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Saw my doctors assistent today and told him i was STARVINN and he was like well its only been two weeks so just thicken your liquids a little bit, no chunks of stuff but thicken.

so i took that as me eating some instant mashed potatoes with mrs. dash in them and they were AHMAYZINGGGGGGGGGG!!!!

and i am falling more and more in love everyday with my boy at school. the one who is my best friend. its so hard. i hate sounding like a little baby wahh no one wants me and i wish i didn't love him!!! In my perfect world, I will come back after summer break and be in onederland somewhere and he will just fall in love with me! hahaha. I just want him to realize it.

lovelovelove

casey

Wow, so today is my 3rd day back at school and I'm so busy!!

Yesterday was my one week out and I'm feeling so great! and I weighed 232 again haha but today i was 233. I'm just ready for the real weight loss to begin! i want to get a fill and just do as great as everyone else! Not that I'm not excited about my fantastic 10 lbs in a week!!

I go to get my new car tomorrow after class!!  I am pretty excited, but I'm not happy that my CD player is staying behind, and its kinda sad to leave my first car. I love him =[

Speaking of love, the boy I'm in love with keeps talking about the girl who is like 16 and ughhh. It makes me so sad that I actually cried about it last night. Only a few tears but I'm just like, what can i DO to make him understand that I'm the one? I know I sound so pathetic but I just can't help it and if anyone else were in my situation, they would feel the same way about him. He is just perfect for me, and he is like my best friend. I just want him to realize it! And I'm hoping that my major weight loss will be a factor in everything! If I lose like 30 lbs this semester and then don't see him until September (ugh that makes me sad just thinking about it) I will vow to lose another 30 during the summer and come back under 200lbs looking like a normal girl. I just want nothing but him.

ughh anywaysssssss!!!

I go to the doctor on Tuesday so lets see what they have to say? Get me off this liquid diet early? I say YES!!!!!!


My lover boy said something about it too (cause he didn't know i had surgery). He was like, wow you're on a milk kick now and i just said haha yeah! i love it!

i didn't mention that its my main source of nutrients! hahahah

alright, guess I better do homework.

oh yeah

TAYLOR SWIFT CONCERT ON AUGUST 1st!!! I'm SOOOOO EXCITED! Motivation for me to be skinny there!


lovelovelove
Casey

So i woke up today and weighed myself, and it weighed 232! Thats 10 pounds down from LAST FRIDAY! that totally amazes me and makes me think that its not real haha.

And I had 4oz of milk today. It was seriously the tastiest thing I've ever had after nearly a week of clear liquids!!!! And i feel full right now! This is so cool!!

I'll keep everyone posted!

lovelovelove
Casey

sitting here at the computer pretty much sucks due to a little pain and i'm on clear liquids until satrday but this is so all worth it!! I'm banded!!!

here is the play by play -- more for me than for you guys but you can read if you like --

I woke up at like 5:30 even though I didn't have to go to the hospital until 7:30
We left the house at 7:30 and parked, wen tinto the hospital where we were supposed to go to the Info Desk to ask them where to go. Well there is NO ONE TO BE FOUND at the info desk!! So luckily my mom was there and found a security woman who tracked someone down and told us where to go. We got there and I got checked in. Got my i.d. bracelet and then waited in the waiting room for probably 10 mins. Then a nurse came and got me, took me to a small room with a bed, a couple chairs and a NEAT tv (i totally want one! it swivels all over and gets right in your face!). I had to change into my gown, take a pregnancy test, and hung out. My mom knew a lot of the nurses so it was a party in my room. At around 10 a nurse came in to take me and my mom up to the 2nd floor and we had to say goodbye. I put on a brave face but then cried for like 20 mins, just because of nerves. but the nurses were SO nice and funny and made everything ok.  I got my IV in and then another nurse out in something which i think was supposed to make me calm down when really it made me so uneasy! But finally they wheeled me into the OR and put a mask on me. The last thing I remember is the nurses telling me to think about Hawaii and I woke up in recovery. I had to wait in recovery for a whileee because they didn't havea ny heart monitors but I didn't mind because all I wanted to do was sleep. They found my mom, who was hanging out in my cool other room on the 7th floor rm 14. and she talked to me and pretty much everyone there! They took me to my room and every nurse that came in had to ask me my name and bday which was so annoying! haha but then I got to just chill out and my mom's bf and my sister came as well as my best friend who brought me PRETTY flowers that everyone said were beautiful!
Last night was ROUGH though. I was nauseated when they made me get up and walk around so I didn't do much of that yesterday.  When I finally found the time to get up and pee, I was dry heaving and had to pee every like 2 hours but i was connected to everything so thanks god for my mom who helped me at like 2:30 in the morning. Slept okay the rest of the time and I managed to do a good bit of walking. Had to take a nasty color dye xray thing and that wasa GROSS but not too bad and then they took me back to my room. I chilled out and only got nauseated again when I was taking a shower so I took a nap for like 2 hours and then we got discharged!

so thats it! I had such a good experience there though and I'm so glad I did this!!!

wish my luck!

lovelovelove
Casey

I cannot believe its finally here! in 16 short hours, i will be in the hospital and getting prepped for surgery!

My insurance lady called and told me that I was approved for surgery, ha thanks a lot for the early update!
I'm SOOOO hungry and all I want is a big plate of nachos with tons of cheese, beef, sour cream, and esp salsa and jalepenos<3333

oh well, hello slim fast and protein shakes!!


Thanks to everyone here and I will see you all on the other side!

lovelovelove

Casey

I don't know how you guys who have like weeks of liquid diet do it. I've been on clear unsweetened liquids for....3hours and i'm ready to die!!!!

But i know that its only these two days of hell then my SURGERY!!! I need to find something to do though, that doesn't involve food =[

maybe i'll rent a movie or something to keep me entertained.

i'll keep you updated!

lovelovelove

Casey

ps - oh yeah MY SURGERY IS ON WEDNESDAY!!!!!

went and saw my surgeon today and she's giving me the realize band!!!

and my surgery is at 8am!

and I'm super excited!

wooowwww!!!

Its thursday!!

My clearance appointment and my nut. appt. went really well! I was in and out.

I meet with my surgeon tomorrow and get my surgery time!!!!!!! I'm so exciteddddd!!!!

I saw that someone had posted a topic about insurance and I never heard anything from my insurance like ever. We have a woman, Misty, who does all the insurance stuff for me so I never got a letter or anything saying okay, its passed, but Misty was the one who called me to give me a date and everything has gone along, like all my appointments and everything. Just thinking haha. I'm thinking of any excuse they could give me to postpone the one thing I've been waiting for for like 7 months!!!!!

Also, I'm STILL sick. Not throwing up, but the other gross bodily function that is even worse. Yeah, and today is day 6 of that. I'm so pissed.

Here's and update of my To Do list

Today - like nothinggg!!
Friday - Working, going out to dinner, MAYBE babysitting
Saturday - Go shopping for my liquids after surgery, babysitting at 4
Sunday - Going to my friends school with her
Monday - start liquid diet!!!! idk why I'm sounding excited about it haha.
Tuesday - liquid diet continued
Wednesday - Surgery!!! at some time that I am unaware of!!!

Need to get an oil change on either monday or tuesday and my uncle ( who is also my mechanic) has a new car for me!!!

I drive a 1995 Buick Regal and it is pretty crappy. A good first car, but I really want something cute!!! And he said its a Dodge something and its purple and he will give it to me for $2800!! Which I have!!! yayyyyyy!! Hello after surgery present =]

Gotta go, keep everyone updated!!

lovelovelove

Casey

Today is my last day in the double digits before surgery!!!

I'm so excited!!!!

I also got the stomach virus that has been going around my work. I threw up and had diarreah all yesterday and today
=[ plus i have a fever.

I did lose like 8 pounds though hahaha. Guess thats the bright side of all of this!

Here is a little list of all of the things going on these next 10 days:

Today - Possibly going with my friend to her school tonight. New True Life is on tonight! (10)
Monday - Paydayy! its going to be a wonderfullll paycheck!! (9)
Tuesday - My last Friendlys date with my gang! We;ve been going every week since July!! =[ (8)
Wednesday - Going to Buffalo Wild Wings for my mom's birthday / my "last supper" since BWW is my favorite placeee and we all can't get together any other time haha. (7!!!!) Also I can't take Advil anymore =[[[[
Thursday - My Mom's actual birthday. (6)
Friday - Appointment with my surgeon! Find out my surgery time!! also going out to dinner with my old High School teacher!! and its my last day of work! (5)
Saturday - Babysitting! and its the 10 year anniversary of my fathers death =[ (4)
Sunday - Superbowl Sunday!! though none of my teams are in the bowl, its my last day to eat!!! (3)
Monday - R.I.P. old surgery date!! Start liquid Diet!!! (2)
Tuesday - Continue liquid diet, gotta take a nice nice squeaky clean shower!! and no food or dirnk after midnight(1)
Wednesday - Surgery day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


So hopefully the week will go by quickly since i have so much crap to do!!!

so as my surgeon's office is calling for my admimtting information, they confirm my surgery date with me...February 4th.

my date is February 2nd.

I tell them that and they said that the 4th is in the computer and i'll have to call my scheduling woman.

I call her and she tells me that my surgeon is unavailable on the 2nd and is the 4th okay?
So I'm like, well no one told me. And she said they just found out.

I starting crying as soon as I hung up.

I know its only 2 days but thats 2 extra days being fat and 2 fewer days of recovery before school.

This must be fate though, and I'll just take it and roll with the punches. But I'm not going to be happy about it.