The quest to Onderland

Oct 16, 2010

 For the most part my journey's been a good one.  I've obeyed my band rules about 85% of the time and the weight has indeed come off.  I currently have great restriction and bandzilla doesn't do bread, rice or pasta.  I may try it on occasion, but the result is always the same...it hurts and I think..DUH..you knew this! And then I stay away for another month or so.  

I have been in the 204-207 range now for a couple of weeks.  Now normally that would be a bit frustrating but not terribly so as I know sooner or later the weight will come off.  Lately tho it's been pissing me off..because I really want SO bad to be under 200.  A set of numbers I saw briefly from 6/89 to 1/91 and never again.  I got down to 207 for my wedding in 8/91 and still couldn't get past those last 7 friggin lbs.  So um, yeah it's kinda like "a thing " to me.  

Well it just isn't happening..right now.  What is happening is my body is morphing into another being.  I have bones and muscle where there were none before.  Last night I scratched my leg and felt "something" ..low and behold it was a muscle appearing out of the fat, that was no longer there.  WOW, who knew?  I have cheekbones and collarbones and hipbones.  I have gone down a size in jean and my XL scrubs are now baggy...I bought some L and they fit?!  

I guess My body will decide when it wants to officially drop the number.  In the meantime I'll just keep on keeping on and know one morning soon I WILL be on the other side of Onderland. 

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