Heather E.
January 5, 2010
Jan 05, 2010
It is hard for me to write "2010"!!! I hate it when the year changes, only because it takes me a good two months to feel comfortable writing the date again.I emailed the compliance officer at the CA DOI yesterday, asking about my file. I've been wondering if when they say "decision within 30 days," it means 30 business days or 30 calendar days. He emailed me back and said, yes, indeed, it is 30 calendar days [which means I should've had a decision *yesterday*!]; however, due to the holidays, he expects decisions to be slightly delayed, and that he would let me know as soon as he receives my decision. Have I mentioned how much I hate waiting? I am not patient at all when it comes to things like this. I just want to get on with my life. There are so many plans to be made if I do have surgery: scheduling all of my pre-op stuff with GHP, taking time off at work, finding someone to stay at my house with my son and our pets while I'm in the hospital, figuring out who's going to take me to the hospital and bring me home...etc, etc, etc. Yup, I'm a planner, and I don't like to not have a plan in place for everything. I have been saving up my vacation and sick/personal days for over six months now, in anticipation of needing the time off for my DS, and now I just found out that if I don't hurry up and take some more time off, I can't accrue any new vacation time because I've hit the 160 hour limit. Crap! I don't want to lose out on accruing time off that I have earned, yet I don't really NEED to take any time off right now, just because I just took a week off over Christmas. I wrote down on the calendar last night that I would take the last week of February off. I am hoping that I can just schedule surgery for that week, and then ask for more time off from there. Definitely looking into STD...going to take off as much time as I possibly can so that I can ensure that I am completely healed and recovered, and ready to return to work. There is no sense in rushing back when I have those options available to me.
I sometimes feel like I am at a standstill, and I hate that feeling. I am trying to stay positive - yes, I will get my DS, etc. - but like I said, I'm a planner. I want to finish ordering my vitamins from Vitalady. I want to get stocked up on protein supplements, clear liquids, all that stuff. But then there is this nagging thought in the back of my mind: "what if this doesn't happen? Why would you need all that stuff? Why spend the money on it if you don't have surgery?" I am totally afraid of jinxing myself - if I order or buy the stuff I am going to need post-op, then I will not get surgery. Makes me nuts!
