Nicki F.

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Well, I fell off the WLS wagon! I got sooooo tired after that last post. I wasn't eating the way I needed to again.  I honestly didn't know what was wrong with me.  This is my story, and I'm sticking to it ....

My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 4 years.  It has been an emotional roller coaster in all honesty. We split up twice during this time and almost divorced - mainly because of the stress that this was causing on our relationship.  We finally made the decision we were going to go the IVF/ICSI route after being told by 3 MDs that there would be no way for us to have a baby without intervention.  The short version is basically, my husband's boys weren't fast swimmers and were kind of stupid. Lol.  We met with the MD, got the testing done, and were scheduling to begin 3 cycles at a whopping cost of $23,000 beginning January 1, 2012. 

In anticipation of having the ICSI, I wanted to go ahead and get all the other medical issues taken care of.  Not sure if I mentioned it before, but I had surgery on my thyroid in mid-October. I had a tumor in my throat that was growing.  When they went in to get the tumor, they found that it was wrapped around the right thyroid, so they ended up taking it out.  They also found out that I have another tumor growing on the left side, but it is still too small to do anything about, so they said in 10 years, I'll probably have to have it removed. 

But I digress ... in preparation for the ICSI procedure, I have, of course, been tracking my periods.  Not too closely because I tend to be very regular.  I happened to look at my period tracker on my phone and I showed it to my husband.  I said, "Husband ... you see those dates that are highlighted in pink?"  He said, "yeah". I said, "you see what today's date is?"  He said, "yeah".  I said, "I'm a week past when my period should have started". So, we talked about it for a minute.  I am not typically late - UNLESS I'm stressed.  So, we decided to head over to Wally World and get a pregnancy test.

When we were buying the test, I was trying to decide which one to get.  There are SO MANY OPTIONS!  Before I could pick one out, he says to me, "Wife .. we need to talk about this first. Now, we are not going to be disappointed if it comes back that you are not pregant. We have a plan and we are still going to do the plan". I said "ok", but it was hard to think about taking this test and seeing that NOT PREGNANT again.

We drove separately to Wally World so that we could fill up the vehicles with gas, so I got home before he did.  I immediately took the test because I didn't want to really break down in front of him when it came back as negative again. It's SOO hard for both of us each time it happens.  THIS IS KINDA GRAPHIC: I peed on the stick, put the cover on it, and wiped it off, then placed it on the counter. In the time it took me to wipe down, pull my clothes back up and flush the toilet (so maybe 15 seconds - not the 3 minutes that it says), it came back as PREGNANT!!!!

I stood there and stared at it for a minute.  Then, I heard Alan coming through the garage door.  I was standing in the middle of the living room.  He starts talking to our 12-year-old, and I'm bouncing I'm so excited.  He says, "you have to pee?". I said "come here".  He says, "what?" and I said it again.  He hugged me and he said "what?". I whispered in his ear, "You're gonna be a daddy".  He said, "Get the hell out of here! Are you serious?".  I was like "YES".  I showed him the stick.

He IMMEDIATELY called his mom to tell her!  We ended up taking two more tests - one that night.  And the other with the first morning urine.  They all came back within seconds, not the 3 minutes on the box.

I went and got a blood test yesterday, and the MD called me at 7:00 this morning to tell me that it came back as POSITIVE. He sounded as excited as I felt.  I know that our MD is just as aware of what we have been through as we have been.

So .... WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!!!!

First week of changing my eating.  This nutrition tracker has been super helpful with noticing good versus bad eating habits.  For example, I found out that I was not eating more than about 600 calories a day! No wonder why I couldn't lose weight! My body was in starvation mode.  The other thing I noticed was that sometimes I would get enough water, other times I wouldn't.  Finally, I noticed that I was not getting in nearly as much protein, over consumed with the idea of not taking in any carbs, and watching things that I honestly shouldn't care about at this point - like fat.

So, after a week of contientiously changing my habits, I am eating 1000-1100 calories a day.  I am back to eating 5-6 times a day.  I get in all my water.  I get in exercise pretty routinely.  And I've started to lose lbs again.  I'm debating getting a personal trainer to work out with me at the gym, but I'm waiting until my stamina increases a bit.  After surgery it's a little hard to get energy again.

What's been really nice is that my husband is doing this with me.  He has lost 3 lbs this week and inches all the way around.  I've made some pretty healthy meals each night and he looks forward to seeing what's going to be cooked each night.  Thank God for the crock pot!

Anywhoo .. that's where things stand.  I've scheduled a Holiday Clothing Exchange at my office for December 3rd!  Please come check it out and hit my webpage for more information.

I'm back.  It's been several years since I have been on here and as far as my weight, it really hasn't gone up or down in forever.  I have been about 204 lbs. for about 2 years.  This is with exercising like crazy, changing what I eat, having thyroid surgery to remove a tumor and the right side of my thyroid, and water, water, water.  This is one hell of a plateau I tell you.

So, changes that I plan to make include exercising twice a day ... I do 30-40 minutes of cardio on the cross trainer every morning and in the evening I do 45 minutes of weights.  I plan to start seeing a personal trainer.  Although it would be nice if I could lose some weight, I really want to drop some sizes - especially in my legs.  It makes no sense that I have a 19" waist, but wear a 14/16 pants! 

I plan to make an appointment with the dietician and see what I'm doing wrong.  I can't honestly say that I deprive myself of things. I graze which isn't good, but I'm also hungry.  I have eliminated red meat for the most part because I throw it back up.  Chicken doesn't sit well anymore, so I don't eat it very often.  I hate seafood, but I've starting figuring out ways to like shrimp and tilapia and I'm trying other fish to see if I can figure out ways to make it to like it better.  I get my vitamins in, my water in, and my protein in.  I had labs run and I wasn't deficient in anything, but vitamin-D, so I started taking a supplement that has calcium and D-3 in it.

I have been eliminating stress (people and situations) that may cause me to graze unnecessarily.  So, I hope to be at my goal by next summer.  I think that's pretty realistic - unless I get pregnant! I still want to be down though!

Just keep swimming .. just keep swimming ...

Well, it's been over a year since I updated on here and I'm back because I have gained over 30 lbs. in the past 8 months.  I'm so disgusted with myself, it's unbelievable.  But instead of getting discouraged, making it worse, and deciding to just give up (as I'm prone to do sometimes), I have decided to get back on the wagon and do what I KNOW I can do.  I've started myself back on the liquid diet.  I plan to do this for two weeks, then moving back onto soft solids, etc.  Pretty much the extended version of the 5-day pouch diet.

I haven't been going to Taekwondo at all in the past 6 months, so I will begin that regularly again (work schedule allowing).  I really want to start taking my dog on daily walks and eventually work up to running.  I've always wanted to go running, but I haven't done it.  I really want to do this and I actually really want to get to my final goal weight.

It would be really great if my husband was more supportive of my efforts.  He doesn't see a point in it.  He says I look fine the way I am; however, he has an "aversion" to fat girls and makes fun of them.  He was not around when things were so out of control, how I looked, how bad I felt all the time and truly depressed I was.  So, when I told him this is what I wanted to do, he of course, has been a bit of a jackass about it.  It's pretty hurtful and it makes me want to cry, but I'm still going to do it. 

So wish me luck and send me some support! 

I am one year and 3 days out and I can't believe how much things have changed.  I look so different and I feel so different.  I wear a size M (8-10) in shirts and a size 10/12 in pants.  That's down from a 3x (24-26) in shirts and a 26/28 in pants.  Wow .. I really want to get to my own personal goal weight one day.  My neighbor who has always been thin her entire life is giving me her old clothes (size 10/12) .. which is funny.  I wear a smaller shirt than her though.  I feel pretty most days.  I won't say that having surgery has completely changed my life because it hasn't, but I do enjoy life quite a bit more now.  Anywhoo...

I feel so spectacular.  I'm so happy, I have all the energy in the world.  My life is very different than it was a few years ago.  I can't even say things were horrible this time last year - because they weren't.  I don't know if I have been this happy in awhile, though.  My weight loss has picked up A LOT lately.  'Bout doggone time too.  I'm wearing a 10/12/14 depending on the cut of things.  I found it so funny - we went to a clothing store, and I immediately go for the plus size section 'cause even though I'm wearing smaller sizes, my hips are still big.  Well, I got frustrated because nothing was hanging right.  I told the saleslady that if she couldn't find the outfits I wanted in something that looked right, I was leaving.  She had the patience of Job and my partner was amused (even if I wasn't).  Well, the lady brings back clothes and tells me to try those on.  I did and they fit great!  Well, my partner started giggling saying "baby, she got those off the Jr/Ms racks!"  I was shocked.  It never would of dawned on me to go to that side of the store - I don't think I've done that since I was in the 4th grade!!!  I am definetely enjoying the way I look and feel.  I am very greatful for this gift.

Not really an update on weight loss, but a general update .. I got promoted today from a Child Protective Services (CPS) Investigator to a CPS Supervisor!!  It's been an emotional day and people have been congratulating me all day - I'm kind of worn out.  My start date is on 9/18 (two weeks), and I'm thoroughly excited about the whole thing.  There will be a nice pay increase (which will definetely help with the student loan payments that start this month) and I get a nice size office with a window.  Seems like there have been an amazing amount of good things that have happened for me this year ...  Bye!

My weight loss is picking up again!!!  Whoo-hoo!  I'm finally under 200 lbs ('bout damn time) and I wear a size 12/14 now.  I look damn good, I might say and I feel spectacular.  My goal is still the same, but I'm happier than all get out.  I got all the energy in the world .. the only thing I continue to struggle with is falling asleep at night .. I'm like the energizer bunny and I could really keep going.  Other than that, I am doing great!  It was awesome turning 28 years old and feeling like a normal person again!

 

Weight loss is still slow, but it has begun to be more consistent.  I kept going back and forth with the same 10 lbs. (218 - 208) over and over, and since I got a new dog who likes to go fast!  My clothes are about 14/16 still, but starting to get smaller again.  Can't believe I wear this size and still at the weight I'm at .. Mind boggling!  Until next time ...

 

I'm officially in the century club now!!!  Whoo-hoo.  My weight loss is still slow, but it is steady.  I'm doing great and I have NO CLOTHES AT ALL!  My mother was generous enough to give me some of her clothes that she has recently had taken in.  The only problem that I have is she's still a little bigger than me, so the clothes are a little too lose in the waist, stomach, and legs.  I've been doing a lot of things that I would not have thought of doing before because it would take too much energy.  I feel pretty on most days and I'm happy all the time now.  I appreciate this surgery and the fact that it has given me my life back!!!