beccabecca66
6 Years Out- from 394 to 144
Oct 03, 2016
I'm 6 years from bariatric surgery this week.
My personal goal weight is 144, only because its exactly 250 pounds from my highest. 144 +/- 3 lbs. If I get to 150, pounds thats danger zone. I need to stop and recheck myself. Protein First at Every Meal!
I weighed in at 140 this morning. Thats actually a little low. I had a busy few weeks on vacation. What? Losing weight on vacation?
We just got back from a trip to London and Amsterdam. In Amsterdam, we biked everywhere. If we weren't biking, we were walking. I loved it! In Amsterdam bikes have right of way, even before cars. My kind of city!
London was a similar amount of activity. Other than one hard bike ride on the south shore of England, we did not have time to workout. Fitbit said 145,000 steps for one of the weeks we were there, but that was just casual walking or leisurely biking. When i look at photos, the ones where I look truly happy are after that hard bike ride.
I cannot believe that I'm saying I've been to Europe. Even moreso, I can't believe that I'm mildly whining about not having a hard workout in 2 weeks. I can't believe that 145,000 steps was 'just walking or biking.' Is this my life? I like sweating hard? Who is this stranger?
As the years go on, I find it harder to relate to people just starting on their journey to health. I wish they would believe they were strong enough to do this. I wish they didn't have to pretend to be happy to be the jolly funny fat guy of the group. I want to whisper 'you can do this.' I want to say they deserve it, but noone really believes that anyway.
I feel great. I'm still nutty. I still obsess about my weight. I still try on outfit after outfit for just the right one that is flattering. I still don't realize I'm slender until I see photos of myself. I still hate my excess skin.
Weight loss surgery didn't fix my obesity. It gave me the space and chance so that I could repair it myself. It feels awesome to know I worked really hard at something and it turned out well. That directly relates to confidence.
Confidence is what has me try different exercise types...Did the 394 lb me believe I'd be doing stand up paddle boarding, kayaking, parasailing, beach biking, dance, intense interval training boot camp? Next is Kangaroo Boot fitness. =)
--Becca
