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so yesterday was a bust, didn't do so good with my plans. that seems to be my trend every day i start out with the best of intentions then let myself fall short of the mini goals i am setting. so for today i am just gonna take it hour by hour and if i screw up an hour i will not beat myself up and throw the towel in, i will just look at each new hour as i have been looking at the next day. so let my first hour begin...now!

so today is august 1, a new day, i am going to make some positve changes starting now. I am going to war on the 30 pounds i have gained. I know that it won't be easy, but i am going to just get back to basics!

Thank you for all the support and kind words during my frustration, it really does help to know that other people are going through the same things. At times with the weight gain, you can start to feel like a failure, and i just don't want this to turn into another thing that i have started and am not able to finish.

So today is a new day, wish me luck...

i have never blogged, i can't even figure out how to post a pic yet, but here goes, I had RNY 2 1/2 years ago, i did really well, looked great and more importantly felt great. However over the last 6 months i have become obsessed with food and all things that i should not be doing. i can now honestly say that i know how addicts feel, because food has become my drug of choice, the problem being is that i have gained weight back and am feeling not so great any longer. everyone says this is a journey well the road started great, but somewhere along the path i veered off hit a tree, rolled off a cliff and am now at the bottom looking for a trail back to the right path. if there is anyone who has felt this way and has some suggestions i would love to hear them. i have talked to nutrition and the doctor, but i know what to do i just can't seem to stop myself from the same bad habbits. i even thought of going to talk with someone, but they have changed my insurance and the copays for that kind of visit are now outrageos. i do however go to the gym regulary, i haven't stopped doing that, probably missing some of the motivation, but i show up and do the workouts.