Well, things have overall been going pretty well. Although my body seems like it doesn't want to drop below 200 lbs.! Of course, it is that time of the month, so I'm sure i've entered "one"derland and it's just not showing yet. Gah - who knows?
I've been pretty discouraged lately. I can't seem to eat anything! Everything is getting stuck - especially protein. all I've been doing is drinking protein shakes lately because I can't get anything down. And if it does go down, I get really sick right afterwards. I've thrown up more times lately then when I was learning how to eat. Wtf?? AND if that's not enough, I don't want to eat because I feel full. But I'm not because I haven't eaten. It feels like my stomach is full of air - right underneath my ribs but above my bellybutton. I don't know what it is but I feel like I'm pregnant or something! My gut is blown out like a balloon and i can't do anything about it. I've gone to bed the past 2-3 nights in the fetal position in pain. What's going on??
Ugh - things have been pretty rough with me lately, but I'm hoping once my psychiatrist changed my meds I should be okay. Coming off the Lamictal and moving onto the Lithium - man I hope it helps this depression because it's almost unbearable.
Well, I guess that's it. Hopefully I'll have something positive to report next week. Hopefully I'll have officially entered "one"derland! I haven't been there since high school 9 years ago. Man, that's sad...
