USMC Ball is done and now what?

Nov 11, 2008

Well my hubby's ball is over. I had a blast as you can see from my previous post. Now I'm asking myself what next? What do I have to look forward to so that I have a mini goal on my way to my ultimate goal. Well my birthday is coming up. 38 days from today to be exact. My birthday isn't really a major event for me since it's so close to Christmas but this one in particular I'm going to sort of make a fuss about. That's right people I'm turning...pause for dramatics *GULP*...30! That's right I said it I'm turining 30. Majority of the people I know have either past 30 or have a few years before they are even close to it. Nobody understands my pain except those in the same boat as me. All my older friends tell me that I'll love my 30s but I'm not looking at it the same way. I remember when my mother turned 30 and I used to mess with her about it. Now I'm turning 30 and it's not a happy time because to me 30 means I'm getting older and I want to be young as long as I can. I know that you are as young as you feel but hey some days I can feel like I'm in my 70s. Maybe I'll feel better about it when I get there but I just feel like I'm on a ledge and I see another ledge and another ledge all aging me 10 yrs until I reach the bottom which is death. It's a morbid way to look at life but that's what going through my mind. Either way I will make my 30s a fun time since my 20s sucked. In my 20s I was morbidly obese and miserable. In my 30s I'll be a normal weight and happy.

I can't stop it from happening so I'll have to accept it and face whatever challenges it brings. COME ON 30s BRING IT ON! I'M STRONGER THAN I LOOK!

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