Ugh ... 310/210/140

Dec 31, 2008

Well, it's been over a year since I updated on here and I'm back because I have gained over 30 lbs. in the past 8 months.  I'm so disgusted with myself, it's unbelievable.  But instead of getting discouraged, making it worse, and deciding to just give up (as I'm prone to do sometimes), I have decided to get back on the wagon and do what I KNOW I can do.  I've started myself back on the liquid diet.  I plan to do this for two weeks, then moving back onto soft solids, etc.  Pretty much the extended version of the 5-day pouch diet.

I haven't been going to Taekwondo at all in the past 6 months, so I will begin that regularly again (work schedule allowing).  I really want to start taking my dog on daily walks and eventually work up to running.  I've always wanted to go running, but I haven't done it.  I really want to do this and I actually really want to get to my final goal weight.

It would be really great if my husband was more supportive of my efforts.  He doesn't see a point in it.  He says I look fine the way I am; however, he has an "aversion" to fat girls and makes fun of them.  He was not around when things were so out of control, how I looked, how bad I felt all the time and truly depressed I was.  So, when I told him this is what I wanted to do, he of course, has been a bit of a jackass about it.  It's pretty hurtful and it makes me want to cry, but I'm still going to do it. 

So wish me luck and send me some support! 

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