Sexy L.
Changes in my life.
Jan 11, 2008
There are a lot of things going on in my life, and I am not at all sure of how they are going to affect me. Some of them I am happy about and others I am not. Both promise to be stressful. Those of you that have kept up with me this last two years know that a year and a half ago my daughter became extremely ill and I ended up with two of my grandchildren. Then last March my ex-husband had a massive stroke with no on to take care of his affairs, so stupid good samaritan me stepped up to the plate and did it. Now I am coming to regret that. I discussed everything I did with him, and now he "doesn't remember" all that. He didn't have much money and I did the best I could with what he had. Now he is threatening legal action against me because I didn't do better. Just goes to prove that no good deed goes unpunished.
My daughter is leaving the care home and going into her own place and the kids are going back with her. After a year and a half, it will be just Chuck and I again. I will miss the kids, but at the same time I am happy to no longer be a grandma Mom.
Does that sound bad? There is so many under currents and things going on with these two events and all that has transpired this last year and a half that I don't want to get into, but this is a happy, sad, confussing and stressful time.
Hopeing and praying that you all have a good day. Hazel
My daughter is leaving the care home and going into her own place and the kids are going back with her. After a year and a half, it will be just Chuck and I again. I will miss the kids, but at the same time I am happy to no longer be a grandma Mom.
Does that sound bad? There is so many under currents and things going on with these two events and all that has transpired this last year and a half that I don't want to get into, but this is a happy, sad, confussing and stressful time.
Hopeing and praying that you all have a good day. Hazel
A road trip.
Jan 08, 2008
Today I took a road trip with my friend Jill. We have not been friends for very long, just a few months. But sometimes it doesn't take a long time to be close. We went to a support group in North Platte. That is a several hour drive in both directions. We got to know a whole lot about each other during that trip. We laughed and cryed and had an utterly wonderful time. I hope each of you reaches out to your friends in some way and makes your relationship even stronger. Hazel
First day of the rest of our lives
Jan 07, 2008
When you get up each morning do you realize just how important this day will be? I will be the first day of the rest of your life. You will never come this way again to change anything, and yet everything you do this day will affect every day from this point on. That does not mean that if you make a mistake you are doomed to live in regret and failure because of it, for you will learn for the future. Live this day for what it is, the first day of the end of your life. Do your best and live it. Don't throw it away, live it. Hazel
2nd yr anniversary.
Jan 07, 2008
Today I had my two year dr's check-up. I was labled a WLS success. That made me feel wonderful. I finally feel like I have done well. Even though I have put a few pounds back on, I am a success. How is that successful? I know how I put them back on and am working my tool and program again to take them back off. My success is not just a number on the scale, nor is it just a clothing size. It is not just fact of better health, It is all of these and so much more. It is one of those things that everyone must find for themselves, and for me it is I have finally found me. The me I was always meant to be. Not the person hiding behind that ton of fat. I don't have that excuse to use anymore when things go wrong in my life. They don't like me because I am fat. I didn't get that job because I was fat. Whatever it is that is negative is because I was fat. I have to look at everything from right out there in front, not from behind the fat. What is your success? Hazel
A new day.
Jan 02, 2008
It is the second day in a new year, and it has been a confusing day, but it is one of those things that all is well that ends well. Today ended well. For the most part that is. One of my furnaces still is on the fritz, but they are suppose to be out tomorrow to fix it. I know you are scratching your head wondering how I have more than one furnace, but see, I am living in what use to be my cafe, and it has two furnaces and two air conditioners. Does this make you scratch your head more? Why am I living in a cafe? Well that is a looooooong story. But that is a story for another time. Now that I have you totally confused you, I am going to leave you with word of wisdom, hey, guess what, I used all my days allotment of words of wisdome, so I will just wish you a wonderous what is left of this day, live it to it's fullest,after all, this is the last time you will have a chance to live this day.
Hazel
Hazel
The on going journey
Dec 29, 2007
This is a journey that never ends. It is like the Energizer Bunny, it just keeps right on going and going. The new year is right around the corner and I want to make it my best year yet. No New Year's Resolutions for me, just goals to work toward. The starting place is knowing my stressors and doing what is needed to eliminate them. I have already found out what a difficult task that is going to be, but it has to be done if I am going to become what God planned me to be instead of what I allowed life to make of me. My second goal is to put laughter, real honest to goodness laughter into my life each and every day. My third goal is to not let me and my life be ruled by other people and other things. Make it my life again. It use to be that way, before my daughter got sick and since then it has become, I don't even know how to explain it. If you haven't been there the last year and a half, you would have no idea of what I am talking about. I will post all of that at another time. One thing that I will say is that the last year and a half has turned me into a very angry person. I don't like me that way and God didn't mean for me to be that way. If I don't get back here before the New Year arrives, I wish you all a wonderful New Year, and be safe on New Year's Eve. I don't want to see any of you injured in the celebrating that goes with that night and I sure don't want to lose any of you. Hazel
Pound up, Pound down.
Dec 27, 2007
I am working on getting back to the weight that I want to weigh in at. It isn't what I hit when I was at my lowest, I just wasn't healthy at that weight. There is such a thing as to skinny just like there is a thing as to fat. I am learning that I have to watch every day so that I don't put on more than a pound. My tool is still fine tuned, but that magical window is just open a crack, not like that first year or so. The one thing about this weight loss journey, is, it is a learning and growing road. But it is exciting. No two days are the same. I am just about three wks from being two years out and I am so happy that I had the surgery. Even on the not so good days.
Happy Holidays
Dec 24, 2007
To all that take the time to stop by, Merry Christmas. Santa made an early stop here at Hordville. I have to be at work at 6 in the morning, and I work twelve hours so Santa had to stop for the grandkids tonight. It was so funny, I went to the bathroom and the dogs started barking. I told the kids to go see who was at the door. No one was there, but hanging on the door were three presents. The looks on the kids faces when they opened their presents, was Christmas for me. You would have to know the whole story to fully understand. I am going to toddle off to bed now, so Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night. Hazel
The reason for the season.
Dec 11, 2007
I just finished posting a comment on a friends profile about not really enjoying this time of year, and the reasons why. Since I am not completely in tune with the inner workings of my mind and emotions (I do pretty well, but there are still things that baffle me somewhat)I don't fully understand why this time of year is such a drudge for me. Some of it is personal loss and some of it is the let down of to many expectations, but even those wouldn't make it go as deep as it goes. I do know that I really resent the materialistic attitude of the Christmas season. I love the true meaning of Christmas, celebrating the birth of my Lord and Savior, but it seems with each passing year there is less and less recognization of the Lords birth. The other night hubby and I went out just looking at the decorations in the yards and on the houses. We saw lots of Frosty's and Santa's and a ton of Grinches, but no where did we see a manger or the wise men or the angels or the shepards or any of the things told about in the story of Christ's birth in the Bible. That truely upsets me. I have two of my grandchildren with me, yet I cannot even get into the swing of Christmas for their sake. Somehow I still feel the it is their mother's job to make the plans for her children's holiday. I know that I would have to do a great deal of the work, but she needs to make the plans. I want to be grandma and not mom and dad and everything else to them. Does that sound selfish? I really hope not, but I am exhausted and it is really showing up this year. Enough of my b------ and complaining. As I always say,"This to will pass." Hope you are all having a merrier Christmas season than I am. Hazel
The slowest internet
Dec 10, 2007
I have a new internet provider, and it is the slowest in the whole world. I need to find a new provider that I don't have to sit an hour to make a simple change in site. Even my old provider was better than this and I thought it was slow. Enough for the woes of internet service. The bottom line is at least I have internet again.
We don't need another Rudolf to grace the season here, since I look like him. I ended up with staph infection in my nose, of all places. Have you ever heard of such a thing? Well it has made my nose bright, shinny red and as big as a Christmas tree bulb. An boy oh boy does it hurt.
I am doing my best to stay on track and get those pounds that I gained off again. I go back for my yearly check up 1/8/08, and I don't want to bet that much higher. I don't think I want to get back to my lowest, but I would be happy to lose some of it. Well, you all have a wonderful day and keep on tracken. Hazel.
We don't need another Rudolf to grace the season here, since I look like him. I ended up with staph infection in my nose, of all places. Have you ever heard of such a thing? Well it has made my nose bright, shinny red and as big as a Christmas tree bulb. An boy oh boy does it hurt.
I am doing my best to stay on track and get those pounds that I gained off again. I go back for my yearly check up 1/8/08, and I don't want to bet that much higher. I don't think I want to get back to my lowest, but I would be happy to lose some of it. Well, you all have a wonderful day and keep on tracken. Hazel.
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Hordville, NE
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Surgery
01/19/2006
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Nov 06, 2005
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