Minor Emotional Setback

May 11, 2010

Well, I attended my first Zumba class tonight. Right at the beginning the teacher pointed right at me and asked "have you done Zumba before?" I felt as if I had been kicked in the teeth. Memories of being back in school and always being the last kid picked for teams, came rushing back to me. Not one other person in this room knew that I have lost almost 50 lbs since the first of this year. None of these young, fit ladies know how hard I have worked to get where I am, or how good I was feeling to be there, before that embarressing moment. My first thought was to walk out, but I would not give them the satisfaction. So, I stuck it out, completed the entire hour of class, and cried all the way home. It was fun, and I will probably continue to go each week,  because it is good for me. But it was still an emotional evening for me that felt like failure, instead of the motivational lift that I was looking for. Hopefully next week will go better.  

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