2 days to go!!!

Nov 28, 2009

Well, I thought that it was going to feel like forever until my surgery but the time has flown on by so quickly!!  I only have 2 days to go until I am on the other side and starting my new life!  I cannot wait to meet the new me!  I feel like the past week I almost feel like I have been going thru my "nesting" time (like an expectant mother) getting the house ready, cleaning, rearranging, and organizing.  I figure the more I get done now, the less I will feel like overdoing it after I get home.  On the agenda for today is hopfully getting the Christmas tree up and getting tires on the car. Then I think I am ready.

I am tickled that my youngest daughter has embraced the idea of losing some weight too.  Thankfully she doesn't have as much as me to lose.  She is going to be my workout partner once I am able to start exercising after surgery!  This is going to be such a wonderful journey for the both of us.  My older daughter is blessed with her father's "skinny genes" and has always been able to maintain a fairly normal weight, my younger daughter has struggled through her teen years overweight.  although, she hasn't let it keep her down, she still participated in marching band and other activities in school.  My hope is that she will be able to gain a healthier lifestyle and learn how to maintain a healthier weight without surgery.  She is still young (19) and able to focus on herself!! 

As far as the surgery goes, I am getting a little nervous about the "unknown" part.  Not having had this before.  I have had a laproscopic surgery before and it went exceptionally well, even the recovery time wasn't bad so i hope i will have the same or better experience this time as well.  I am concerned about the pain but a friend told me that it isn't too bad.  I just hope I am not a wimp. 

I have so many emotions right now.  ANGER at letting myself get like this.  SADNESS at losing the comfort and protection I have known by being overweight (I know that sounds weird, but being overweight does offer it's own security blanket at times). GRIEF at losing my dear friend food.  ANTICIPATION at meeting the new and improved me!  EXCITEMENT at this journey I am about to begin!!  HAPPINESS at having hope to free myself from this binding life of obesity!  I am looking forward to many opportunities of being able to live my life to the fullest every single day!  Doing amazing activities with my family and friends, letting NOTHING HOLD ME BACK!!!  I have allowed myself to be put on the backburner of life for way too long and I am so ready to jump to the front!  

Here's to all the dancing, running with my granddaughter, riding a bike uphill, swimming, softball, rollerblading thru the park, snowball fights, snowfort building, rollercoaster riding, and all the other great activities that I will be doing soon!!!!

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