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193 lbs

Another 2 lbs down this week to 197lbs and no longer in the obese bracket.  It'll take 169.9 lbs until I'm at a healthy weight with a goal of 150-160.  I need to schedule my 6 month post op and see what goal weight Dr. Schram is thinking.

I knew if I crabbed about it enough, I'd get it to go under 200...I'm offically 199 today..and it feels delicious.

I've lost 1 lb in the past 6 weeks, so yes I'm considering that a major plateau considering I just slid into 6 months post op.  On the plus side, I can wear some 16's.  From 270 to 201 at the moment, teetering just above 200 is somewhat FRUSTRATING, but severly beats the hell out of 270.

I'm doing pretty well getting my protein in daily, I just really need to concentrate on more water..and knock it off with so much coffee.

Feeling lonely alot, residual feelings that I covered up with food for the past 10 years no doubt.  I really don't want to medicate, but not sure how much darker I can go and still function as a decent parent.  I also feel myself wanting to catch a glimpse of anyone looking at me, I've been an invisible fat woman for so long...hoping for validation that I look ok now? It doesn't happen, so still feeling fat & ugly.  Married-celibate (for over a year! hubs has diabetes problems), and climbing the walls in that reguard.  

I'm now down a little over 60 lbs.  Bought size 18 jeans last night (not bad considering I started in 24's 4 months ago), 16's will hopefully be soon as the 18's aren't tight at all.  I'd probably be in a 14 if it weren't for the flab around the middle that just won't go.  Still very happy with my decision to change my life with the surgery.

Yup, 44...gone.

I seem to be doing ok with the food, and the nausea has disapated.  I'm having a harder time deeling with emotions that I used to bury with food.  

Nerves are ok, probably because I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO YET!! :)  I'm spending the day doing laundry and getting ready for the next week.  The kids will be staying with my Dad & Stepmom, so there's packing to do for them too.

I know I haven't lost any lb's between PAT's and my upcoming surgery, but hopefully I haven't gained anything either.

Foodwise I believe I'm as prepared as I can be.  Lots of juices, broths, protein powders, jello, etc. in the pantry.  


Well..this is it until the surgery is over.

I got the call today, surgery is approved.  RNY surgery will be Oct. 26, pre-op visit will be Tues Oct. 12.

As of yesterday, I've finished my task list of things to do before approval of my insurance company BCBS of Michigan.  I faxed in my letter of recommendation from my PCP as well as my failed attempts at dieting over the past 4 years.  I also got a phone call from the psychologist who did my psych eval, she's approving me and is faxing in her report today.  So, it's now out of my hands and will have me waiting for a response. 

At 270 lbs, it's been a miserably hot summer.  My lack of energy and inability to not overheat has consumed every ounce of energy, making my job just about all I can handle.  

I'm hoping for the RNY surgery.