carlabradshaw
regrets
Jun 17, 2012
Well I am 6 days short of 1 month post op and I am having serious regrets about having the surgery.I know everyone keeps saying it takes time and the weight didn't get put on over night and won't come off over night either but come on really? since surgery on May 24 to today, which is June 18, I have lost a whopping 17lbs...really? Had i known it would be this slow I would have NEVER had the surgery. I rearranged everything inside my body, changed my whole lifestyle, the way I eat, the way I view food, everything about me has changed and the only difference I have noticed so far is really heavy, crampy periods, which I never had before and would prefer my periods I used to have that were few and far between even though they lasted for weeks they were light and didn't hurt, and I am very moody all the time, missing certain foods which makes me sad at times and angry at myself for doing this, I miss eating like a normal person and hate going to people's houses for dinner because it is useless for them to make a nice dinner and I can only eat certain foods and certain amounts, and take so llong to eat I hold everything up, like playing games after eating..now they all have to wait for me. I take around 3x more time to eat then they do and they have full plates and I have a tiny baby plate. so now most of the time I decline the invitations, where as before I would be right there.
Don't get me wrong I have noticed some inches lost, and I know people say to concentrate on that more than the scale but hard to do that when the scale won't move at all. I keep going back and forth between 224.8 to 223 and it is very depresssing.
I figured since I have had my period I might have seen the scale go down but that hasn`t happened either.
I have never been depressed, and I am sure I am not depressed now either but I do know that I am not happy with having the surgery, I am not pleased with the results thus far, I do not like the changes to my mood and personality, and I miss eating. Please, if someone is reading any of my post do not suggest i go see a shrink because that is simply not going to happen and that is not why I am writing this. I am just wondering if anyone else out there has felt the same way I am feeling now and if they lost as slow as me. I am not eating stuff I should not be eating and I have a pretty good routine set up for times and stuff.
I never expected this to be easy but I never expected it to be this hard or slow either.
