January 4, 2012 ~ 204

Jan 03, 2013

6 pounds from being what I was the day I had lap band surgery in February 2008.  :(  ~  No ones fault but my own.   Do I care??   I don't really know anymore.  It is something that consumes my mind, but I must want to eat more than I want to be healthier or I would not continue to eat the things that I know are against me.   Why can't decisions be a one time for a life time thing.   We would all choose to be a healthy weight and then move on to other things. 

The older I get the more comfortable I am as me ~  no matter the hairs that keep turning up gray or the size of my body or the skin that is aging.   I find I am enjoying my own company more and more and I worry less about what others think or say.  However, I know I need to be healthier and I know I should be eating better and getting more exercise because I need to be here for my children as long as I can.  With that being said, I will hopefully start making small changes in my life to move a little more and eat a little less sugar.  Baby steps....baby Steps.... baby steps..... and hopefully little changes will eventually add up to big changes on the scales.   

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