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March 2 -- JUNK
Mar 01, 2008
After trying on that 18/20 sweater and having it fit yesterday, I decided to THROW the rest out. I'm not giving myself permission for any more junk like that. I'm just telling myself after I get to goal, one day a month on my surgery anniversary I can eat anything I want and maybe even a chocolate covered cherry on Sundays!
I'm hoping by then I won't have a taste for any of that junk, but the point is -- as long as I don't say -- YOU CAN NEVER HAVE THAT AGAIN -- it won't have a hold over me. If I tell myself I'll never have that again it will just make me insane, this way I can just say, not right now...but later if you still want it you can have it, I promise, now be a good girl and eat a sugar-free popsicle!
March 1, 2008 Smaller sizes...
Mar 01, 2008
the fitting room because it was my favorite sweater and it was the only size they had. I thought I'd see just how far I had to go before I could wear it.
You probably know where this is going.the 18/20 FIT ME!!!!!! I glanced up at my face and my look was comical..I'm not sure I've ever looked so surprised in my life! I just stood there in shock!! Then I looked down at the jeans I wore in the store thinking that they were looking good and they were like clown pants! I didn't buy pants because I knew I had smaller jeans at home. I went home and changed!
I'm weighing right around 220 these days (surgery on 11/5) and I've been thinking how is that people who weigh around what I weigh say they are in 18s and 16s.they must carry their weight differently because I'm still in 3x and 26/28!! How odd that I was in denial about being a SMALLER size.
2/28/08 I finally did it. I ate something that made me sick
Feb 27, 2008
I'm feeling much better today, still a litlte crampy, but nothing like yesterday! I wasn't able to eat much at all yesterday though, cause I just didn't feel like it, so I woke up this morning weight 220.8. I'm not logging it on my chart below though, cause I don't know if it's "real" yet -- we'll see what happens after I eat regular food today.
Feb. 25, 2008 -- 223.2
Feb 24, 2008
February 22, 2008--AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
Feb 21, 2008
Good grief. I feel like crying!! I'm still STUCK!! If anything I've been eating better than ever this week, plus I started walking a mile EVERY day. Oh wait, I'm not stuck, I'm down .6 of a pound. Sheeeeeesh!! It's so frustrating, especially after the pounds were just dropping off left and right. I know, I know, this happens to everyone, and it will pick back up again, but I'm not having any fun!!
Plus Dave told me he has something special for me when I hit "Onederland." I'm sure it's a fun piece of jewelry!!! I can't wait!
February 19, 2008 -- STUCK
Feb 19, 2008
It's weird though...when it used to take me a year to loose 50 pounds and I'd get down to 240 I'd feel like I'd lost soooooooooo much weight. Well at 225 I still feet as fat as I ever was. Everyone is telling me what huge difference there is though, so I know it's noticeable to everyone else.
Anyway, I can't believe that I'm only 26 pounds from Onederland! 26 pounds!! Unfreaking believable!
February 12, 2008 -- Hair Loss
Feb 12, 2008
I've noticed for the last week or so that my hair is coming out by the handful. I was hoping it was my imagination...but no, it's definitely coming out. Not in "clumps" but definitely enough for me to notice. I've got a lot of hair, so I hope it won't become obvious. For some reason I thought I might be one of those people who didn't get the hair loss. I can eat anything I want, just smaller portions, so I was hoping I was getting enough nutrition to avoid it. But I guess it's not just about nutrition.
I also do not dump--I've eaten sugar in moderation and been fine. I haven't had anything overly fatty and I doubt I will anytime soon, but so far no dumping.
February 4, 2008 -- Exactly 3 months & 62 pounds
Feb 03, 2008
3 months ago today I had my surgery. These 3 months have gone by so fast. I've lost 62 pounds too. Pre-surgery that would take me a year, at least. And I'm confident that I'm still loosing...I'd be at a standstill for sure, pre-surgery. I can not believe I'm just 30 pounds from "onederland!!!" I have been there since my early 20s.
January 27, 2008 -- Uncomfortable with all the praise.
Jan 27, 2008
So now for something completely different....
I've been closet shopping...I think I mentioned I cleaned out my closets a couple weeks ago and I found a lot of clothes that I haven't been able to wear in a while so I know I've been going down at least a size. I'm still wearing a lot of the same pants...they must have been really tight fitting, or they look like clown pants now and I don't realize it.
My sister and I (and a couple) friends are going to a spa next month and I knew I didn't want to run around in one of their robes. I may have lost some weight, but NOT that much. I went and bought what we used to call a "jogging suit" back in the day. It's just a soft jersey material...a pair of pants and a jacket. I was able to buy them in a smaller size. The pants are a 26/28 -- I was in a 30/32 in most pants before surgery. The jacket is a 22/24 which I haven't been able to wear in quite awhile, so that was kind of fun.
January 17, 2008 -- 239 pounds--down 54 pounds
Jan 17, 2008
Overall things are going well. I feel good. I eat a wide variety of foods. I don't want to test the limits. I did have a bite of cake the other day and was happy to stop at that. Wow, satisfied with one bite of cake.