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Mental Breakdown!!
Aug 26, 2011
OK I think today I just had a mental breakdown. I am such a baby today. all I feel like I can do is cry and cry and cry more because I am so pissed off, so angry. and I don't know why. everything is getting to me. I have been on my liquid diet since Monday. and Ive been loosing about a pound a day. I do feel weak, I have a head ache. and I just wanna be left alone in my room all day. but I cant do that. I am a mom. I have to be their for my girl. really doesn't help that she is teething right now again. today I kept asking myself is this the right time to have this surgery?? am I doing the right thing. but I know this is the only thing that will work for me. I do want this. I wanna be a better mom for McKenzie and I wanna be healthy and enjoy life with her. she is my world!Lately I have had McKenzie's dad on my case, I have been with him for years but the past 1- 1 1/2yrs we have not been together. we broke up when while i was pregnant. and I have wanted us to be a family. but he kept telling me i don't know and stuff. so I just woke up and realized that he is not what I want. so for the past month he has been pressuring me to be with him. and I just told him I need space. now he is free to see our daughter when ever he wants. but when he comes its back over to see her he is like " baby I miss you and blah blah"! there is alot more to this story. but I don't understand why don't he get the fact I need space and I just wanna get this surgery done and over with and have no problems!
My diet so far is going good. I am stronger person then I thought I was. I am OK with the liquid diet until, my family comes home and makes dinner. I just hope I can make it Thu another week!!!
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About Me
marcus hook, PA
Location
34.5
BMI
Surgery
09/06/2011
Surgery Date
Apr 05, 2011
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