arlenea
11 months post op
Jan 08, 2011
My day starts off with this little voiceinside of my head that says get up get up lets excersice..I use to hear good morning lets go 2 mc donalds. What a change and a complete transformation I have made. My eating habits have completely change and my emotions are in tact. The hardest thing ive had to overcome and still deal with from time to time is my emotional eating. Recognizing it and not feeling into the trap. Especially since its been a little colder then usual one ofmy fav.things to do was to eat and stay in bed I still allowmyself to do that however my food choices are completely diferent now. I sometimes get upset with myself that I was indeed FAT/OVERWEIGHT and I never considered myself to be heavy even on the day of my surgery I didnt think I was heavy. My bmi was 42 my weight was 287 when I decided to have all the preop testing for my surgery on the day of my weight was 265 and now I am currently @ 164.8 9 lbs to my goal weight WOW I cant believe it. Sometimes I feel like im dreaming and its all going to end. My biggest fear is getting FAT again im very strict with what I put in my mouth and the food I choose to eat this was a life changing decision that I made and to me it doesnt make any sense to have the surgery and not to changemy life completly and to really took a hard look at myself and say what brought me to this point whan did I do or put into my body to cross the line with my eating and what are my triggers? and how and what can I do to change those things that blocked me from being the best me that I can be? I am happy and excited everyday to see the little changes that have been happening throughout this journey. When I look in the mirror now I like what I see somtimes I see the old me but im getting use to it I went from a sze 22 dwn to a sze 7 in pants a sze 18/20 in shirts dwn to a sze s/m my feet shrunk as well I was a sze 10 now im an 8 1/2 or 9 1/2 depending on the shoe. Im extremly pleased with my decision and with my wls journey.
