carlabradshaw
weight
Feb 12, 2013
weighed myself today and I am now 160.8. That is 92lbs gone. I own a pair of size 6 pants from a 22, and I went and bought a pair of young boys size 16 husky pants as well and they fit. I have a little bit of loose skin on my belly but not an excess amount, I will try to tone it up and hopefully I can cause I don't want to have surgery on it, and don't think I would qualify anyway. :(
Nancy Nix
Sep 05, 2012
Just wanted everyone to know that Nancy had her surgery yesterday and all is well and the surgery went great!!!!!
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FINALLY!!!!!!!
Aug 06, 2012
Well finally after some ups and downs, regrets, heartache, feeling sorry for myself, and being frustrated I finally hit onderland today!!!!! I now weigh 198.2 lbs...down from 252 when I started this journey. And I just checked it out with the BMI calculator and at the weight I am right now I would not qualify, from a BMI stand point, for this surgery...YEAHHHH!!!! I am so friggin happy right now. I almost cried when I saw the scale. I weighed myself 2 more times and then the 3rd time I asked my husband to look and make sure I wasn't seeing things lol. I love this new feeling. I am now wearing a 16-18 and an XL underwear as opposed to a 3x, My scrubs for work are an XL...this is so amazing!!!!!! Just a little update for everyone!
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regrets
Jun 17, 2012
Well I am 6 days short of 1 month post op and I am having serious regrets about having the surgery.
I know everyone keeps saying it takes time and the weight didn't get put on over night and won't come off over night either but come on really? since surgery on May 24 to today, which is June 18, I have lost a whopping 17lbs...really? Had i known it would be this slow I would have NEVER had the surgery. I rearranged everything inside my body, changed my whole lifestyle, the way I eat, the way I view food, everything about me has changed and the only difference I have noticed so far is really heavy, crampy periods, which I never had before and would prefer my periods I used to have that were few and far between even though they lasted for weeks they were light and didn't hurt, and I am very moody all the time, missing certain foods which makes me sad at times and angry at myself for doing this, I miss eating like a normal person and hate going to people's houses for dinner because it is useless for them to make a nice dinner and I can only eat certain foods and certain amounts, and take so llong to eat I hold everything up, like playing games after eating..now they all have to wait for me. I take around 3x more time to eat then they do and they have full plates and I have a tiny baby plate. so now most of the time I decline the invitations, where as before I would be right there.
Don't get me wrong I have noticed some inches lost, and I know people say to concentrate on that more than the scale but hard to do that when the scale won't move at all. I keep going back and forth between 224.8 to 223 and it is very depresssing.
I figured since I have had my period I might have seen the scale go down but that hasn`t happened either.
I have never been depressed, and I am sure I am not depressed now either but I do know that I am not happy with having the surgery, I am not pleased with the results thus far, I do not like the changes to my mood and personality, and I miss eating. Please, if someone is reading any of my post do not suggest i go see a shrink because that is simply not going to happen and that is not why I am writing this. I am just wondering if anyone else out there has felt the same way I am feeling now and if they lost as slow as me. I am not eating stuff I should not be eating and I have a pretty good routine set up for times and stuff.
I never expected this to be easy but I never expected it to be this hard or slow either.
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I know everyone keeps saying it takes time and the weight didn't get put on over night and won't come off over night either but come on really? since surgery on May 24 to today, which is June 18, I have lost a whopping 17lbs...really? Had i known it would be this slow I would have NEVER had the surgery. I rearranged everything inside my body, changed my whole lifestyle, the way I eat, the way I view food, everything about me has changed and the only difference I have noticed so far is really heavy, crampy periods, which I never had before and would prefer my periods I used to have that were few and far between even though they lasted for weeks they were light and didn't hurt, and I am very moody all the time, missing certain foods which makes me sad at times and angry at myself for doing this, I miss eating like a normal person and hate going to people's houses for dinner because it is useless for them to make a nice dinner and I can only eat certain foods and certain amounts, and take so llong to eat I hold everything up, like playing games after eating..now they all have to wait for me. I take around 3x more time to eat then they do and they have full plates and I have a tiny baby plate. so now most of the time I decline the invitations, where as before I would be right there.
Don't get me wrong I have noticed some inches lost, and I know people say to concentrate on that more than the scale but hard to do that when the scale won't move at all. I keep going back and forth between 224.8 to 223 and it is very depresssing.
I figured since I have had my period I might have seen the scale go down but that hasn`t happened either.
I have never been depressed, and I am sure I am not depressed now either but I do know that I am not happy with having the surgery, I am not pleased with the results thus far, I do not like the changes to my mood and personality, and I miss eating. Please, if someone is reading any of my post do not suggest i go see a shrink because that is simply not going to happen and that is not why I am writing this. I am just wondering if anyone else out there has felt the same way I am feeling now and if they lost as slow as me. I am not eating stuff I should not be eating and I have a pretty good routine set up for times and stuff.
I never expected this to be easy but I never expected it to be this hard or slow either.
2 week stall
Jun 09, 2012
Well after 1 day short of a 2 week stall I finally saw the number on the scale drop. I went from 226.4 to 224.2 yeah me, maybe my body is finally realizing that I am serious and letting go of my fat now. I have been trying hard to follow the meal plan in my book with a little bit of changing up so I am not eating the same mundane things every day, but still I am eating what it say I should be (sort of).
Yesterday I actually tried eating a chicken wrap, made at home of course. I made chicken breast and ground it up and bought whole wheat tortilla wraps, I put some chunk cheese on it and instead of the all evil mayonaisse, I put yogurt on it. I was surprised when I could only eat 1/2 of it. I can handle the wraps and chicken is no issue for me. I find as long as I chew chew chew and don't eat too fast or too much I can handle mostly anything that is on my list, although wraps are not on it for another week I needed some sort of bread-like thing and instead of bread I chose tortilla wraps. I also had a tortilla wrap for snack at night with a little peanut butter on it. Yumm they were both good.
Today is my son Trevor's 6th birthday and we are having a party for him at Little Lake park I am going to bring my wraps down and have a slider on one instead of having a white slider bun and I may or may not try a veery small piece of cake with no icing on it. Probably not though cause I don't want to get into that bad habit this early on.
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Yesterday I actually tried eating a chicken wrap, made at home of course. I made chicken breast and ground it up and bought whole wheat tortilla wraps, I put some chunk cheese on it and instead of the all evil mayonaisse, I put yogurt on it. I was surprised when I could only eat 1/2 of it. I can handle the wraps and chicken is no issue for me. I find as long as I chew chew chew and don't eat too fast or too much I can handle mostly anything that is on my list, although wraps are not on it for another week I needed some sort of bread-like thing and instead of bread I chose tortilla wraps. I also had a tortilla wrap for snack at night with a little peanut butter on it. Yumm they were both good.
Today is my son Trevor's 6th birthday and we are having a party for him at Little Lake park I am going to bring my wraps down and have a slider on one instead of having a white slider bun and I may or may not try a veery small piece of cake with no icing on it. Probably not though cause I don't want to get into that bad habit this early on.
scale
Jun 04, 2012
Hi everyone,
Ok so I became a little obsessed as apparently most people do after WLS or a weight loss program. I was weighing myself every morning and getting more and more depressed every time I looked at the scale and it read either the same as yesterday and the day before and the day before, or a pound or 2 more. I was at a stand still for 6 days and finally today I went down 1lb wohoo....it may only be a pound but every pound adds up is what I say. My Angel Monica Murphy put it very well when she said my body was going through the WTF stage and not thinking I was serious and when it realized I was serious I would see the weight come off....sooooo..I told my body last night in a serious assertive tone "I AM SERIOUS" and it must have heard me lmao.
I decided to tell my husband to put the scale in the shed and hide it, cause God knows I will not go searching for it in there lol, I hate going in the shed for anything and rarely ever do. The only time I go in there is to get my sons bike out and well I am not going to weigh myself outside lol.
I bought a pair of shorts today and they are size 18 and I was in a 22 just before surgery. I don't know if they fit yet as I have not tried them on, but in the store I held them across my waist (Women know what I mean) and they went half way around and then a little more, so hopefully they will fit!
My mom told me today that she is beginning to see a waist on me again. That felt so good, since I see some what of a change but not a whole lot. Yes I realize I am only just a little over a week out and it is not a miracle cure and your fat doesn't just melt off, but I guess I just want it to happen fast, but I am happy as can be with the progress so far.
I am still having issues with constipation and very hard bowel movements when I do have one. I always feel like I have ot go but when I do it hurts like the devil. I have tried MOM but it gags me to take it, so I think I will try something else.
I bought my son and daughter McDonalds today since we were out and I wasn't paying attention to the time and realized it was well past lunch and neither had eaten. I did eat 2 fries from my daughters happy meal and a very small piece of her grilled cheese and that was about 3 hours ago now and I haven't dumped it yet so I am hoping it doesn't sneak up on me. By small piece I mean liek the size of a ritz cracker, I figured I didn't have a burger or anything crappy and 2 fries and a very small piece of bun and cheese wouldn't kill me, I chewed til it was much and chewed some more. Then I came home and ate my normal 1/4c soup, 1/4c greek yogurt and 1/3c protein shake. and now I am completely full for another 2 hours lol.
I am doing alright I think. I find it hard to eat every 2 hours, sometimes I skip snack and just eat 3 meals and 1 snack so I am hoping that is ok. I also find it hard to get my calcium pills in because I hate the taste so what I started doing is making a shake of 1/3c boost, 1c skim milk, ice, and 2 calcium pills and I drink 1/3 c for breakfast (with a calcium pill), 1/3 c lunch, 1/3 c supper and the rest as a snack that way I get all calcium pills in plus 1c milk (which I hate) and my boost. works for me. lol.
Anyway I have to go but I really want to thank Monica Murphy for being my Angel and motivating me with all her posts here and on facebook, and always being there when I have a question or concern. Thanks Monica!!!!!!
Have a good day everyone and see you lighter!!!
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Ok so I became a little obsessed as apparently most people do after WLS or a weight loss program. I was weighing myself every morning and getting more and more depressed every time I looked at the scale and it read either the same as yesterday and the day before and the day before, or a pound or 2 more. I was at a stand still for 6 days and finally today I went down 1lb wohoo....it may only be a pound but every pound adds up is what I say. My Angel Monica Murphy put it very well when she said my body was going through the WTF stage and not thinking I was serious and when it realized I was serious I would see the weight come off....sooooo..I told my body last night in a serious assertive tone "I AM SERIOUS" and it must have heard me lmao.
I decided to tell my husband to put the scale in the shed and hide it, cause God knows I will not go searching for it in there lol, I hate going in the shed for anything and rarely ever do. The only time I go in there is to get my sons bike out and well I am not going to weigh myself outside lol.
I bought a pair of shorts today and they are size 18 and I was in a 22 just before surgery. I don't know if they fit yet as I have not tried them on, but in the store I held them across my waist (Women know what I mean) and they went half way around and then a little more, so hopefully they will fit!
My mom told me today that she is beginning to see a waist on me again. That felt so good, since I see some what of a change but not a whole lot. Yes I realize I am only just a little over a week out and it is not a miracle cure and your fat doesn't just melt off, but I guess I just want it to happen fast, but I am happy as can be with the progress so far.
I am still having issues with constipation and very hard bowel movements when I do have one. I always feel like I have ot go but when I do it hurts like the devil. I have tried MOM but it gags me to take it, so I think I will try something else.
I bought my son and daughter McDonalds today since we were out and I wasn't paying attention to the time and realized it was well past lunch and neither had eaten. I did eat 2 fries from my daughters happy meal and a very small piece of her grilled cheese and that was about 3 hours ago now and I haven't dumped it yet so I am hoping it doesn't sneak up on me. By small piece I mean liek the size of a ritz cracker, I figured I didn't have a burger or anything crappy and 2 fries and a very small piece of bun and cheese wouldn't kill me, I chewed til it was much and chewed some more. Then I came home and ate my normal 1/4c soup, 1/4c greek yogurt and 1/3c protein shake. and now I am completely full for another 2 hours lol.
I am doing alright I think. I find it hard to eat every 2 hours, sometimes I skip snack and just eat 3 meals and 1 snack so I am hoping that is ok. I also find it hard to get my calcium pills in because I hate the taste so what I started doing is making a shake of 1/3c boost, 1c skim milk, ice, and 2 calcium pills and I drink 1/3 c for breakfast (with a calcium pill), 1/3 c lunch, 1/3 c supper and the rest as a snack that way I get all calcium pills in plus 1c milk (which I hate) and my boost. works for me. lol.
Anyway I have to go but I really want to thank Monica Murphy for being my Angel and motivating me with all her posts here and on facebook, and always being there when I have a question or concern. Thanks Monica!!!!!!
Have a good day everyone and see you lighter!!!
Day 5 post op
May 29, 2012
Well today is day 5 post op and I am feeling pretty darn good...except for the fact that I have really hot flashes and feel like I am about 50 and going through the change of life lol. I have eaten breakfast and lunch without a hitch.
I had to buy some tape for my incisions where the instruments went in since the steri-strips are coming off and it still looks like a fresh gash.
I know I will have those up and down days but I hope I have more up days than down days, but then doesn't everybody? lol. I went to my Dr today and the secretary gave me a note to be off work until July 24...yeahhhhhh 2 days AFTER my birthday lol. Gonna be a good summer lmao!!
I was down from 252 before my first appt with Dr.Hagen to 240.2 on day of surgery and now I am 229 as of yesterday, not sure today...I have decided every monday is my weigh in date lol.
Anyway this is my update for today. Have a good day everyone!!
Oh yeah I bought a skirt today since it has been so hot and I have no shorts that has stretchy waist and a new light flowing shirt....they are pretty and they are large and fit.... CRAZY!!
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I had to buy some tape for my incisions where the instruments went in since the steri-strips are coming off and it still looks like a fresh gash.
I know I will have those up and down days but I hope I have more up days than down days, but then doesn't everybody? lol. I went to my Dr today and the secretary gave me a note to be off work until July 24...yeahhhhhh 2 days AFTER my birthday lol. Gonna be a good summer lmao!!
I was down from 252 before my first appt with Dr.Hagen to 240.2 on day of surgery and now I am 229 as of yesterday, not sure today...I have decided every monday is my weigh in date lol.
Anyway this is my update for today. Have a good day everyone!!
Oh yeah I bought a skirt today since it has been so hot and I have no shorts that has stretchy waist and a new light flowing shirt....they are pretty and they are large and fit.... CRAZY!!
Day 2 Post op
May 26, 2012
Well here it is day 2 post op and I feel like shit! My stomach hurts, I can't seem to get all the food in that I need to eat, I have lots of gas that I can't get out. I don't know why I ever did this to my body! I could cry right now. Has anyone else felt this way right after? Oh man I hate this!!
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tomorrow is the day!
May 22, 2012
Well It approached fast and tomorrow is the day of my surgery. I had my good friend Shelly come over and talk to me yesterday and she calmed me down somewhat but I am still scared. I was not too bad all the way up to yesterday.
My sister is picking me up around 3pm today and I am going to Oshawa for the night and then to the hospital for 6am. Man the nerves right now. WOW!!
I have some running around to do today and hopefully that will calm my nerves some, but I highly doubt I will get sleep tonight. Oh well guess I should get my ass in gear and stop whinning lol.
Have a good day all!!! I will try to update as soon as possible after surgery.
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My sister is picking me up around 3pm today and I am going to Oshawa for the night and then to the hospital for 6am. Man the nerves right now. WOW!!
I have some running around to do today and hopefully that will calm my nerves some, but I highly doubt I will get sleep tonight. Oh well guess I should get my ass in gear and stop whinning lol.
Have a good day all!!! I will try to update as soon as possible after surgery.
Work
May 20, 2012
I just finished my last day of work at 9pm tonight and I am starting to get a little scared, now that the surgery is only 4 days away. I found myself checking out the memorial page on here....I know it's a big no-no but I was drawn to it for some reason. It still scares me that I may die during or after surgery.
I also keep thinking...what will it be like after surgery? what if I can't keep anything down? That's alot of rearranging they are doing inside me, what if I can't handle it? what if I get cravings for "junk"?
It also scares me that I will never be able to eat certain foods again (even in moderation) I know alot of foods are bad for you but they taste so good and I don't want to have to miss out on things and have to eat fruits and vegetables and "good stuff" ALL THE TIME....Man am I scared now. I would never tell my husband this but I am really scared and worried. Oh well I guess I need to suck it up for my health and well being and for my children.
Just glad I am off work for a little bit now. lol......hope the doc gives me at least 8 weeks off!!
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I also keep thinking...what will it be like after surgery? what if I can't keep anything down? That's alot of rearranging they are doing inside me, what if I can't handle it? what if I get cravings for "junk"?
It also scares me that I will never be able to eat certain foods again (even in moderation) I know alot of foods are bad for you but they taste so good and I don't want to have to miss out on things and have to eat fruits and vegetables and "good stuff" ALL THE TIME....Man am I scared now. I would never tell my husband this but I am really scared and worried. Oh well I guess I need to suck it up for my health and well being and for my children.
Just glad I am off work for a little bit now. lol......hope the doc gives me at least 8 weeks off!!
