3-year update

Dec 02, 2012

Hello - it's been over 3 years since my last update, and that update was just after my surgery!  I have gone from 371.1 to 262.  I have felt great - have fit into an airline seat, knee pain is almost nonexistent...but now I'm gaining weight very slowly. Why?

I'm pregnant - about 9 to 10 weeks along.

It's something I hoped would happen, but as time went on, thought it wouldn't happen.  We got pregnant 05/2011 and had a miscarriage.  The ultrasound in the ER showed an empty gestational sac measuring 5 weeks, 3 days.  I had been on metformin which helped regulate my cycle and, likely, helped me get pregnant.

After the miscarriage, I didn't have a cycle so my metformin was increased.  I also lost more weight (I think I was over 300 lbs in 05/2011).  I took up jogging.  We tracked our sex life (which ended up killing any spontaneity).  We kept trying...and nothing.

We already had The Talk with my OB, who is terrific.  She suggested clomid, which I expected.  I had tried the metformin/clomid combo once in 2007 and it resulted in ovulation, but no baby.  We decided to do clomid in 12/2011.

Until then, we'd stop tracking and focus on other things - his new job, my current job, our respective families.  In late October, I had a feeling.  Something was off. I had the sore breasts, but that always accompanied my period.  I felt nauseous but that was something I always felt off and on.  We went to a Halloween party where I played DD and no one questioned my decision to not drink even a little bit.

The next morning, I took a test and it was positive.  I showed him and he was excited, though nervous.  We told a few close friends right away and told family close to Thanksgiving - we wanted to have our first ultrasound which showed a heartbeat and good growth.

Based on my last menstrual period, I'm due 7/1/13 (10 weeks), but it's measuring at about 7/7/13 (9 weeks).  Either way, our running joke is that it'll be born on the 4th of July so it's nickname right now is "Freedom Fries" or "Roman Candle". 

If you didn't notice, I have no !!! in my post.  I am worried something will happen, that this is not reality and this kind of thing doesn't happen to me. I am generally a positive person, but this brings me down and I cannot explain it nor do I feel like anyone can understand it.

But I AM excited, I just am worried if I SHOW it, I will have jinxed myself.

Here's to the next 31 weeks :)

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