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Well I am getting closer and closer to goal each week.  Today I weigh 201.  I am so close to onderland that I am obsessed about it!!!  I can't wait to be 199.  I want that two to go away so badly!!!
Today I went shopping and bought a size 14 skirt.  It is nice to shop in the misses department.  I no longer have a reason to shop in the women's sizes anymore and boy does it feel wonderful.  The weight loss is really starting to show in my bottom now and that is a wonderful thing.  I am pear shaped, even when thin, so it takes a while for my bottom to catch up to my top.  
I also bought a new bathing suit so I now have two.  One for when it is only me and hubby in the pool and another, more conservative one, for when guests are over.  
I am still very pleased that I don't obsess over food anymore.  Eating is still more of a chore than anything else.  I would be happy if I didn't have to eat.  I never get hungry and only eat because I know I have to.  I do drink a lot of caffiene and sugar free liquids and plain water.  I drink way more than I think I will ever eat.  
The skin on my legs and thighs is really starting to sag.  It is very, very loose.  I have been exercising daily and the legs are toning up some but I doubt it will be enough to help my skin very much.  I want to have my thighs done but I know I am about a year away.  I went for a consult with a PS a few weeks ago to check into having a BA and TT.  I doubt I will do the TT.  Too expensive for the little bit of skin I have.  I am fortunate that my belly is toning up ok enough on its own.  The surgeon said he wants my weight to stablize before he does any surgery at all and I totally understand.  He said he would do my BA now if I really wanted it done since I don't have a lot of weight left to lose up top but he said he preferred I wait because I will have a better result if I do.  So I am going to wait for now.  I am thinking I will have it done for Christmas.  Merry Christmas to me!!!!
Well, gotta run for now.  Yes, I know, I need to post a current pic of myself!!

Hi there!
Just wanted to post a quick update.  It has been a while.  Not intentionally though......  I have my life back and I have been living it to the fullest!!  WOO HOO!!! So needless to say I have been very busy. 
I am very pleased with my progress.  My next mini goal is to get below 200lbs.  I have become very used to the stalls I experience on a regular basis.  I won't lose anything for three weeks and in that fourth week I can lose up to 10 lbs at once.  I did have a really bad kidney infection last month and didn't lose anything.  I imagine it was the antibiotics I was on.  Everything is fine now and I am in another loss cycle.  
I have lost a little bit of hair.  It started about a month ago.  I hope it stops soon or else I may go bald on top.....lol.   Well, I say "lol" but it really isn't funny to me.  But hey, it is what it is and I will deal with it.  I make sure I get a minimum of 60g of protein each day and I take 5000mg of biotin each day along with my other supplements and vitamins.  I am ok with the trade off.....  give up a little hair in order to give up a lot of weight.....  yeah, definitely worth it.  And for those that are wondering, yes, I can tell that the biotin is helping.  The loss has lessened since I started it. 
I love to clothes shop now.  For the most part I am in a 16 pant/jean/skirt, which are loose, and a few 14's.  I am in medium and small misses blouse/shirt.  
I am researching breast augmentation since I have lost two cup sizes.  I went from a C to an A.  I have ALWAYS wanted a larger bust so this isn't any type of a new desire for me.  It's just nice to be losing weight in order for it to be more realisitic for me to have it done.  I am saving for it now since it's a self pay procedure.   I want to go up to a D or DD.  I am confident I can pull it off without looking un-natural since I am pear shaped (small chest, small waist, large hip).  It should even me out and make me more proportionate.  
My eating habits are relatively normal and much healthier than ever before.  I don't feel deprived at all.  There are so many sugar free alternatives out there that I don't miss sugar.   When I want a "sugar" fix, I will have one or two small sugar free cookies and it more than satisfies me.  I eat a wide range of proteins now.  I still don't to well with eggs so it is very rare when I eat one and when I do it is usually in some sort of a scramble with a lot of veggies and protein added.  Chicken, shrimp, and salmon are my absolute favorites.  Beef and pork are ok too.  Portion wise, mine are still  pretty small.  They average about a cup total at each meal.  Sometimes breakfast is less.  I have found I lose much slower if I eat cheese so I have pretty much eliminated it from my diet.  If I haven't had enough protein in a day, I will drink a one scoop chocolate Pro Complex shake to supplement (happens maybe once a week).  I can drink milk again and will have about 1-2 cups of FF or 1% almost everyday.  I eat small amounts of veggies and/or fruit daily and on a rare, rare, rare day I may have 2-3 bites of plain potato.  I don't do bread at all. 
I am religious about my daily vitamin/supplement and water intake.  I don't miss a day nor do I have a day where I have less than 64oz of water/non-caffeinated beverage combination.  My absolute favorite thing to drink is SoBe Lean Cranberry Grapefruit.  Yummy!!!  I also like Walmart's brand of crystal light in the cranapple flavor.  I wish crystal light made that one.  I don't like to shop at Walmart but will go in there for that one item since no one else carries it.  
My family is still extremely supportive and so are all of my coworkers.  It is nice to be getting positive attention from others.
This surgery has been totally worth it and my only regret is that I didn't have it done sooner!!!!!!
I changed my avatar until I can get a current pic taken and posted. 
Ciao for now,  Bfly ;)

227 lbs.........itsn't it grand????  This is by far the best thing I have ever, ever, ever done for myself.  My only regret is not having done it sooner.  Clothes shopping is more fun now.  I find I am really liking the positive attention I am getting from others (men and women alike) but it is still sad to have been on both sides and know what it is like to be transparent to others when  you are larger in size.  

Down another 2 lbs....235!!

Down another pound!!!!!! 237......70 lbs gone forever!!!!!!!

WOW...I had a really awesome NSV last night.  Hubby and I went to a NYE party and there were about 14 people total, 5 women, 6 men, and 3 kids.  I was the SMALLEST women in the group!!!!!!  This hasn't happened to me since, oh, I don't know, COLLEGE!!!!!!  WOO HOO!!!!  For the longest time I was the biggest person in the room.  I mean bigger than the men too!!  Really this was such a small thing overall but it really meant a lot to me and really helped with the self esteem.  I can't wait to see what the new year holds.....welcome 2007!!
Oh, weighed this morning and lost another pound.....i'm now 238.

Guess what??? Today I tried on new jeans for the first time since surgery and I have gone from a size 28 to an 18!!!!!!! And they fit comfortably!!  I didn't buy them because they were $40 and knowing I am still losing it didn't make sense right now, but it sure felt good walking out of that dressing room!!!!!!!!
Woo Hoo to a NSV!!

WOW......I can't believe it!!! I got on the scale this morning and I have lost another pound. I am now 239, officially in the 230's!!!!! WOO HOO!!!! I want to go clothes shopping so badly but won't. I don't want to spend the money right now, especially since I am continuing to lose at a steady rate. But at the same time I tired of having clothes that are too big. I have one pair of pants tht don't fall off of me. Uuuggghhh. It's ok though. Maybe I will go to Goodwill and see if I can't find something. I went through my closet this week trying everything on that I haven't worn in years. Almost everything was way too big. What a nice feeling!!! I did come across a black skirt I have never worn. It is a little big but not too bad. I am going to wear it New Years Eve to a party some of our friends are having. I may even go out on a limb and wear fish net hose too. Should be fun. Have a good one! I know I am!!

Good morning everyone. 
Well I am happy to say I my plateau is over!!!  Woo Hoo!!!  Whew, it took long enough.  For anyone that is reading this and hasn't hit one yet, know it is normal if you do and it is common for them to last 4 weeks or more. Mine lasted exactly 4 weeks to the day.  Today I weigh 240 and I am thrilled.  I am close, close, close to the 230's.  
It occured to me yesterday that I am only 50 lbs away from what I weighed when me and hubby got married.  I want to lose another 100.  I know I can do it.  
A pivital change for me has been the exercise.  It took me several weeks to do it consistently and to really push myself to make myself sweat but now it is more habit than anything and I really miss it if I skip a day.  I currently walk/jog/run combo on my treadmill for 30-40 minutes most days of the week.  I am very close to 2 miles.  My goal is to get to 5 miles a day.  This time last year I bought a bowflex but found I was too big to use it, until now.  I am reading the workout book that came with it and I am in the process of creating a work out just for me.  It is time to work on resistance training.  
I am very encouraged by how my skin is responding to my weight loss, especially my stomach.  I am pear shaped and gain from the bottom up and lose from the top down so I have lost most of what I need up top and it is really starting now on the bottom.  It will be interesting to see if my hips are as responsive to my weight loss as my upper torso.  Hopefully so.  I will get a lower body lift if I need to but I'd rather not.  I hear they are very painful.  I am saving for a breast lift/augmentation right now.  I hope to have that done this summer.  I will wait the full 18 month for any other PS I choose to have done.  
Well it is time to go watch Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer with the family.
Enjoy your day!!!!!!

244 lbs
Hello to all!!
Well the journey keeps getting more and more interesting.  The plateaus are killer for me.  I have experienced two so far and they really stink!!!!!  I believe I just broke my second one but something tells me the weight loss will be much slower from here on out.  I am okay with that as long as I continue to lose.  I am following most of my doctors directions.  I am getting most of my protein from food, staying away from starchy carbs, and I am walking/jogging for a mile to mile and a half almost everyday.  The water is still my problem.  I can't get it all in.  Not even half.  I have no doubt this is slowing down my weight loss.  I have tried crystal light, propel, and plain ice cold water.  I really like the taste of all of them but there doesn't seem to be enough room in my tummy to get it in, even when I sip.  It is quite frustrating because I really liked and drank a lot of water everyday pre surgery.  I never had problems getting in 64oz plus.   I wish I could hook myself up to an iv.......lol.   I have figured out a lot of high protein things to eat that are very satisfying.  Most of them are really tender beef, cheese, or bean related.  I really struggle with eggs (don't care if I ever eat another one....ever!!!) and chicken.  They both make me gag.  I can tolerate really tender pork on occasion.  I like fresh veggies but only do a bite, maybe two, at each meal since I really focus on the protein.  I have started taking benefiber each day to "keep things moving".  Since I have started eating cheese, I have had some problems.  Here's hoping the benefiber does it's job!!  Well, that's it for today.  Next goal......move all of my "my story" info to the blog, where it belongs.