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Time for making Excuses is OVER...waaaay over
May 09, 2011
I am literally sitting here in tears; scared to death that I have lost all focus and feeling that I'm becoming one of thoseRNY failure statistics. I CANNOT get bqack on track...I haven't logged on dailyplate for MONTHS and I just HATE what has transpired. I have said it over and over and over...I'm tired of sounding like a broken record...but I am so upset with myself that I have lost my way and can't find my way back. I see it daily in my clothes. I was consistently wearing size 10 jeans for longest time...now I'm back up to 14s. I just want to cry(and am). I know what I have to do...so why am I fighting it and why can't I just get back on that road to success??? I am a strong woman and up to a few months ago I had been very proud of my progress. Over past 3months or so...I have lost my way and not just a detour...I'm TOTALLY undeniably LOST in the middle of nowhere...in BUMFUCK Egypt if you would. I TOTALLY HATE how my clothes are looking...why is it so hard for me to get it back together????
This week is the big Vegas Meet & Greet...while I can't wait to meet everyone...I'm upset that I won't look my best. Maybe I needed to hit rock bottom like this to get the drive and desire to DO IT back. Maybe I'll learn a thing or two from meeting some great OH sistas next weekend.
What I do know is...I've got to use my resources...pulling Beck out now to read it and absorb it over and over and over......
I know I can count on my friends/sistas here to give me the love; encouragement and support that I am desperately in need of.
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Las Vegas, NV
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26.6
BMI
Surgery
12/06/2007
Surgery Date
Oct 14, 2007
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