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Hallelujah, surgery is done! I thank God for blessing me and my recovery.  Ladies you forgot to tell me that I was going to feel like a truck had drove over my stomach! It was painful to say the least, but I am thankful to Dr Pupkova and all the staff at the Barix Clinic.  they took wonderful care of me and my family.  I'm glad it's over now I am ready to get to that rewarding part you guys talk about.  Right now I'm a little frustrated.  Seems they gave me the DIVA pouch.  Very picky ! Continue to keep me in your prayers, I am also praying for you.

Wow.  Time sure does not stand still. 3 more days to go.  I'd be lying if I said I didn't question my decision to have surgery.  But the weight I have on now will eventually kill me.  Right now I need more than a diet if I'm going to be around to see my son grow up.  Thanks be to God that every time I go through this little debate in my Head, He always reassures me.  Today He (God) ministered me through song.  Those of you that are feeling some of the same emotions as me right now let me share this song with you:
It's a new season, it's a new day
A fresh anointing is flowing my way
It's a season of power and prosperity
It's a new season and it's coming to me

Yes, God does allow us to have new beginnings.  Stay encouraged my friends.

P.S. I'm in need of an angel if anyone is interested in keeping up with my progress.

So I'm less than two weeks from surgery and I feel horrible.  I went for pre-admission testing on Wednesday and found that my blood pressure was out of control, my iron level is horribly low and that I have tonsillitis.  Now that  I look back I realize  that I have had some signs and symptoms of a few of these problems.  Up until now I have been fairly healthy but now it looks like the added weight is trying to catch up with me.  Surgery will be done in just the nick of time.  I feel really sick today.  Gonna take the medications they gave me and pray for some healing and relief.  One thing for sure, I know and Believe that God is able to do above all that I can ask or think!

Wow time sure does fly.... Two weeks got here really fast. Pre-admission testing is on Wednesday and I must admit I'm a little nervous and alot scared.  These feelings I know are normal but you have to be careful when sharing these feelings with people that are not sensitive to this process.  They would take this nervousness and use it to say that maybe I shouldn't go through with the surgery.  However, I know that this is a normal response and I choose to just share it with my understanding OH community.  Thank you guys for all the kind words and understanding.

I'm not a real blogger but I feel it is important to chronologize this life changing event.  I remember in January getting the March 29th date and thinking how far away that must be.  Not! February has come and not it is almost gone.  REality check....March is around the corner.  I feel like there is something more I should be doing???  Oh well, just gonna hang in there for now.

Is it February already? It will soon be Christmas again, LOL. Well as February quickly enters I know it will quickly end and that will put me much closer to my surgery date.  I am still excited and at times nervous.  (Nervous about what to expect not nervous about my decision).  Everything has been submitted to my employer (check), insurance approved (check), select family and friends aware (check) .  I'm not one that  usually writes or journals but I feel that this is so special that I want to have something I can look back on. 

Weight........At some point I let it get away from me. I don't quite remember when that was, but my mom calls attention to a period when my ex and I were always dinning out and I stopped watching my weight, I was happy then.  At some point I began to notice that my back hurt more frequently, my legs were swelling up horribly after a 12 hour shift, and I always wanted to keep my body covered when I was in the presence of the person I was dating.  I have always toyed with the idea of having WLS, but as an only child I respected my mother out right refusal to even discuss or entertain the idea (yes I am grown, with a career and have a child of my own LOL).  SO I tried diets, LA Weight Loss, Jenny Craig and yes I was successful. I lost 40-50 pounds on both programs. Problem was I would Find the 40-50 pounds I had lost and add to it another 10-20 pounds.
Now I'm embarrassed at how much I weigh.  It is unbelievable.  I have always been heavy, but this is so wrong! As a nurse how can I tell my patient they have live a healthy lifestyle when I am morbidly (I hate that word) obese?  I have a wonderful friend that decided that it was time for her to have WLS. I told her if she went through with it, I would too.  Even if she doesn't I'm still having the surgery.  Our dates are 3/29 and 3/30! I figured we eat out and gained weight together, why can't we loose weight together!
After reading some of the battles other people have been having with their insurance companies, I thank God for my coverage.  I only had to have a psychological evaluation to be approved for the procedure.  My co-pays were $5.00 for the psych eval and $5.00 for pr-admission testing.  Praise God! Now all I have to do is buy vitamins but if I get a letter from the MD stating that they are necessary to maintain my health I can use the flexible medical spending account I have set up through my employer to cover that.  People God is awesome
I am looking forward to this journey.  I am usually a quiet person, I don't usually open myself up to strangers like this but this site has made me feel very comfortable with who I am and the choices I have made.

3/29/10. That's the day I'll start my new healthy life. I'm excited, nervous along with a bunch of other feelings that I can't quite express right now.  With God's help I know everything will be fine!