2 Years Out Update

Jan 30, 2011

 Well, I haven't been on here in a while - its been up, down and all around with our lives in the past year and a half. We went through my job loss, foreclosure, bankruptcy, moving to a ghetto apartment and now renting a townhome way out in the country.

Through it all, I have kept touch with several of my OH friends on FB, Twitter and YouTube, but have been pretty absent on this site. I just have had way too much going on. Life after WLS is an interesting combination of health focus, reality's impact on this focus, and times when you just have to say "screw it all" and learn to quit worrying about being so "WLS PERFECT". 

The reality of it all is, when you don't have enough money to put that roof over your head, suddenly there are things that are way more important than your own health and nutrition - and those things are your family's well being and how you're going to pull them through the hard times. Its called life. I think that is the largest lesson I have learned. LIFE. LIVING.

Pre-Surgery, I was obsessed with food. I was obsessed with what junk foods I could eat and how much of it I could eat. What obsessive yummies could I sneak in that day without my family and friends noticing? Yes, I had a major eating disorder. Candy Bar Breakfasts with Starbucks syrupy drinks, followed by junk food and snacks until lunch time - which meant anything drive through and super sized with a diet soda and a milkshake! - then on the way home from work, it was time for a little tide me over meal and another milkshake.... half gallon of ice cream before the husband got home, then a full meal with the family and more crap until bedtime. EVERY DAY. This was NOT LIVING!!!

Post-Surgery, I was obsessed with food. What not to eat. What to eat. What I would "never" eat again. Where I would "never" eat again.  This, too was NOT LIVING!!!!

I simply replaced one disorder for another. Then, LIFE intervened - and I had to learn that my days of obsessing about food were over - it was time to concentrate on more important things - Living again and taking care of the important things. I think the fact that I had to "put myself second" helped to restore balance and sanity in my life - and rescued me from the trap of food obsession. 

Long story short, I'm healthy, I'm happy. I'm still bitchy sometimes (ok, more than sometimes, but whatever). I'm more gassy than I ever was before WLS, and I've made some fantastic lifelong friends throughout this whole process.

Some days, I just want my normal guts back and some days, I thank the heavens that I still have a small pouch, and therefore can fit into reasonable sized clothing and comfortable with my body image.

And, such is life after WLS. Most docs and medical professionals don't know how to help, how to answer questions, or even what "malabsorption" means... but thank goodness we all have each other to turn to - for better or worse, for bitchy or for fun, for advice or for laughter at ignorance - we're in this $hit together. 

And that, mah friendz is where I be 2 years out.....
LOVE TO MY HOMIES.
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