Nonny S.

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Well, I don't have much to report this week.  My family kept going on and on this weekend about how much I have lost.  I don't know what the sudden change is, but I did wear an outfit that "hugged my curves" more than my usual attire.  I also went out and bought myself a new Kathy purse to celebrate me getting to a new BMI bracket.  


03-26 to 04-01
Daily Average:
Calories = 752 (should be between 1,000 and 1,050)
Fat = 24
Carbs = 52 
Protein = 77 
Calcium = 1000
Iron = 32 
Water = 1292 grams (should be between 1361 and 2835)

I have received alot of emails and phones calls from others wanting to know why I chose RNY instead of Lap Band, so I figure I can put it here too!!  The answer is simple...I did my research and found that RNY would be the better choice for ME.  At first I just went with what others told me of the RNY (mostly negative things) and decided on the Lap Band.  I only did research on the Lap Band, which (like all the different surgeries) only give you negative aspects of all the others and the positive aspects of their own.  My insurance giving me the run around forced me to look into something else.  I found that the RNY has come a long way since 20 yrs ago when everyone was having a hard time with it.  I also found that doctors can now do the RNY laproscopically which was my selling point eventhough I ended up with an open surgery...how ironic huh?  (I only had an open surgery because I really wanted Dr. Cribbins as my surgeon and he does not do RNY laproscopically.)  I appealled more to the fact that the RNY was permanent and knew that I would go into the Lap Band thinking  "oh, it's ok if I fail, I'll just take it out and get something else."  Not that this what everyone getting the band thinks, it's just that I know this is what I would think.  I also see how my mom can drink milkshakes and eat cakes, donuts, what have you and yet most of the time she can pass all that up and eat healthy.  I know in my gut I wouldn't be able to.  If I had a choice now to drink water or sweet tea, you know it would be the sweet tea everytime.  If I had an option to go to Sonic and get one of their awesome shakes, I definately would be there every evening.  If I knew I could eat a whole cookie...or two...I would instead of only a bite or two to curb my craving.  The RNY keeps me from all this.  It forces me to do the right thing.  I know one day I'll be able to eat more and could sabotage my losing, but hopefully this "honeymoon period" will get me into the right lifestyle.  I definately have admiration for all the "Bandsters" out there.  They have awesome will power!!  I'm just not that strong.  So I'll just finish by saying do alot of research and be open minded on researching ALL of the surgeries.  You're more likely to get pros and cons of the surgery you have your heart set on.

I'm feeling good today.  This weekend I hit 232 lbs which makes me Obese instead of Extremely Obese.  Woohoo!!  It also makes me half way to my goal of 150 lbs.  I remember that last time I was in the 230s I was wearing a  size 18 jeans, but now I'm in a size 20.  The only thing I can think of is the loose skin.  It's not the name brand, because I've always gotten my jeans at Wal-Mart (Riders Brand) once I got up into the plus sizes.  It doesn't bother me now, but I'm sure it will if...no...once I get to goal.  I also saw my Uncle last week for the first time since coming home from surgery.  He said that I looked good and healthy and that I don't look like I could "fall out at any minute" anymore.  I thanked him but was kind of insulted thinking "gee thanks, was I really that bad?"  But I really need to learn how to take compliments better.  I guess we all go through this huh?

03-19 to 03-25
Daily Average:
Calories = 672 (should be between 1,000 and 1,050)
Fat = 25
Carbs = 56 
Protein = 57 
Calcium = 590 (should be between 1,000 and 1,500)
Iron = 33 
Water = 897 grams (should be between 1361 and 2835)

There are few times in my life that I let my "bad ass chick" exterior down and embrace the dork within.  
1.  Whenever the Renaissance Fair is in town
2.  The opening day of any comic book inspired movie
...and this past weekend at the Josh Groban concert.
I have tried not to let others catch on that I blare his cd in my car and that I attempt to sing along, even to the songs that are in Italian and Spanish (when I know nothing of either language).  I felt all ties to the tough chick slip away when he first came out onto the stage and I instinctively wanted to jump up and down and yell like I did in middle school when I went to see New Kids on the Block.  I was able to keep my composure until he sang "Un Giorno Per Noi (Romeo e Giulietta)".   After the song was over, and I was wiping my eyes, sniffling like crazy, I looked around and noticed all the middle aged women and their 30 something daughters.  (very different than the usual crowd of drunks smoking pot I'm used to at a concert).  I leaned over and whispered to mom that I was never going to be able to sit at the cool kid's table at lunch anymore.  Then, to my surprise, the violinist, Lucia Micarelli, came to center stage and proceeded to bust out Led Zepplin's "Kashmir".  All is right in the world!!!

I had an ok week.  Luke was gone for most of the week at Sea World with Mom, so I spent that time moping around the house or at the movies.  ~Oh and fyi, "300" is a bad-ass movie!!  Not historically accurate, but I watched it Tuesday and still want to kick someone's ass!!~  I started in the middle of the week to drink two protein shakes a day since I am getting so damn tired of chicken.  Maybe this will help with my weight loss.  I hate to read everyone's profiles now, because I feel like such a slow loser.  I stall for about 3 weeks out of the month and that whole time I freak thinking that this is all I will loose.  I guess alot of people feel this way, but it's still hard to go through it. 

03-12 to 03-18
Daily Average:
Calories = 641.59 (should be between 1,000 and 1,050)
Fat = 24
Carbs = 55 
Protein = 52 
Calcium = 470 (should be between 1,000 and 1,500)
Iron = 23 
Water = 1844 grams

This week's exercise routine:
I really need motivation....

This week's entry will be short and unexciting.  I'm down because my mom left this morning to take my son to Sea World over 6 hours away.  They'll be gone for only 3 days, but I already miss him like crazy and I'm very anxious worrying about their drive there and back.  But he's almost 8 and I need to cut the umbilical cord sometime right?
Anyway, this was a good month.  
* I lost more than I did last month.  I realized that I had not been taking my hypothyroid meds and started back this month and I think that made a lot of a difference.  
* I went down another size in jeans to a size 20.  And I'm donating clothes to Goodwill like crazy.  I still have a bunch of clothes that others have given me, so I haven't bought anything other than jeans and bras.  
* Luke hugged me and his fingers touched, so we both started screaming and jumping up and down.  He was just as happy as I was!!  
* I let my steering wheel down another click.  It's getting more and more comfortable to drive.
* Like almost everyone says on these things, this surgery is the best decision I've ever made.

03-05 to 03-11
Daily Average:
Calories = 518 (should be between 1,000 and 1,050)
Fat = 20
Carbs = 40 
Protein = 43 
Calcium = 375 (should be between 1,000 and 1,500)
Iron = 31 
Water = 1063 grams (should be between 1,361 and 2,835)

This week's exercise routine:
Screw it

Well,  this weekend I've come to a realization.  Here is some sort of back story:
I had a hard time growing up.  My dad was very verbally abusive to all of us, including my mom.  I went through a period (age 17 to 22) where I cut him out of my life, because I couldn't deal with it anymore.   When I got pregnant, I let him back in so that he could know his grandchild.  It has been fine.  I only see him once or twice a year.  And his snide comments have not gotten to me.  This weekend was our first visit since my surgery and I was left feeling just like I did when I was a kid.  I figured that it must be because my outlet is gone....ie food.  Growing up, I would cry into a cheesecake, or cookies, or anything else I could find.  As an adult I would pack food when I visited him.  When he would say something hurtfull, I would pop a mini chocolate bar into my mouth and forget what was said.  This time, I could not do that.  And I don't know how to handle it.  My realization is that until I find out how to either deal with it without food, or stand up for myself, I have to cut the negativity out again.  I'll still see them, just no more than an afternoon maybe once a year.  They live 3 hrs away, so the long travel is a good excuse.  I have a feeling that this is why I'm distancing myself from my brother (who has the same sarcastic traits as Dad).  I can't cope with being hurt again, so subconciously, I'm putting up a wall instead of drowning in McDonald's quarter pounders.  On a plus side, my son is so good for my emotional health, it's unreal!!  We were watching Desperate Housewives (don't tell him I told you, he is embarrased to admit that he likes the show!!) and it showed the character Gabby walking to her car and I said "Oh, I wish I looked like that!" and he said "Soon you will, Mommy!"  That almost made me cry!  Maybe it touched me more after all the negative comments I got this weekend, but all the same, it still made me feel good!!

02-26 to 03-04
Daily Average:
Calories = 465 (should be between 1,000 and 1,050)
Fat = 15
Carbs = 40 
Protein = 41 
Calcium = 424 (should be between 1,000 and 1,500)
Iron = 23 (should be at least 18)
Water = 887 grams (should be between 1,361 and 2,835)

This week's exercise routine:
Didn't go...go ahead and say it.  It's nothing I haven't said to myself!!

This week I've noticed that my body is "mushy".  I'm going to have hanging skin everywhere!!  Gross!!  Also, my shoulders are getting bony.  Mom and I went to the movies and I was in line to get tickets while she parked the car.  As she was walking up, she didn't recognize me from behind!!  She said that she thought "Oh that lady has beautiful hair like Halona!"  When I turned around she jumped and said "Oh it's you!"  I thought that was a riot!!  Luke got a kick out of it too!!

02-19 to 02-25
Daily Average:
Calories = 671 (should be between 1,000 and 1,050)
Fat = 29
Carbs = 60 
Protein = 42 
Calcium = 480 (should be between 1,000 and 1,500)
Iron = 12 (should be at least 18)
Water = 960 grams (should be between 1,361 and 2,835)

This week's exercise routine:
Didn't go...go ahead and say it.  It's nothing I haven't said to myself!!

Well, I don't really have anything new to update.  I haven't been going to the gym, so I'm feeling slouchy.  I really need to get back on track.

02-12 to 02-18
Daily Average:
Calories = 517 (should be between 1,000 and 1,050)
Fat = 18
Carbs = 42 
Protein = 46 
Calcium = 366 (should be between 1,000 and 1,500)
Iron = 8 (should be at least 18)
Water = 874 grams (should be between 1,361 and 2,835)

This week's exercise routine:
Didn't go because Lukas was sick all week.

Gosh, I can't believe it's been 4 months already!!  I still feel that this surgery was the best thing that I've ever done.  I'm able to eat pretty much anything.  I stay away from processed sugar and try to stay away from carbs.  Chips, popcorn and crackers are my new weakness.  I know I shouldn't even buy them, but I'm not perfect.  At least when I do I buy the 100 calorie packs and limit myself 1 pack per day.  (Not every day).  And I stay up with my fitday.com and if my daily carbs are high I can keep my willpower in check and leave them be.  I still take a protein shake every morning and sometimes one at night depending on how my day went.  I haven't gotten the foamies in a long time (knock on wood) and the few times I've dumped in the last 2 months, I really didn't know what I ate that was wrong.  I guess some days food just doesn't sit well.  At least this doesn't happen often and when it does, I just feel bad, and not bad enough to leave work sick or anything.  My rule for my son about only eating fast food once a month is working.  I explained to him that this was for every place that has a drive thru.  He still asks (he's a kid) but I've stuck to my guns and he doesn't complain.  Now if I can just figure out how to get my mom to not take him to Sonic afterschool for a slushie or ice cream.  But he has lost some weight, so I shouldn't be too hard I guess.

02-05 to 02-11
Daily Average:
Calories = 585 (should be between 1,000 and 1,050)
Fat = 27
Carbs = 44 
Protein = 41 
Calcium = 348 (should be between 1,000 and 1,500)
Iron = 4 (should be at least 18)
Water = 926 grams (should be between 1,361 and 2,835)

This week's exercise routine:
Monday = Didn't go because I had to do laundry
Tuesday = Treadmill ~ 30 min. at 3MPH for 1.5 miles 
Wednesday = Treadmill ~ 30 min. at 3MPH for 1.5 miles 
Thursday = Didn't go because Luke was sick
Friday = Treadmill ~ 15 min. at 3MPH for .75 miles
Saturday = Didn't go because I had to chaperone my sister and her friends after her sleepover Friday night.  They didn't get picked up until after 12.