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This journey....at times not so good and other times wonderful.  I thank God for the second chance at living better quality life. I don't want to take this opportunity for granted this time.  So much has happened since my last post. Again, I thank God for the good and the bad.  I didn't do well with taking my vitamins. Now I'm iron deficient and am getting ready to have an iron transfusion, my vitamin B12 and D are basically non existent. But I'm starting from today, gonna get some act right. My BFF reminded me that people that have been successful on this journey are the ones that stay in close contact with our OH family. So, I'm back on tract, back to posting, back to checking up on everybody.  Hang in there guys, God has not brought us this far to turn his back on us now! BTW, I'm getting hitched! LOL

Hey OH Family!
We've been on this long road together and my journey has been well worth its trials and tribulations. I am still enjoying my progress, I'm hoping for about 30 more pound loss even though most of my friends and family says that will be too much. I must admit I'm nervous, nervous about ever being that size again. I must make a conscious effort on a daily basis about my life choices. I never want to feel as bad about myself again like I did when I was 371 pounds. So OH friends if you have some of those same kind of feelings I say to you hang in there, be encouraged and continue to trust yourself. That advice I am first partaker of.

Hello OH family.  I know it has been ages since my last blog, but I wanted to write a little note to let you know that I am doing well and also to say HELLO to my OH family.  A lot has changed since I last blogged most of it for the good.  My self image has improved so much over these last few months.  I exercise with Zumba dance classes regularly and have seen such positive results.  I love looking at my body now and seeing how I am starting to tone up.  The weight loss has slowed some but I am still seeing losses every week. Heck I've lost 140lbs if I never lose another pound God has still done an amazing job! but for my personal goal I still have to get under 200lbs and I'll be satisfied. Gotta keep pushing.

Personally I am doing well. I am finally allowing myself to fall in love and to be loved. For me that is such an accomplishment. For years I didn't think I was worthy of being loved by any man. Not gonna say to much about my relationship but I will say if it doesn't work out I'll be ready to give it a go again!

My first year surgical anniversary is vastly approaching and I want to take this time to thank all of you for your unwavering kindness and support.

It's been a looong time since I've written a blog, but I wanted to wish everyone a blessed Christmas and a prosperous New Year.  God has truly blessed us all, he's allowed us to wake up and see another day. That in itself is the best Christmas gift we could receive. When I look back over this amazing year I am ever so grateful knowing how God has kept me.  Waking up from surgery I couldn't have imagined the day when I would appreciate all the pain that I had gone through.  Well that day is today. As I look back over this year, I might not have everything I thought I wanted or should have, but I am ever appreciative of life. And not just any life, one that is filled with quality thanks to this weight loss journey.  Be encouraged everyone and continue to thank God for his many blessings.  Live, life is too short to focus on the things you don't have.

After waking up from surgery I could not imagine how I would be feeling today, my sixth month surgiversary. GOD is GREAT! I don't obsess about the number on the scales or what size clothes I wear ( I leave that for the spectators). But what I do know is that I feel so gosh dog good. My goals have changed from immediate weight loss, to sustained weight loss because I cannot go back to the way I was before. Surgery came at the right time, I thought about having it years ago but I realize that this is the time God had ordained for me to have surgery.  Friends, we gotta keep working hard. We have gone through too much to get to where we are to even think about going back. Keep up your healthy habits, keep sharing with one another because we have strength amongst ourselves.  6 months....wow!

I know I have been promising new pictures (Ms Cakes ) for  a while now. It's just that I stopped taking pictures a long time ago. The heavier I became the more I avoided the camera. I didn't want to face myself. Even now those demons still haunt me when it comes to the camera. I am going to post some new pics. Maybe this weekend I can get my 14 year old to snap some shots without grossing him completely out. As far as my weight loss so far it has been 76 pounds. I really want to continue losing 20lbs per month but  I know that is not very realistic. I'm just happy that I have left the 300's never to return again!
I went to the amusement park with my son the other week. And even though I didn't get on any rides I had a big kool-aid smile on my face knowing that I could if I wanted to. I walked around with those teenagers for 8 hours and still had energy!

Wow, I can't believe so much time has past since my last post. Everything has been going well thus far. I've had some challenges with learning what my new stomach likes and dislikes but I know that goes along with the territory.  I've lost a fair amount of weight, have even gone down a few dress sizes. But at this stage I still see the work that needs to be done and not the accomplishments made.  (I'll have to work on that). God is good. That's all I can think of when I think of how He's blessed me so far. I've heard so many horror stories and gotten enough negative opinions before surgery that I can stand and say to all the nay-sayers that God is good and He is faithful to His word.  I miss my OH family, I promise to post some pics soon.

For a long time I avoided getting on a scale because I didn't want those numbers to chastise me.  I knew I was gaining weight but if I avoided the scales I didn't have to face what I knew to be true. The point of all this is about a week and a half ago I got on the scale.....then I got off....then I got back on. I called my dearest friend because I didn't want to believe the results.  She said believe it girl.  God is so good.  I weigh less now then I ever have in my adult life.  In times past when I would diet it wouldn't be long before I started cheating as a treat for looking so good.  Now it is a driving tool to continue my success.  Thank you Lord for giving doctors the knowledge to help people that could not help or control themselves.  RNY ROCKS!

 Going on 3 months since my surgery and things are going OK.  I still believe they give me the Diva pouch 'cause she is so picky! Time is flying by. I've just decided to push forward and do what I need to do to make the journey a healthy success.
It is a time for new beginnings for me and for the first time in a long time I'm starting to feel good about Tracey again. Getting some of my spunk back.  Trying on clothes is awesome.  I've dropped two dress sizes.  It feels good getting that extra person off my back, I can't wait to get the rest of the people off that have hitched a ride over these past few years.  Pictures will be coming soon, trying to make sure my sexiness comes across in them.

It's kind of hard to get a handle on that ticker thing but as of today I lost 24lbs since surgery and 6lbs during the week prior to surgery.  That gives me a total weight loss of 30lbs, and I feel pretty dag-on good about it.  I first I set the ticker for kilograms because let's just face it, I could tolerate seeing those numbers better in kilograms than I could pounds.  Well, I'm not ashamed anymore I am focused.  I got scolded for not drinking enough and getting enough protein so I'm refocusing because I want my weight loss to be healthy.  I feel better already and I know this is just the beginning.