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It seems that I didn't really break it after all. I did get to 238 but that's where I've stalled. I haven't dipped below that at all. Sooooo....I had a dream about re-committing to doing things right. So as of yesterday I'm back to under 800 calories and making sure to get my protein in first. It sounds so easy on paper. But if it was that easy then I guess I wouldn't have had to have surgery in the first place. I want to lose 16 pounds in the next months. And if I can't lose all 16 then I want to be damn close! On the plus side, thanks to my exercise routine (which has really become a habit now) I really do feel fabulous!

I think I can safely say that I broke another two week long stall over the last few days. I was weighing in at 240 - 242 for the last two weeks and over the last three days I've consistently come in under 240. I seem to be back to losing a pound a day again. I hope. I'm working hard for that pound! I'm trying to eat just around 800 calories a day while getting in above 60 grams of protein and under 50 grams of carbs. I've tried to eat less carbs but I end up feeling sick. Also it drastically affects my bowel movements which really upsets my tummy, leaving me gassy and worse. I don't really see any way to eat less carbs and make it work. 
Today I got some house things done that have been bothering me. The boys got the fascia on the house painted too which makes me happy! I'm going to attempt to keep up the momentum in getting things done. One of the best side effects of keeping an exercise routine is the increased energy I have. I feel like I was hibernating and I'm finally awake!

I've gotten past another sick to my stomach faze apparently. I'm eating a little more, but still not doing much meat. I think that in the end I'll probably end up being a vegetarian. I'm not a huge meat lover anyway and feeling sick every time I eat it is certainly making me think that I can live without it! I've cheated a bit, tho. I've added peanuts to my diet because they're delicious and I can digest them. And I've had a few bites of milk chocolate, too. :O I was getting hungry enough to want to eat nearly anything but I couldn't keep it down. Now that I've settled my stomach a bit I know that I can get right back on track. 
I've still been doing my walking workout every day so I feel good about that. I do at least 2 miles or 30 minutes and most days I do more. I NEVER skip a day. 
I also added an anti gas medication to my nightly ritual and have tried to take my probiotics. One of the problems I'm having is in the timing of all of the medications and supplements. Many of them can't be taken together, some of them have to be taken with food, with some of them there's a waiting time after eating or after taking a different vitamin or supplement - I tell ya, it gets confusing!

For the last week or so I've been really fighting feeling sick all of the time. I'm suffering from gas and bloating, feeling very hungry (because eating makes me feel worse) and also feeling over full. I talked to my PA about it but until I can go in to see them I don't think anything will change. She renewed my prescription for Prevacid and I'll try taking it regularly again. I'm beginning to think that I might have a lactose intolerance problem. I never have before, or at least I wasn't aware of it, but my mom suffered with it and I know that several other members of our family have issues with milk and dairy. I've been ingesting mostly protein shakes to get my protein, and hell, to survive because eating hurts still, and I wonder if I haven't overdone it? Between the dairy to mix it with and then the whey, I wonder if I just can't digest well? I'm going to get something for lactose intolerance - probably Digestive Advantage Probiotic and see what that does. I haven't been sleeping because of it and today I had to call in to work because I felt so lousy. 
I also had a thought that maybe adding in a few carbs was doing me in. Unfortunately, they're filling, easy to keep down (I don't get sick with many of them) and they're tasty. I'm unable to eat most meats and of course I can't eat any raw fruits or vegetables so I'm running blind on what to eat! I need to see the nutritionist but I don't think she understands the frustration. But I'll make an appointment. 
On the other hand I'm down to 242 lbs, which means I've officially lost 100 lbs! And I'm only 5 months out as of tomorrow. My butt is the smallest it's been in many, many years, my waist is showing improvement and outside of this sick feeling I'm going through, I've noticed that my stamina and endurance is MUCH better. I can climb stairs so much easier and I never hesitate to park far from entrances. 
I feel a bit at a loss about feeling so sick right now though. I'm many miles from the doctor's office and I have to work most weekdays. I'll try what I can for myself first and then see what I need to do. I feel that not having a gall bladder makes the situation worse. I'll just do my best to get through it and solve it.

For the last two weeks I've been fighting a plateau. And this morning I finally broke 260! To be fair the plateau wasn't at 260, but THE 260's. I wanted to be at 250 by the end of next week for my trip to see my daughters and their families. Obviously that isn't going to happen but at least I'm in the ballpark. I feel like I passed a major hurdle even though it's just one of many. 

Last Thursday I had finally had enough! I'm now at three months post op and my hair has been falling out a bit. Not a lot, but enough to irritate me. So I went to the salon and told the girl to chop it off! I've got a new (very short!) pixie style and I love it! The funny part is how other people are responding to me. The people I work with have noticed how much weight I've lost but now they've lost their minds over my new hair style! I've been told many times over how much thinner I look and I think it's pretty true. It's been a lot of fun watching them freak out. What on Earth will I do to ever top this??

So...intro...

I'm 54, widowed, live in the Colorado Rockies. I've been severely overweight since about 2002. Prior to that I had lost 135  lbs. after my kids were born and kept it off for about 15 years. Then I met the man that would become my husband and he made me happy! I didn't have to feel like I was trying so hard anymore. 

My second husband was older than me and also extremely overweight. He topped the scale at about 415 and at 5'5" he was a few inches shorter than me. He was not the kind of man I typically dated, but then again I hadn't been happy with those men! He swept me off my feet and I slowly grew to love him. 

My second marriage was very different from my first. We really enjoyed each other! And we did things, lots of things. We traveled, we ate. We went out, we ate. We stayed in. And we ate. He loved good food and fine restaurants and he loved to spoil me. 

Unfortunately, my husband died from congenital heart failure at the young age of 57. That was five years ago. 

I realized that I wasn't exempt from heartache or health problems shortly after his passing. 

That's the beginning of my story...

 Bought a pair of jeans (on Ebay) in the smallest size that I've worn in over a decade - a size 22. Got them, put them on and they fit beautifully! Took them off and read the tags - SIZE 20! They sent the wrong size and I'm not even mad.