Chasity

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Well over the weekend I had kind of my first wow moment. We had a party for my uncle who turned 50 and at the party just about everyone came up to me and told me how great I look and how proud of me they were and things like that. This is new for me to get compliments like that from them. I dont really see it, I mean in some ways I can see little things but they were all telling me how its not a little change its a big difference. I think when I am down a few more sizes I can go out n buy all new clothes and then maybe I will be able to tell a little more. I still wear my clothes but they are big, just not that big that i need new yet. I feel great, but still having a hard time eating like i should. I need to make myself eat or I can go all day without eating. My immune system seems shot tho, I have another cold, but this one could be allergies I guess. It just stinks tho, I am sick of being sick.. well my next appt in rochester is may 18th then that should be it for a few months. o and I miss bread.. :) I never knew how much I loved bread until now.. I want a peice of toast really bad.. soon enough right..

well until next time..

Chasity

Well today was my appt in Rochester to move on to the next diet phase, and I'm not as excited about it as I was.. I have read on Dr. O'Malleys website that when you enter this phase you will be allowed pasta, and such.. NOPE, you can however have red meat as long as its 90% lean, and on his website it says no red meat so I guess you cant go by what the site says.. bummer to I was looking forward to pasta! but anyways I was weighed and I was supposed to be at 20% of a lose today and I am at 25% so YAY, I thought I was not doing well b/c its a lb here n there but I was told today that is b/c I lost so much the first week and that this is to be expected and I am doing fantastic! soo now I need to find some new recipes and go from there.. just one day at a time I guess.. and only 1 more month till I will be on the lifetime diet phase.. and then I will make an appt for 4 months from then, and that will be the last post op appt for this year, then I will do my once a year appts, and YAY b/c I am so tired of traveling 2hrs up n back for a 10 minute appt. but I feel great, its beautiful out and I am headed to the great outdoors for a walk or something..

oo and did I mention I am supposed to "wean" myself off protein drinks/suppliments, hahahahaha yeah like thats going to be a hard one.. giggles, that I can do!

Until then..

I like to set small goal along the way, and one of my goal so far was to go from a BMI of over 40 (extremely obese) to just obese, and I have done that!! YAY!! now its time for a new goal.. I have also dropped a pant size, and I am getting close to dropping another.. so even tho it seems I have hit a stall with losing the lbs I am still losing something, hehe.. just goes to show why the scales are baaaaaad news..  I must say tho with our weather doing nothing but snow and just plain ol suck it makes me lazy when I should be out and being active, so I have to find ways of motivating myself while being inside, and I still need to find a protein drink I can handle. 

oo yeah and friday is my next dr. appt in rochester, so next diet phase-- o yeah I am looking forward to it.. I have had about all I can take of pureed food.. But I see why (in some ways) Dr. O makes you stay on each diet phase for so long, I dont have such cravings for the naughty food anymore like I did in the begining, so I am not as likely to turn to those foods when I am finally able to eat raw foods n such (in another month). I have been really good at sticking to what my diet guidelines are but not so good on the protein shakes.. 

Until Next time..

WOW, its almost been a month already.. I cant say how much i've lost as of now b/c I havent weighed myself yet.. I have a dr. appt in Olean today so I will be weighed in there n post later, also I will try and get some 1 month pics up. thats my goal is to take pics each month so I can keep a visual on my progress for my down days.. 

My family that hasnt seen me all say WOW look at you you look great and you can def. tell your losing, and I say Hell I better be i cant eat, lol..no, its not as bad as I say, it just sucks from time to time and I get on here to complain about it. most of the time its really not that bad. But I am/was addicted to food so its no different than an alcoholic trying to stop drinking and its def. harder for me than when I quit smoking. But I am getting there, i dont feel so bad about not being able to eat as much as I did, but I find it really hard to make myself eat. 

ok ok i am late, i need to get in the shower n go to olean,... write more later..

I dont think I have ever felt closer to death then while I was sitting on the shitter while dry heaving non stop for what seemed like eternity.. I made myself some yummy SF hot chocolate with skim milk, it says on my little paper from Dr. O'Malley I can have it, so I was like yummy lets try it, and about an hour later my body said-- UMM NO you will not be enjoying this drink. I swore I was dying, poor chris is like what do I do, and i am just like trying to motion for him to just leave me alone. now looking back to have been a fly on the wall it was prlly pretty comical. But there is NOTHING funny when your the one dumping... wow.. frothing out of the mouth like a rabid animal or something and shitting every last brain cell out of your body at the same time. Sorry for such detail but trust me you wanna know this b4 it happens so you know when it happens that your not dying your dumpin.. 


well today is my 3 wks out and i am down 32lbs, soo yay.. I am happy! I hate food right now nothing what so ever looks good after dumping I am afraid to try anything. I always knew I had an addiction to food but never knew how bad.. Its pretty amazing what you learn about yourself as the days go on after surgery. I have little spurts of energy that am enjoying.. but i have also been really sick with a head cold and that usually doesnt kick my butt as bad as it did but I am just getting over having a major surgery so its to be expected I guess.. other than that, April 20th is my next appt and I cant wait to see what other foods I will be allowed to have.. Until next time..

Nothing really different about this week, other than Now I can pick up my baby boy.. and we have been going on walks and such.. only lost 4lbs this week.. better than gaining 4 lbs so I shouldnt complain. just sucks when you lose 22lbs in one week and then the next its 4lbs. I am struggling big time with the protein, that is prolly my reason for the slow down in weight lose.. but I cant find a protein drink I can even as much as tolerate let alone enjoy for the 3 meals out of the day I need them for. this part just plan ol sucks! I am also having food issues still, I want to eat like a "normal" person, its not even that I want the bad foods, I just want to be able to chew something, that would be nice.. this pureed shit is for the birds.. haha.. and then my next diet plan is almost the same just now its called fork tender, and that will be for another month.. so I am looking at 2 more months b4 I can chew something.. ugh! then you have ppl like my step mom who weight 118lbs and want to gain weight.. yeah I feel so bad!-NOT-! she eats cake and pizza and all that grrrrr-- just doesnt seem right.. anyways, thats where I am for this week.. until next time- Chasity!

I went to Rochester on Wed. had my staples taken out, this was my big fear I was really scared that would hurt.. I didnt feel anything at all.. not even the pinch they say you might feel! SO I am proud to say I am -22lbs in 1 week!!!!!! That made me smile!

Now as far as Protein drinks.. YUCK YUCK YUCK thats the hell of it all if you ask me.. I tried those shot thingys everyone seems to love, YUCK>>>made me gag! -I havent been able to find a protein I can even come close to tolerating yet.. But I have some samples coming in so hopefully I will find atleat one I can handle.

But I can now eat mashed potatos some cottage cheese, and applesauce ahh taste sooo good.. but I am sure b4 the end of the month I will be sick of it.  O well.. 

But things are doing really good here.. hope all is well with you..

take care-Chasity

Not feeling so chipper right now.. I am sooo sick of jello, and pudding and those damn slim fast drinks, I can not wait to be able to open my options a bit and try some real food for a change.. I get grossed out just looking at the pudding.. DH bought me some low sodium V8 today, and lets just say that didnt settle, at all. Things have been going soo well until now so I really cant complain, but ugh, this sucks! I tried the unflavored unjury, I can still taste it, and then the chicken broth unjury, I about yacked all over that was nasty.. but my mom bought those shot things that are supposed to taste like jello.. she called today to tell me they were in and said that she was thinking they woulod be small being they are only 3 oz. but it looks like a umm.. use your imagination.. or maybe they are small and she is used to NEVER MIND, haha I shouldnt go there!! BUt there is my little vent to get my mind off how bad this part of the eating sucks! -- not that I am hungry, but so sick of this wanna be food, I want the real thing :(


Until next time.. 

Chasity

Just wanted to write a quick note to say Thank You to everyone who wrote n keep me in their thoughts n prayers, means so much!! thank you!!
 

 I am home and doing well, I couldnt ask to be any better than what I am!!! 

Pain Meds are kicking in so I am headed to bed, Just wanted to say Thank You!!

~~Hugs~~
Chasity

 Today I had to go to Rochester for my Pre-Op appt. everything went fine. I REALLY enjoyed the one lady that came in, she talked to me about my anxiety and things like that -she was just a really nice person..    Ihad to have another EKG and a chest X-ray but it was quick so no biggie.. I am more excited than nervous now, I just cant wait until I am home and settled in.. but ya know what sucks-- I am getting a sore throat...! lord help me not to get sick!!



OOOO and did I mention, I have to take my tongue ring out.. atleat for the day of surgery but they say our mouth is a dirty place and with the ring in it only makes room for the "dirty" to hid n hang out, opening up a room to bring on a start of infection, sooooooooooo they suggested I not put it back in until I am healed and well- it will have closed by then, soo I took a long look in the mirror and said my good byes, and I will be taking it out for good.. I am a mommy and it is time to grow up, but this (aside from my tattoos) is the only little part of my wild years I am still holding onto... :( so its kinda sad. not to mention my hubby really likes it! HAHAHA-- T.M.I for ya?!?