dragonfly3
Time is flying by.....
Nov 14, 2009
So, it seems like it was just yesterday when I got the call my surgery was approved, it's been 1 1/2 weeks already! The time seems to be flying by and now I am hit with the dilemma that I may not get everything done before the 30th. On top of that, I just realized I have my 1/2 day appt on Monday and will start the 2 week pre-op diet. So, now my mind is racing and thinking of all the foods I have ever eaten and the foods I have never tried (and why would I even care about the foods I have not wanted to try to this point in my life???...exactly)!! Well, to be honest it has been going on for over a month and I am exhausted! I was shocked when i went for my surgeon's appt on Oct 14th and i had actually lost 5 lbs! I thought I was going to have gained!!! I guess it really is the addiction. I just feel that if I can get the "taste" taken care of then I will be fine. I am cool with the possibility of not being able to eat certain things after the surgery (obviously this is how i got myself into this mess to begin with...one bite at a time, over and over...) but I just can't stop thinking about food! I am proud of myself for not going overboard and eating everything in sight though. I have made an effort to at least try some of my favorites and it seems to work, after a few bites, I am fine. I hope after Monday I can be just as strong because I won't be able to eat any of those things. Goal for this weekend is to go through my pantry, cupboards, and deepfreeze and take out everything my daughter (19y/o) won't eat since after Monday, it will be at least a month or better before I will even be able to think of real food. Then I am suprising my older daughter with everything!! I hope she hasn't gone grocery shopping yet!!! I have heard (and hope it's true for me) that I won't even want to look, see, or think of food afterwards. Will be loving that time!!!I am concerned with the fact that I will be going thru this right in the midst of the 2 biggest FOOD HOLIDAYS of the year! My house tends to be the one where family congregates and I usually make the holiday dinners (call it mother's intuition, but my mom actually called and said she would like to have Thanksgiving at her house this year prior to me telling her of my surgery plans!! I said "works for me!"). I love this time of visiting and celebrating however there tends to be food every where you look!! I am also a big baker at Christmas so I have already let friends and family know that for this year, not to expect anything from my kitchen and in years to come things may be much different (hopefully healthier) . I have already been organizing my craft stuff and will use my energy in that direction this holiday season instead of food oriented things.
Well, will write after my appt on monday! I pray it goes well. So far this process has been very smooth. I tend to think that means I am supposed to be on this journey, that I have made the right choice and the universe is working to help me get to my goal.
