to me.  I have been with him for these months and he has trully been supportive to me.  He recently got the news that he has Type 2 Diabetes.  It was a scary thing for him to find out.  He had been a heavy drinker for years but he thought that he was superman and that health issues were never going to catch up with him.  Once he was diagnosed his Doctor was impressed with my knowledge in regard to the dieting and the different portion sizes.  I told him and meant it that I had his back and supported him to the fullest for him to adjust his life to all of these changes.  Even though our relationship is new, I meant what I said and was determined to stand by his side.  A few weeks have passed and he has pushed me very far away from him.  I am not sure what resulted in these actions but I am deeply saddned and very hurt by these changes.  Today I tried to go back to the old habits.  I was bummed out so I went to Jack in the Box got a hearty breakfast bowl, an oreo shake, a cheesecake and a choco cake.  Yeah like as if I was goin to be able to eat it all!!!!.  I ate 3/4 of the choco cake and I basically thought that I was going to die and have been sick since.  That is not good it was the beginning of emotionally eating even though it didnt work out thank goodness for RNY!

So it continues.... I went back to work on the 2nd of February and it has been hard!  I physically was not ready but Doc said it was time and I trust her.  I am less sick than I was and I am still throwing up on and off and have pain but not as much as before.  I am still not glad that I had the surgery but I continue to insist to myself to not regret it because it will take me into a spiral of depression.  I am very lucky that I have my boyfriend he has been very supportive and understanding of my challenges and my mood swings!  He has stayed by my side listened to me and loved me in spite of it all!  I hope that someday I will have a day that I will feel good...  Valentines weekend was great I spent it with my boyfriend and I almost forgot about the discomfort that I have on an everyday basis but I still had waves of it.  I guess things are improving