Brenda M.
Frustrated!
Dec 30, 2009
So, I haven't lost much weight since the revision. I'm trying not to freak out. It looks like my body won't let go of any weight unless I keep my calorie count under 800 per day. That is insane. That is some kind of cruel joke the universe is playing on me, I know it.
I read the Michigan forum every day, and I want to yell to the people that say "30 lbs. gone forever!" Yeah, maybe, maybe not. I threw away all of my "fat clothes". I vowed I would never gain weight again. When I could wear an XL I said I was no longer a Plus Sizer! All of that changed, and I can't seem to get back below 200 lbs.
The funny part is, no one that is really unsuccessful posts on that board. It's all Pollyanna happy people convinced that they will be skinny forever (no offense meant to my friends over there). Take a look at the revision board. There are thousands of us that had WLS, lost some weight, and then BAM! the switch was thrown, and our bodies changed back to our pre-surgery form.
Of course when you are pre-op, or newly post-op, or even a maintaining post-op, it's hard to imagine going back. You think that 'It works if you work it'. Anyone that gains must be doing something wrong, right? NOPE. It happens. And it happens to a lot of people. The fact is, no one wants to post every day on a casual forum that they are failing. That the weight is creeping back on, and they are hungry all the time. They don't want to say that they skipped the gym one week and gained 5 lbs. that won't come off. It's embarrassing, and besides, no one wants to hear it.
So that's my bitch fest. I'm still not losing, and no one seems to "get it".
Here's to tomorrow being a better day!
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I read the Michigan forum every day, and I want to yell to the people that say "30 lbs. gone forever!" Yeah, maybe, maybe not. I threw away all of my "fat clothes". I vowed I would never gain weight again. When I could wear an XL I said I was no longer a Plus Sizer! All of that changed, and I can't seem to get back below 200 lbs.
The funny part is, no one that is really unsuccessful posts on that board. It's all Pollyanna happy people convinced that they will be skinny forever (no offense meant to my friends over there). Take a look at the revision board. There are thousands of us that had WLS, lost some weight, and then BAM! the switch was thrown, and our bodies changed back to our pre-surgery form.
Of course when you are pre-op, or newly post-op, or even a maintaining post-op, it's hard to imagine going back. You think that 'It works if you work it'. Anyone that gains must be doing something wrong, right? NOPE. It happens. And it happens to a lot of people. The fact is, no one wants to post every day on a casual forum that they are failing. That the weight is creeping back on, and they are hungry all the time. They don't want to say that they skipped the gym one week and gained 5 lbs. that won't come off. It's embarrassing, and besides, no one wants to hear it.
So that's my bitch fest. I'm still not losing, and no one seems to "get it".
Here's to tomorrow being a better day!
First Blog entry-Post-Revision!
Dec 22, 2009
Well, revison to stoma and poucheroo was on 12/16 at St. John Oakland.
This was far more painful than my original RNY, but not quite as bad as my TT.
I am still feeling like I got hit by a bus, but hoping that after the holidays that will change.
I am losing slowly, down 14 lbs. in 2 weeks, but that is on a totally liquid diet for the entire time. I do understand that weight loss will be a lot slower this time around.
My goal is to get remotely close to my original goal, which was 170. I started out at 317, dropped down to 198 after first RNY. Then I continually gained for over a year, even after my TT. My start weight for revision was 248. I wonder if I will ever get out of the fricking 200's. I can only hope!
So far, on Phase I of liquid diet, and doing ok. Lots of pain in my left side, but at least I lost the drain today!
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This was far more painful than my original RNY, but not quite as bad as my TT.
I am still feeling like I got hit by a bus, but hoping that after the holidays that will change.
I am losing slowly, down 14 lbs. in 2 weeks, but that is on a totally liquid diet for the entire time. I do understand that weight loss will be a lot slower this time around.
My goal is to get remotely close to my original goal, which was 170. I started out at 317, dropped down to 198 after first RNY. Then I continually gained for over a year, even after my TT. My start weight for revision was 248. I wonder if I will ever get out of the fricking 200's. I can only hope!
So far, on Phase I of liquid diet, and doing ok. Lots of pain in my left side, but at least I lost the drain today!
