Happytall1
Journey in 2009
Jan 22, 2009
January 29, 2009Today is my 3 month mark since surgery and I have lost 70 lb in that time - it is surreal. I still don't feel hungry - I know in my head I need to eat protein and still get all of it in. I am having more trouble getting my fluids in - nothing is really tasting appealing. I either get lemonade with blackberry flavoring or cherry but sometimes that is too sweet. I do flavor some water but that gets boring too. I know I can adjust but it has been hard to make myself drink. I am still losing at a steady rate and haven't had a stall to this point (lets hope I am not bringing one on by saying that!) I walk around the block a couple times a week but have not started a structured exercise plan. I still focus on eating protein and not so many carbs. By the time I eat I can't imagine trying to eat carbs because I would probably explode. I have to eat over a long period of time which is good. I wish I could have learned that a long time ago. I am getting back near a weight when I had to be put on steroids for my sarcoidosis and am feeling better about being in public. Still not overly confident but I have never been that way.....so that is something I will continually have to work at. I hope through my learning/struggles/life lessons I can help my daughter deal with her emotions and feelings so she can cope better then I did. I am excited about the journey thus far. Hayley said looking at past surgery patient's that a good place to be by 6 months is 100lb lost. I am hoping to beat that but I am excited right now that I am getting my health back! I am thankful for all the new friendships and this journey that hopefully will change my destiny.
January 22, 2009
I went for my 3 month follow up appointment and "exercise class" today with Dr. Stewart. Each time I talk with Dr. Stewart I gain more respect for this man! According to his scale I have lost 67lb (mine says 68) and lost 9 points on my BMI. He said if I continue the way I am going that I could make it to goal by one year. He said with the DS we have more flexibility (about 18 months) versus the bypass (12 months). I have been tired but he feels it is not getting enough rest and my body adjusting to the weight loss. My pre-op iron levels were good so he doesn't think it is that but stated I could take iron if I wanted to. He doesn't like to set a specific number goal but thought I could realistically get down to a BMI of 25. I can NEVER remember being that small. It was nice to hear that he thought I realistically could loose that much weight - it is like hearing someone believe in you when you are not sure if you can make it or not. This journey has brought to my awareness just how much my success hinges on comments people make and how powerful my own thoughts are. IF there is one thing I am realizing is how powerful the "I can do this" attitude is. Instead of playing a victum which I think sometimes I used my weight so I could play the victum role. Not getting involved and participating because of "my weight" - instead of just saying I am not interested because I don't want to do something OR doing things because I want people to like me and if I don't then I might not have people around me who care. In reality - I know in my head those are not rationale thoughts and if someone is so trivial that they would choose not to be around me because of weight then I don't need them as a friend. But the fear of being alone is constantly in the background peaking its head out - yet I know that I am okay alone and I will survive...... I have done well for the last 9 years and have done many things that were dreams of mine. It is those voices and tapes in my head from growing up as a fat girl in high school and being teased that I have to fight. Knowing I am worth the fight and that this is part of God's plan for me so I can hopefully help others - and particularly help my daughter so she doesn't experience the pain I have felt. Yet I know she already is going through some of the things that will stick with her the rest of her life which I am saddened by and deeply regret not standing up to my own mother for that. All I know is that I have to go forward because the future is where dreams are made - being in the present allows me to realize the importance of my actions and looking at the past only makes regrets ......I want to give my power and energy to the present and future. I want to make it to goal and be successful - I know I will always battle with the tapes in my head but I have to put up a fight - because IF I don't think I am worth it -who will?? I am so thankful for the DS and all my friends on OH that I can share this journey and not be scared of what anyone thinks because there is always someone who can relate to what you are going through!
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TX
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23.7
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Surgery
10/29/2008
Surgery Date
Apr 20, 2008
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