Let's see. I'm a 36 year old woman that have always been a size 9-10 up until age 32. Then one day, I noticed...OMG, I'm ... (to put it bluntly)...FAT! That began when my marriage was on the rocks, I was losing something that was very important to me, -MY FAMILY... among other things, I began working for a company that brought on "TONS" of stress, -that didn't help (not at all). Before I knew it, in a nutshell...I had reached an all time high, 244 lbs. I couldn't believe it...I couldn't believe it. Throughout the years of gaining, I would diet and exercise, lose 5-10 lbs and guess what...within weeks, I'd gain it all back "THEN SOME". I am going through an emotional roller coaster, I'd get depressed, then I'd be happy... then depressed...then start the routine again. I KNOW that I don't over-eat, I just eat the wrong things "without" being active. I can't keep going through this.
So, someone I know had the surgery. He looks great! This once depressed and unhappy young man is now an energetic trojan of good health. And I miss that about myself...so that's when I decided to check into the GBS.
I did. But I was afraid. I read about all of these horrible things, some people had to have their gallbladder removed...their hair was thinning...YIKES!! No thanks I said. So, I cancelled my appt. and told the Dr's Office to forget it.
I have several close friends with Diabetes, (people are dying from it...) and at the rate I'm going. I need to really make a change before I get it. Some people tell me that I don't really need it. But the people that are saying this are large women, compared to them..perhaps not. But people that know me; those that knew of me playing tennis, running, climbing mountains... are wondering...DAGGG, How'd you do that? It's just completely unhealthy "FOR ME" ... backpain...labored breathing, --it's too much.
I couldn't stop thinking about it thou...weeks went by. Then one day the Dr's Office called me and said that they still have my paper work, etc. So, "I DECIDED" .. just do it! JUST DO IT!
I waited for my letter of approval. I now have that. I'm going to get my Pych/Nutrion Eval within the next week or so and then ... I'll be ready to schedule my surgery. I'm a little scared but ... I have faith that God will see me through it without complications, without losing body parts and without (Oh, GOD-I HOPE AND PRAY) losing my hair. (I'll keep you posted. AND I'll need all of the support I can get on this so please, please, please...send replies of encouragement). Thx
~My Journal~
Sept. 5th, 2007 - Time is ticking. Am I nervous? Hellsyea!! I've been reading the memorials...(I DON'T RECOMMEND IT), it freaked me out. But the good part is that "most" of those deaths took place years ago, surely technology and protocol has improved. For something as serious as this, I'm ready and checking resources on everything. Keep me in your prayers all. More later. GBG.
Sept. 12th, 2007 - I just spoke to our freind Matthewr07. He says he's doing great! He's a little sore but he say he's able to walk around now and will post later with updates. Good for him....thank God all went well. In two weeks, it'll be my turn and the more I learn, the more I know that I'm doing the right thing "FOR ME". More later... GBG.
Sept. 19th, 2007 - Wow! Eight days away. I've been so busy working (2) jobs that I haven't had a chance to really work out. "I KNOW" that I'm going to pay for it later...I just know it. So, I've made it my "TOP" prority for the next 7 days! More later... GBG.
Sept. 24th, 2007 - Uh-Oh, Uh-Ohhhh guys. Time "IS" running out....Just a few more days and I am now...nervous. Darn it!
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Weight Progress Chart
Date Wt. Date Wt. Date Wt. Date Wt.
2007-08-28
Tuesday240
2007-09-21
Friday
2007-10-15
Monday
2007-11-08
Thursday
2007-08-29
Wednesday
2007-09-22
Saturday
2007-10-16
Tuesday
2007-11-09
Friday
2007-08-30
Thursday
2007-09-23
Sunday 242
2007-10-17
Wednesday
2007-11-10
Saturday
2007-08-31
Friday
2007-09-24
Monday TICK-TOCK
2007-10-18
Thursday
2007-11-11
Sunday
2007-09-01
Saturday
2007-09-25
Tuesday TICK-TOCK
2392007-10-19
Friday
2007-11-12
Monday
2007-09-02
Sunday
2007-09-26
Wednesday Pre-Op
2007-10-20
Saturday
2007-11-13
Tuesday
2007-09-03
Monday
2007-09-27
ThursdayTHE BIG DAY!!
2007-10-21
Sunday
2007-11-14
Wednesday
2007-09-04
Tuesday 245
2007-09-28
Friday
2007-10-22
Monday
2007-11-15
Thursday
2007-09-05
Wednesday
2007-09-29
Saturday
2007-10-23
Tuesday
2007-11-16
Friday
2007-09-06
Thursday
2007-09-30
Sunday
2007-10-24
Wednesday
2007-11-17
Saturday
2007-09-07
Friday
2007-10-01
Monday I decided not to have the surgery!
235 lbs Woeee, how'd that happen?2007-10-25
Thursday
2007-11-18
Sunday
2007-09-08
Saturday
2007-10-02
Tuesday BUT THE FIGHT IS STILL ON!!!!
2007-10-26
Friday
2007-11-19
Monday
2007-09-09
Sunday
2007-10-03
Wednesday
2007-10-27
Saturday
2007-11-20
Tuesday
2007-09-10
Monday
2007-10-04
Thursday 231 lbs
2007-10-28
Sunday
2007-11-21
Wednesday
2007-09-11
Tuesday
2007-10-05
Friday
2007-10-29
Monday
2007-11-22
Thursday
2007-09-12
Wednesday
2007-10-06
Saturday
2007-10-30
Tuesday
2007-11-23
Friday
2007-09-13
Thursday 243
2007-10-07
Sunday
2007-10-31
Wednesday
2007-11-24
Saturday
2007-09-14
Friday
2007-10-08
Monday
2007-11-01
Thursday
2007-11-25
Sunday
2007-09-15
Saturday
2007-10-09
Tuesday
2007-11-02
Friday
2007-11-26
Monday
2007-09-16
Sunday
2007-10-10
Wednesday
2007-11-03
Saturday
2007-11-27
Tuesday
2007-09-17
Monday 240
2007-10-11
Thursday
2007-11-04
Sunday
2007-11-28
Wednesday
2007-09-18
Tuesday
2007-10-12
Friday
2007-11-05
Monday
2007-11-29
Thursday
2007-09-19
Wednesday
2007-10-13
Saturday
2007-11-06
Tuesday
2007-11-30
Friday
2007-09-20
Thursday
2007-10-14
Sunday
2007-11-07
Wednesday
2007-12-01
Saturday
Sept. 25th, 2007 - I've learned a lot more information than I expected recently. Still undecided. I'm now leaning towards getting the Lipo, with all that I'd have to give up, would be more of a LOST than a gain after weighing my options. More later.
Oct. 1st, 2007 - I guess with the anxiety from my RNY surgery date worried me so that I lost 10 lbs.
Oct. 4th, 2007 - My PCP has me on a type of phen-phen med. which (to my surprise) "seems" to be working. This is my 3rd day taking it and I'm now 231. (What tha hell?!?!) I don't know HOW it's working but I just hope and pray that it CONTINUES to work.
