BabyScotia
September 18, 2009
Here I am.... 38 years old and 2 weeks away from gastric bi-pass !! How did I get to this point ?
I was a skinny kid growing up, mother had to give me tonic to stimulate my appitite !
Started gaining weight in my late teens but lost 30 lbs while in college getting down to 121 again :)
Marriage, self-employed hours of work, 3 children later and I'm almost 230 lbs and I real didn't even see it coming.
My mother and father have both passed away. Father at 40 years and Mother at 58 years. Long life is not in my genetics so I know how important it is to stay health and loss weight... but no matter what I tried, I just could not loose the weight. Personal trainers, diets, starvation !! Just couldn't do it..... so I'm left with the feeling of defeat !! and it's a horrible feeling. Feelings that I have no control over my weight gain and acceptance that if I don't do something soon, I will be over 300 lbs (like my mom was ) and dieing of some obese related cancer !! I want to see my girls grow up, get married and have children of there own.
My husband was very sick a few years ago and required a liver transplant for survival. We were very bless and he received this gift of life.... My children were only 2, 4, 5 when he had the transplant... he was really sick for about a year before the transplant and went from running marathons to using a walker. I wondered then... I lost my father at 10 years of age to liver cancer, and now I've lost my mother.... I don't want my kids to have to grow up without parents so I was determined to loose weight and stay healthy....... but it just wouldn't happen.
My surgery is booked for October 2nd, two weeks from today. Doctor had an opening and said I would be a good candidate because I only need to take OptiFast for 2 weeks "perfect".... :)
Started OptiFast yesturday, wasen't anticipating a problem until I tasted it. I was at work and mix up a glass, took about 3 drinks and tossed the rest in down the sink.... aweful stuff !! So.... I didn't eat anything yesturday and now I'm wishing that I could have had at least one days notice to eat something / meal that I love :(
Today, I took the advice of many people on this site and added a little coffee (don't usually drink coffee) but if it would make this stuff taste better I would try ANYTHING !! Also added a little vanilla, crushed ice and splenda...???!!! It definitely tasted better but still, I could only drink less than 1/2. My husband is grocery shopping right now to find other calorie free flavors to add :)
It seems I've joined the journy and I'm hoping for safe and healthy outcomes. My friend Kim is my inspiration and gastic bi-pass angel... Thank you Kim for taking the time to guide me through this process. It means so much to me :)
