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Mar 04, 2009

Okay, so the last time I wrote was right before I left for my walk to the hospital. Well I left and it was raining, but it didn't  matter because with my jacket on I sweat like a swine. So, I walk my 1.2 miles to the hospital all jolly and proud of myself (even though it felt like my feet were going to detach themselves from my ankles and run off giving me the finger). I get there all out of winded and wet to check in. The lady says, "Oh hi, hon. You can't check in until 12:45"... And I'm thinking... okay... it's 12:40, but whatever... Then she says, "Yeah, that's 12:45 tomorrow." WHAT?? I was totally upset. It wasn't because I walked all the way there- but I didn't have someone to watch my baby the next day!! What the heck was I going to do?? So of course I don't want to seem like the fatso I am to the receptionist (I had told her that I walked there- I didn't want her to think I couldn't get home that way) So I had her call one of my friends that I knew would probably be home. Of course, she was not. >:( So off I go on the way home. I was almost crying by the time I got there. I pondered making an appointment with a podiatrist that night. I have red spots on my soles that burned and itched SOOO bad I thought I wouldn't be able to fall asleep. Anyway, that was that day.

Tuesday came and my husband got home early (PRAISE GOD!!) at 12:30 and I had to be there at one. PERFECT. So I got all my stuff and went to the class. I was so interested in everything that was being said that I didn't even notice the first two hours go by. There was a dietician who wasn't very exicted that I was asking so many questions- but I think I have every right to ask away. Then it hit me. All of a sudden, it hit my like a brick wall I didn't see coming. I'm having surgery. I'm altering my anatomy. Then I found out that I was NOT doing my pre-op diet correctly.

So the day I had my meltdown I had read in the "bariatric bible" the sample menu that had 4 oz of protein, 4oz of veggies, and 4 oz of fruit a day. It was kind of confusing anyway, so while I went and had a clamdown shower, Ted called the doctors office to clarify that. The lady who he talked to (a receptionist) said, "Oh no, that's not right! At each MEAL she can have 4oz veggies and 4oz protein." That made me feel SO much better. So that's what I've been doing since February 23rd.

I found out last night that is NOT correct. Not only was I sad that I might have jeopardized getting my surgery, but.... How could I really survive off 4oz of protein and 4oz of veggies and 4oz of fruit a day?? So I threw a full on tantrum. It's funny now, but it wasn't last night. I kept thinking that I was just going to continue doing what I was doing and let the chips fall where they may. But after about two hours of this nonsense, I straightened up and realized I was being a bit childish. If I want to change my health and my body for the better, I have to do what I have to do, right? Exactly.

So I made a promise to myself that today I was just going to have to be hungry. Too bad, so sad. I can do that for a week. So this morning I made a protein shake. I put 4oz of milk, 4oz of banana, orange crystal light, and my unflavored protein powder. It was actually pretty good! So that kept me full for HOURS. I did NOT expect that. We had to go grocery shopping and get more low carb Slim Fasts at Walmart, so I didn't have one of those for lunch like I was supposed to. But I made turkey burgers for dinner and had four ounces of that with a bit of light mayo. So then my husband actually got to eat, too. :) So after that I had my Little Green Giant pack of veggies, and now I'm thinking that a SF popsicle will hit the spot for desert. Or, I have sugar free jello, too. Today was a SUCCESS!!! I DID IT!!

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